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autistic-shaiapouf · 4 months

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It's 11pm so I know this is influencing my feelings but. make it make sense, no one in this household has beef with me bc 1) I'm never home and 2) I ingratiate myself with everyone so everyone thinks I'm on their side, when in actuality I can't stand any of them. What I am witnessing has me developing more bitterness for other people than my year and a half of customer service has done. Not one person here has a functioning brain and yet expect me to feel pity. To reach out.

Leave.

#i am metaphorically taking a drag from a cigarette. god. god.#i don't purposefully play nice with everyone; im just kind of laid back; you know what i dont think i wanna be everyone's friend #i am becoming everyone's savior and i am becoming increasingly embittered by it #I'm just. tired. i was gonna stick this in my drafts and call it a night but i think i want this out in public actually #this is the equivalent of yelling at a wall with neighbors on the other side. one roommate got the cops involved against the other #you know. maybe magnolia is right. maybe i should be allowed to attack someone rabid animal style.#manifestinggggggggggg the pleasant dissociation from the increasingly strained environment here. please.#let it go past me. uncaring. unbothered. absolutely flourishing. roasting a smore over the flames of hell. that's what it's all about #turning this into a growth moment. something like that.#shai speaks #have been listening to take care as I've been typing and ngl it's helping me feel a little more calmed down lmao

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