ā°āā¤Love sick
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Also, Alphonse have reasons why he gave the worst advises. First, because he is homophobic. Second, he just want to see drama
"Brother I need help." Angst said nervously as he fiddle with his fingers.
This is not a scene you can see everyday so Crescent is quite surprised.
"Of course but let me finish my prayer first. You can pray too ifā"
"I need help about love-"
Crescent eyes sparks as he immediately left his prayers.
"of course brother! I have so many advices to tell you!"
Angst could tell this is going to be a long speech...
*a few hours later*
It's indeed a long speech.
"So what I need to do is to love him back, ask him on a date then kiss him?" Angst asked. "Is that what people with emotions should do?"
"Yeah duh, I read many novels about it. The heroine confessed to emotionless Duke and they both got the romantic arc yet heroine ran away because the Duke suddenly ignore her. The duke went crazy and obsessed with heroine so he kidnapped her and emotionally plus physically abuse her HAHAHAHAā" crescent realized he rambled nonsense. "I apologizes for my vulgar words, brother."
"Interesting...? So is that how love should be?" asked Angst.
"I mean yeah I guess.. Like mother and father... ... But please be nothing like father. Just inherited his possessive and obsessive behavior, that's so romantic in novel!" Said Crescent.
"Really...?" Angst still questioning whether it's a good idea to asked his twin brother. "How to love him back then..?"
"Oh, that's easy. Just think 24/7 hours about him." claimed Crescent. "I always thought about the God Sol and pray for him every hours."
"Right... You totally did not think of that model boy." Angst rolled his eyes and scoffed.
"If you're going to accuse me for adultery then no, I did not commit such sins. I just have this unfortunate feelings and I am mature enough to pray so my sins will be forgiven." Crescent is quick to defend himself.
"Yeah, yeah whatever. Believe whatever you want to believe." Angst got up from his seat. "Thanks for the advice, brother..."
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"Mom. This may sounds weird but could you give me some advice about love?"
Killer coughs after hearing her son request.
"Huh???" She did not expect for Angst asked such question. "Uhm... Angst do you like someone?"
"uh... I'm not sure but he confessed to me and said he likes me." Said Angst.
"Oh... Is it your friend Gradient...?" Asked Killer.
"yeah..."
Killer smiles at her son and pat his head. "You two make a good couple, Gradient truly like you. So you must like him back. He'll be sad if a gentleman like you reject him." Said Killer.
"Hmm... Alright, I see..."
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"Father, I need advice about loveā"
Alphonse choked on his coffee.
"What the fuck???" Alphonse is in disbelief.
"Just give me some words about love." He frown. "you lived for centuries, you must fell in love with many women." accused Angst.
"I did not." Alphonse sighed and say, "Take a seat son, I just know some relationship advice to give you."
"Alright, I'm fine with it." Angst then took a seat as he wait patiently for his father words.
"I take that Gradient confessed to you...?" Alphonse only have a disappointment expression now.
"Why mom and you knew it right away?"
"That boy can't hide his feelings. I'm surprised you are oblivious despite how many times he show he is in love with you." Said Alphonse. "But anyway... Talking about this, you have to keep that boy on leash."
"Why?"
"You know the reason very well. You and I are not so different, we both became 'lovesick' to our loved one." Alphonse grin. "I mean look at Crescent... He's all over that disgusting boy." Alphonse rolled his eyes.
"Oh..." Angst nodded.
"Don't be so down, Angst. Look at the bright side, you will have Gradient by your side forever and he won't have to leave you. Violence is necessary if he decide to disobey." Said Alphonse.
"I'm not like you...-"
"I haven't finish my talk yet." Alphonse cut him off. "You don't have to hurt him physically, instead you should do it mentally. Maybe hurt yourself if he decide to leave or manipulated him thinking you're the victim." Alphonse then pour a glass of wine for Angst. "Drugging him is also necessary... Just in case if he decide to fight against you."
"..." Angst nodded as he listened to the explanation.
Alphonse smile proudly and hand the wine over Angst.
"Cheer up son, at least the kingdom will have two rulers to take over." Said Alphonse.
"Right..." Angst took the glass of wine and drank it. "Thanks for the talk, it's quite useful."
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Love and obsession.
Angst can't tell the difference between them. He likes Gradient right?
Yes, Gradient confessed to him. He made Angst to have this emotions, so he must take the responsibility.
But what kind of emotions...?
Desperation and obsession. It's not a pure love, no...
Angst seem to mistaken the emotions for love. That's why he desperately need Gradient. So he can feel secure.
Gradient is the only one who support and nice to him right? No one else right?
"Oh, Angst you're here!" Gradient walk towards Angst and greeted him.
"ah... Gradient." Angst grin as he hold Gradient chin. "The answer is yes, I love you too."
And that's when the chase between predator and prey started...
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The Handmaidās Tale 5x04 āDear Offredāš
Dragged my heels typing this one up...š¬
Last episode ended with āNEVER TOUCH MY DAUGHTER AGAINā (to crazy lady, re Hannah) and this one started with āDO NOT TOUCH MY DAUGHTERā (to crazy lady, re Holly Nichole). June being ferocious protective mama bear of both her babiesā¤ļø. This scene also reminded me of the flashback where a woman tried to steal baby Hannah in the hospital, except much more insidious with the Gilead vitriol. And while then June was frozen, post Gilead June immediately and ferociously defends. I really donāt think this woman has any idea who sheās dealing with...
āWas...was she ok? (nervous laugh)ā š Ok this is NOT the therapy June needs. This woman is terrified of June and itās kind of hilarious but also not funny bc she is so clearly not equipped, and wtf is Luke doing there to give disappointed sighs and talk about her with the therapist in the third person like sheās not there? āHow do we know sheā¦uh, youā¦wonāt get physical again?ā I half expected the therapist to reply āwell a rolled up newspaper often worksā. š
Poor Tuello looks so defeated (again!) when his girlfriend dumps him (again!), this time for āGodā. Sorry, Mark, guess you can take the Serena out of the Gilead, but you canāt take the Gilead out of Serena!
At this point all I wrote in my notes was āSO DISTURBINGā so honestly I have to replay to look it up... oh ok I think it had to do with the Gilead colors and insignia going up in her new office, just like itās creeping into Canada... (could have been a lot of things in this episode, though, honestly).
At first I kind of thought maybe Luke and June were being too hard on Mark and their expectations were too high, but then I remembered that he definitely didnāt have to let Serena bat her pretty eyelashes and flounce off to Gilead to orchestrate the live funeral event of the year, which gave her the means for more reach and power...DAMNIT, Mark! June did warn you, and so did I. You are a disappointment. I told you not to let me down!šš
So, once again Tuello doesnāt get it, and Luke doesnāt get it. June is the only one who understands how dangerous Serena is, her reach and ability to spread the poison of Gilead into Canada and the free world (driverās license or not)ā¦ June is like, once again, I will take care of this myself (I knew that gun wouldnāt stay buried long!).
I just noticed Juneās gold locket, bet you anything thereās a little picture of Hannah in there.š„ŗ
I am loving this I-donāt-give-a-shit-anymore-cus-I-almost-died-and-Iām-in-pain-and-fuck-this-shit Janine... she reminds me of āwelcome to the fucking looney binā Janine before Aunt Lydia took her eye and broke her. And now she is maybe going to be the one to finally teach Lydia some goddamn compassion and humanity. Iām fucking glad sheās not letting Lydia off the hook for her bullshit this time. Sheās like, I beat death, again, Iām not afraid of you, bitch!!š
Fucking ECRU.š Serenaās real name is Karen.
June finally says it: āHe doesnāt know what heās doing and he seems to forget none of it worked the first timeā. Theyāve all seen this before, the slow creep of Gilead that people didnāt take seriously enough until it was too late. They played by the rules then, too. June doesnāt play by the rules anymore. Playing by the rules got her family torn apart and her stuck in Gilead, and Gilead taught her not to play by the rules.
Even if Moira and Luke do not seem to be alarmed enough by the threat of history repeating itself, they are right in a sense: this isnāt the same situation as with Fred, and June canāt just shoot Serena in her glass Gilead tower without going to prison (or extradited back to Gilead for execution?? not totally certain how the new territory works, but itās not no-manās-land) and losing Nichole. Losing her other daughter. The āitās not worth losing your family overā really made me sad, though, since TESTAMENTS SPOILERS: we know that June is ultimately going to lose her family anyway, both her daughters, at least for many years until theyāre eventually reunited.
I am happy the Moira/June dynamic seems more comfortable and copacetic. Even if itās mostly because June is trying to adhere to Moiraās playbook: the (useless) therapy, trying to curb her anger, not tearing anyone else apart with her bare hands (and teeth) lately. I do also think Moira gained some different perspective and understanding from their trip to the Mayday women, though.
Not news but I continue to be impressed by the constant ways Serena finds to be a flaming hypocrite. Like she can now write and wears her little power pant suits. I love how she only wears the Gilead dress now as basically a costume, to use as a tool for her advantage as needed--we first saw that when she switched back from civilian clothes to the teal for her reemergence as āGilead power coupleā for Fredās trial, then for her field trip home and now for her weird pregnancy Gilead glamour shots.š¤°š¼šš¼āāļø
LOL wow I realized why Ezra looks so familiar to me and itās because he played āNostradamusā on Reign (the wildly historically inaccurate but gorgeously costumed CW period drama from years back).
āMy wife is going to kill you and Iām going to let herā... I wrote my more in depth thoughts on this the other day so wonāt go into it here but yeah, I found the specifically possessive language very striking in this scene.
The Serena mentioning Nick thing was the one thing I was looking forward to this episode but honestly I was underwhelmed. Maybe itās because I actually felt bad for Luke this whole scene, or because I wanted her to mention more specifics for certain viewers who seem to need reminding. Anyway. I know that Serena was obviously just saying it to be a c*unt and verbally kick Luke in the balls, but the thing is I couldnāt help thinking that, despite the jealousy he understandably would have felt (and still feels), Iās think Luke actually should have also derived comfort from knowing that Nick, that someone, was looking out for June (he doesnāt even know how much). And he did seem to be grateful for that at the end of the Luke/Nick scene in 2x08, when he knew Nick as just a āfriendā... but after knowing they were lovers I think maybe his jealousy and insecurity gets the best of him. I was just thinking, I feel like I used to have a higher view of Luke, because I remember, I think probably after 2x09, and after Luke listens to her tape in 3x05(?) being really moved thinking like ādamn, both these men really love June so much, as hard as it would be for their heart and ego, I donāt think either would begrudge her the love of the other.ā And tbh I definitely still feel that from Nick (if anything more so), but I no longer feel like thatās the case the other way around.š«¤
Wow, JLaw did not sugarcoat it for Lydia. What heās saying is fucked but but heās right, she shouldnāt be surprised. Sheās been willfully operating with blinders on as regards the (most) horrible things the majority of commanders do to handmaids, in able to rationalize the horrible things SHE does to these women, in the name of godās plan and babies and shit. June told her in 4x03 but she was able to tell herself June was a sinner, a wicked woman not to be believed. Janine even tried to tell her about Esther (as she points out earlier this ep) but she was able to dismiss that as an outlier. It takes Janine throwing the facts in her face, again, after almost dying, and Joseph confirming it, to finally take the blinders off.
Am I crazy or is this yet another different baby (Nichole)?? Obv I know itās a different baby from last season but for some reason I feel like she looks different from s5 ep 1-3?? Maybe itās just the lighting.šš¤·āāļø
I spy a former Handmaid murder gang at the protest š! Also, FUCK this guy, Iād have to hold back from shooting him too, especially after he punches Moiraā¦ Speaking of which, this is the second time this season someoneās shot a gun into the air so far... seems like maybe a metaphor for s5, gearing up for shit to go down and then nothing happens?š¬
The car scene and especially Luke handling the gun made me SO UNCOMFY. I think it made me more uncomfortable than the sex scene (and that was awkward as fuck). I donāt know, I think it was that he seemed to be āplay acting" and posing with it like ālook at me being cool and murderous, are you into me now?ā I just donāt buy it. I can believe that he hates Serena and wants her to fuck off and maybe even wishes her dead, and thatās understandable, but I donāt think he would do it himself. And thatās also understandable and fine but it just feels like heās acting this way because he thinks itās what June wants, and that feels weird.
āThe Chainā is an interesting song choice here...I feel like it can have multiple meanings... from this siteĀ https://www.musicbanter.com/lyrics/Fleetwood-Mac-The-Chain.html:Ā The "chain" is the marriage or relationship that they had before her partner decided to be unfaithful. The line "Run in the shadows, damn your love, damn your lies" indicates that the infidelity is known and bitterly accepted. The woman tells the man, "I can still hear you saying you would never break the chain" repeatedly throughout the song and brings him to task for the vows and promises made when they got together. Ultimately she tells the man that if he does not give her all of his love and commitment right now, he will lose her forever. So... is that about Luke bitterly accepting Juneās affair with Nick? ...And his fear that if he doesnāt fully dedicate himself also to Juneās fight (which means becoming more like Nick--or what he thinks Nick is), he will lose her forever? Dunno. Would love to see otherās thoughts on the meaning here...
Deliciously karmic Serena handmaid vibes with this new teal weirdo... Serena looks mildly perturbed at the ominous feeling that the shoe is now on the other foot. I kind of wonder about Ezra. Whatās his deal? Is he really looking out for Serena? Or does he work for the Wheelers and their ulterior motives? Or something else entirely?
June and Luke lying in bed after (donāt make me say it again)... reminded me a little of the opening scene in ep where theyāre in bed: in that scene he is sleeping with his back to her and she is laying on her back eyes open staring at the ceiling, remembering Serenaās cruelty and how she wants to make her pay for it...theyāre totally disconnected. In this scene they are now physically connected, he is facing her and holding her, and she is slightly turned towards him and seems to almost surrender to the embrace, but then her face turns and is similar to the previous scene: looking up, detached. She is physically present and connected to Luke but still mentally seems elsewhere. š¤
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