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#my mom. my grandpa. adhd. new special interests. my cello teacher. the Creep. my actual life now. the list goes on
beachboysnatural
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4 months
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one in the morning i am listening to slipping through my fingers on repeat and missing my mom really badly while also feeling upset with her and i don't think this combination will ever really leave me
#i havent seen my family in months and her dad just died and now she probably has covid too
#and i know she misses me and i miss her so badly but i also miss the idea of having a mom you can tell everything too
#like i will never have that relationship with her!! and that hurts!!
#we've both hurt each other and i've done things i'm sorry for that i haven't apologized for
#but i was a fifteen year old having a mental breakdown. she was the parent
#i know she didn't know how to help me and no one did and i know blaming her for that is unfair
#but i have never ever gotten anything like an apology for her not even trying until the cracks were so wide they showed
#she's never said 'hey sorry you had a two year long depressive episode that must have really sucked' or anything like it
#and she never will because she does not take accountability or apologize for things.
#but she makes jokes about how moody i was or how i never wanted to talk to her during that time and it's like.
#weren't you there?? didn't you see?? didn't you know?? did you even try to understand??
#i'm sorry i was a moody 15 year old i was also so completely burnt out that all my energy went towards finding any joy i could
#need to go back to therapy over the summer because i literally have SO much to discuss
#my mom. my grandpa. adhd. new special interests. my cello teacher. the Creep. my actual life now. the list goes on
#whatever this has become a tag ramble. maybe the way to get my mom to apologize is to watch ladybird with her
#(if i did that i think one of us would burst into flames)
#persannal
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