#media/aesthetics as possible. which meant. LATCH ONTO THE FIRST WLW MOVIE YOU EVER WATCH APPARENTLY | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

karinyosa · 2 months

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cleaning out my following list and am being reminded of the phase i had where i was trying to make myself feel about being wlw the way i felt about being mlm (which is not what i called it at the time and also i was bisexual at this time) and i did this by. following every random carol fan blog i could find jshdsjhshjdsdcjhsdjchsbjdcgshdcjsdghcjh

#to be fair this phase introduced me to some banger media #but i literally was like so disturbed by how i felt about mlm media that i tried to compensate by placing myself in as much proximity to wl #media/aesthetics as possible. which meant. LATCH ONTO THE FIRST WLW MOVIE YOU EVER WATCH APPARENTLY #i was trying to train myself to be sapphic/a better sapphic?? and present as such. Online #which i feel like sapphic is a different thing from being wlw/gay (for women) but thats another conversation #but yeah LMAO i was like i need to be reading/watching more WOMAN media. man PURGE #bizarre form of not quite conversion therapy i dont even know what to say lmaooooooo #karinyo.txt #but yeah no like the way i dressed was to an extent how i imagined a specific type of bisexual/sapphic woman might dress #and i was trying to seek out wlw media that was like. the wlw equivalent of the mlm media i liked. like i thought the issue was the type #of media i'd seen. this is how i got into within the wires #which is a BANGER podcast to be fair wtw season 2 SLAPS. love those insane old women <3 #but no yeah i was like. it's hashtag carol christmas smiling emoji smiling emoji #literally hello fellow sapphics #this is why part of me is still like maybe the only reason i dont like girls is becuse i associate that with being a woman HJDHFJSHJ #like maybe when he gets on testosterone he'll be slightly more bisexual #may also have had something to do with the fact that most of my friends strongly preferred women and/or ided as wlw-adjacent at the time?#like i also just wanted to be seen by them as having good taste shdskdsjdkj #hence. man purge

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