#lumalabanpadin

[maxdenningsss]

wrote this last sunday

People have been telling me things like, okay lang yan let's move on. Or "mahahanap mo din yung tao na para talaga sayo", “hayaan mo na siya, wala na talaga yan”. "Dont be sad don’t be this don’t be that instead do this do that. Magagaling kasi ang mga People. Kayang kaya nila.

Im sorry kasi i cannot digest those words. I just cant.

Okay lang naman siguro maging malungkot kung yun ang nararamdaman ko dba?

Hindi naman ako nagpapakaplastic para sabihin ko na okay lang ako. Hindi e, I am still on the process of grieving. Grieving for a person na buhay pa. Ilang beses ko na din naranasan magdalamhati para sa mga taong wala na. Tatay ko, lola ko, kaibigan ko, teacher ko. Few of the people I can remember that moved me when they passed away. So please wag kayong magmarunong na akala nyo you know better. Well we know things siguro nga you know better pero this time i just fucking know i know better. Anu daw?hehe

I do miss mornings with him. Every waking moment with him. Every idle moment with him. How he hold my hand sa tuwing naglalakad kami or kapag nakaupo lang kami sa jeep papuntang Pasig o Las Pinas. Shet miss ko siya. Pinasaya nya ako. Sobrang miss ko yun.

Para sa akin ang sarap maging tao at magmahal.

Pero while we are grieving, we can celebrate pa din naman. For new experiences. This and all shit. Lets celebrate good memories and learn from the struggles. Oh tapos na ako maglitanya, kayo naman. Pasensya na its a blessed sunday thus this feels of solitude. Laban pa din.