#my sister is still a kid so im his POA (he's like not...out of it or intubated or anything) so im just really nervous

[faerune]

hey if everyone could keep my family particularly my dad in their thoughts and prayers i’d really appreciate it. his aortic stenosis has progressed to severe, he had a drop attack (and apparently a heart attack we never caught), and one of his coronary arteries is 80% occluded. he’s in the hospital and stable right now.

[beaniebut]

I went jogging with my dog a few nights ago and out of nowhere it decided to pour so I sprinted home. When I woke up my leg was in so much pain and I stupidly decided to deal with it for 5 days before going to a walk-in clinic. Now after having a MRI done on my leg, I wound up tearing the posterior horn meniscus (and 4 other things that I don’t even know how to pronounce) now I have to have surgery to fix it. Now I’m stressing because my entire paycheck went towards my car payment, a walk-in clinic visit and the MRI and now I’m sitting in the negatives with my bank account. I can’t even apply for a medical loan because I just had my bankruptcy finalized, I still have to visit my urologist on Friday, see my doctor this week to discuss my MRI results and the POA, pay my phone bill, pay my allergy/asthma bill, and buy my son his cub scouts uniform and I can’t even afford to put gas in my car. My anxiety’s all over the place and I don’t know what to do!

All I wanted to do this year was get an allergy test done because I’m allergic to literally everything my skin comes constant with, lose some weight and get on birth control to have a regular menstrual cycle because my body can’t even do the one thing it supposed to do. But now i have to go to a cardiologist for my heart, and deal with a bunch of other health problems, and I still need to take my son to get his hearing checked, but our insurance won’t cover it so that’s gonna he $2000 out of pocket, and he needs to see a counselor/therapist to help with his anxiety and i still need to take him to his doctor for his other problems.

Even while all this medical BS thats happening, I’m trying to save for a house with my boyfriend, but he’s constantly changing his mind about where he wants to live, but now he wants to move to another state within the next year, but I won’t leave my family and friends. I’d like to have one or two more kids and get married one day, but he doesn’t want to get married and he won’t give me a definite answer on the subject of kids. He likes the idea but when I bring it up he says he’s done having kids. So once again, I’m stressing on where our relationship is going, but I need a home regardless. I’m positive we’ll be breaking up soon.

I just got out of the hospital 2 weeks ago from a UTI (which is why I have to see a urologist because ever since I had my son, I get UTIs 3-5 times a year.) and with my knee being the way it is and my body constantly in pain, I can’t really have adult time with my boyfriend and I know he’s getting impatient, but with everything going on in my life, I’m just not in the mood. He’s starting to think that I don’t love him.

I’m so stressed about everything right now that my chest is starting to hurt. Im losing my appetite but I have force myself to eat because the pain killers I have take with make me nauseous if I don’t take it with a full stomach.

I don’t want to ask my sister for a loan cos she’s trying to move out and she’s getting a divorce. I don’t wanna ask my parents for a loan because I’m already behind in rent...I already feel like a failure as a mom cos I can’t afford to buy groceries for my sons lunch box. All I want is a cup of coffee...