#midnight love🌁; talking

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also shameful i've only blogged about my beautiful trek women on main.... i have to find songs and then talk about them here in like one more week enterprise summer starts again for my beautiful world and i can talk about how i have to kiss t'pol with tongue

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i have to start using this blog again. literally my women i miss them but im so superhero brained im stuck on main I need to find a DC or marvel lady to become insane about forever

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that "you're a 'butch' who wants to take a bubble bath... right" post is making me insane bc all it's done for me is made me imagine taking a bubble bath w Fujiko *crumbles into dust bc I'm insanely in love with my wife*

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Fujiko is a lesbian she has never been genuinely in love w any man ever she doesn't care abt them they mean nothing to her except as a means to get ahead 😑 she's dykey. and my femme!!

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feeling the sadness over not having a very masc closet anymore so it is like *tries layering a t-shirt over feminine cut clothes and crying internally bc I feel a bit like a failure over it bc it doesn't look good*

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google how to make the playboy bunny suit butch and make sure men know it's not for them to see me in but other lesbians and wlw to see

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is there anything better than having a little romance and/or a friendship w a voc4lo1d girl? no.

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thinking abt my bestie butch Miku again *imagining other voc4lo1ds as butch and having a great time*

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Thinking abt butch Miku again *starts crying imagining our friendship where she is my little baby butch friend and maybe she looks up to me a lil*

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foster have name for voca insert so u kno what that means 😏 repost time 😏

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not me thinking abt changing all my sexuality headcanons for my f/os

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WAAAHHH no my heart feels so happy and glowy... Being butch... There's no feeling like it :-)

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*imagines my fictional girlfriends as the femmes and butches to my butch to lure my brain back to the comfort and happiness of that identity and that it is ok to come back to if it currently brings me happiness even if we don’t identify w it again in the future* 

[citypoplovers]

I miss being butch so much idk how to describe it... I felt so happy and like I had meaning when I identified w it and I loved myself despite so much of my inner turmoil. Being butch when I was younger saved the future me I think. I miss it... But I feel like I can no longer be it bc of like the past year or so and so much changed (not in good ways for good things; I changed myself to be something I wasn't). But I miss it. I miss feeling like I had meaning. I miss my home of being butch so much. I miss the safety and love and protection I felt as one. I wanna be one again so bad but I feel like something is stopping me and I'm not allowed to... But I wanna be that again so bad. I miss being chivalrous protector filled with softness and love and masculinity made into my own.

[citypoplovers]

foster loves being lesbian foster loves posting abt women and loving them on this blog and appreciating all eir lovely gee effs on dis blog

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girl help I keep getting art of fuji.ko bleeding out on my dash