#maybe i should have a regular 'ezra is letting go of these neat things' mini-event for my friends lmao

[owlbelly]

it is SO much easier for me to get rid of things if i'm giving them to someone specific

a lot of things i hang onto because i'm attached to them aesthetically, or i'm vaguely sentimental about them but not enough to really make them part of my present-day life, or i just feel like they're valuable (mostly in a practical/functional way, not often in a monetary way but sometimes) but then i don't actually use them or look at them very much due to [gesturing at brain]. when it comes time to clean out, the thought of just donating them to a thrift store that will mark them up or even potentially throw them away makes it hard to let go of them! i can do it with things i don't care about, i donate a lot (as an avid thrifter myself) but there's certain things i don't want to do that with

& theoretically i should be posting all the time in my local Buy Nothing group but i am beyond tired of the flakiness & pettiness, it's just full up with middle-aged cis straight white women who will never pick anything up from you & then throw a fit about being "passed over" for other items. somebody made a local queer-specific one but it's (of course) mostly folks who don't live up in the sticks & don't drive so it would be on me to deliver stuff. sometimes i do for really good shit, i was thinking i might do that with one of my guitars soon. but for smaller stuff that's a big hassle

i wish there was like. a regular free swap meet-up or something. i love to SEE someone get excited about finding/receiving a thing! a month ago i brought a bunch of old barely-used sketchbooks & notebooks to Zine Club at the library & got to see a group of 10-year-olds go absolutely wild, i'm about to do it again tomorrow. if i know something is gonna be loved/used i'm so much more ready to part with it!! idk if this is a personification-of-objects thing or if i'm just craving the dopamine of gift-giving or what