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#my social battery is not just dead it's nonexistent at this point
zevrans · 6 months
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#so i finished my 4 out of 4th 12 hour shift in a row last night and i'm literally so exhausted and i was glitching mid simple tasks 🤡✌️#my coworker asked to change shifts so he could have that one specific day as off#and he managed to do some very critical mistakes in his 4 days prior and that's considering his gf is often with him there#and i was the one suffering the consequences even if it's literally not my fault#ever since i've got this job i've been fixing so many mistakes of his i kept wondering who's the newbie here??#like i try to leave my shift as good as possible i clean everything check everything and do all my duties#and when i come here after his shifts it's.. a fucktonne of work mistakes and literal dirt like dude!!!#4 shifts in a row never again man never again i am so tired my brain is nerfed and i can only rest for 1 day today because tomorrow i'm#going to a doc;#my social battery is not just dead it's nonexistent at this point#i just want to lay in bed and not be percieved or interacted with for at least the same amount of days 😫#i really thought i could take a socially demanding and rather multitasking job without it taking hugest toll on my mental state huh???#and i had such a bad sleep too i had a very graphic and sickening nightmare which woke me up 2 hours after i fell asleep#and then i woke 2 more times after that and i feel so exhausted and not rested at all and so fatigued i can't even do anything#man for me my sleep being interrupted is the worst like i function better if i have a smaller amount of sleep but it's uninterrupted#than longer in hours but it gets interrupted and i wake up even once#sorry i come here once in few days vent post and then dissapearvckfkv 😭 i miss tumblr but have no energy currently to even rb anything 🥲#tbd
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salthien · 9 months
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🍁🍋🍪 for perfect vantage?
vantage!! perfect vantage from which to observe the cosmos!!! my beloved weirdo space dragon! magic made sentient!
🍁 [MAPLE LEAF] What is your OC's favourite season? Why and what do they do during it?
Van is the type to say there's something she enjoys about every season - and that's true - but if pressed, her favorite is summer. While not overly affected by the temperature and climate, being situated in the equivalent of a fairly northern clime means the First City (name pending while I do language/conlang exploration) gets a lot more of the cold and dark than the warm and bright, thus its inhabitants try to take full advantage of the summer months, and that's what Vantage adores. Celebrations, faires and an influx of magical and religious pilgrimages to one of the three confluences during the fairer weather only add to the summer hustle and bustle, and Van loves the way the city seems to thaw out and brim over with life near the solstice.
Summer is the easiest time to find her out in the city proper, making connections and taking in the atmosphere - while she makes a point to come down from her studies to be in the city proper at least a few times per season, it's easiest to walk among the people without causing a stir in the summer. There's only so much she can do to disguise her status as, essentially, a walking leyline in a city with a significant population of mages - but it doesn't earn her as much attention when the streets are full and people are more focused on celebration than on the limitless magical battery talking to a fried food vendor three stalls down at the market.
🍋 [LEMON] What is their kryptonite/ultimate weakness?
Physically, as in, What Could Kill Them? Significant concentrations of magic that act in opposition to their own, but even that's not enough to be permanent. Vantage has been killed Often - I don't want to establish a solid number, but in the centuries the City took to establish itself, it came to blows with Vantage many times, in your standard 'this is an unknown variable and thus could be a threat/thing to exploit' kind of conflict. They killed and were killed, and it took both sides of the conflict several generations to come to even a tenuous truce. Van's early memories are essentially nonexistent because of it, so while the City didn't succeed in keeping them dead, it definitely did a pretty permanent number on them.
Emotionally - they're very much a "what will happen, will happen" kind of person, and tend to not fight what they feel is the pendulum of fate. It comes with the territory when your age can be measured in eons. They enter into any social situation already fully conscious of the fact that they will long outlive everyone else involved, and that includes interpersonal relationships. That being said, they will protect the nebulous concept of the City with their whole self, and direct threats to its existence as a whole can be leveraged against them pretty effectively.
🍪 [BUSCUIT/COOKIE] Does your OC prefer things simple or extravagant?
Vantage has lived in just about every way imaginable - out in the open wilds, sleeping in barns and temporary shelters, out of simple cottages and inn rooms, and in palatial, sprawling manses, and he's found things to love about all of them. Not the type to balk at 'roughing it' or things like meager meals/cold showers/hard beds. That being said, he has a fascination with recordkeeping and with beautiful things, and does enjoy the creature comforts that mortals have devised, so his preferences lean extravagant - his current home is not palatial but does have features like marble floors, a walk-in closet and a multi-story library/observatory.
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bigtinyworldtravel · 5 years
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How does one see Namibia?  Full of wildlife, massive sand dunes, and vast distances, there’s really only one way to see it all: renting a car and driving yourself.  Just be prepared to drive on the lefthand side of the roads, and be ready for very little pavement!
But then, where does one stay in this developing country?  You might find some resort-style lodges near the larger towns, but if you’re on a budget like we are, the best option is a campground.  Even in the winter, desert temperatures are mild, and precipitation is nonexistent in such an arid climate.
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As adventure types, we don’t shy away from camping when we travel, but that activity requires quite a bit of specialty equipment – extra gear we didn’t exactly want to lug all the way around the world with us.  Fortunately, there’s a popular solution in Namibia to the needs of both transportation and accommodation.
Hop aboard and see what life was like spending three weeks in our 4×4 camping truck!
About the truck
First things first, let’s talk about the truck that sustained us for 20 days in the Namibian desert.
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Our vehicle was like any other truck: four doors, manual transmission, diesel engine, two spare tires, two batteries, two gas tanks, and – of course – four-wheel drive.  Aaron was our brave driver for the entire duration.  By this point, he was quite practiced at driving on the “wrong” side of the road, and he wasn’t as preoccupied as I was with photography.  I spent most of my time in the passenger seat up front… unless I was scouting for wildlife, in which case I sat like the awkward third wheel in movies: dead center in the back (seriously, no one chooses that seat – especially if they’re the only one back there!).
All our gear could be safely stowed in the bed of the truck, secured by a hard canopy with convenient locking access panels on each side.  Aside from the occasional need to fill up and restock on food and water, we had all the necessary basics.
About the roads
Driving from the airport into Windhoek, proper, is misleading.  The entire route is tarred roads and highways, and the city appears to be quite developed.  Even driving several hours north to Etosha, we never left pavement.  But once you get into the park and venture elsewhere in the country, you’ll find nothing but dirt and gravel.
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We quickly learned that the letters in the road names denoted (more or less) the quality of that road.  B roads are generally tarred highways; we really like these roads.  C roads are usually fairly well-graded gravel roads.  After enough D roads, we learned to look forward to these C roads.
And D roads?  Those are the ones we dreaded… small, bumpy, and less-frequently maintained.  They often traverse regular river and creek beds.  Though these were all dry when we were there (July), I could see these being rather treacherous in the wet season.  These are also best described as washboard roads (this is an interesting simulation on how they form), and some got so bad, we had to take breaks to combat motion sickness.  We groaned whenever Google routed us to a D road.
Now, some C roads are also washboarded – particularly the more frequented ones and those with faster traffic like the route into Sossusvlei – and some D roads are better than C roads.  And yes, there are E and F roads (these are usually barely paths across the desert).
Is a 4×4 necessary?
When deciding on a vehicle for Namibia, we debated back and forth on whether to get a 4×4 truck or an everyday (and far less expensive) car (or some combination of the two).  Most roads are dirt that a car could handle (albeit less comfortably), and we weren’t intending to do much off-roading.  In fact, we only used four-wheel drive once the entire time we were there.  So was the extra expense worth it?
Yes.  For a few reasons.
First, it was comforting to have the peace of mind should we get stuck anywhere.  We didn’t plan to do anything so extreme as to suspect we’d run into trouble, but in a place as unpredictable as Namibia, we felt better prepared.
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Next, while roads could mostly be navigated via car, they’re almost all rough gravel (see above).  Four-wheel drive isn’t always necessary, but high clearance certainly came in handy on more than one occasion!
Third, we liked having the option of 4×4 for the one situation where we *really* needed it.  The road to Sossusvlei was deep sand and absolutely required four-wheel drive.  Being able to drive it ourselves meant we could skip the expensive and time-restrictive shuttle provided by the park.
And finally, it served not only as our transportation for our duration in Namibia; it was also our lodging.  While we theoretically could have slept in a car, the tent that came with our truck was far more comfortable.
What comes with the truck?
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Every company will be different, of course, but ours came fully equipped with everything we needed to live out in the bush: pots, pans, kettle, dishes, can opener (for our favorite Koo Chakalaka), propane, chairs, table, lighter, spare water, a powered refrigerator/cooler, and even a braai (grill).
We were also given essentials like an air compressor, tire gauge, axe, spade, and extension cord.
But what about the tent and sleeping bags?
These come on top of the truck!  Yep!  No fears of a wayward hyena coming to sniff at tasty human burritos just laying on the ground for the taking in the middle of the night.  Sleep in comfort atop your truck!
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The tent was surprisingly comfortable.  As it’s permanently installed on the roof rack, it can afford the luxury of a real foam pad as insulation.  Paired with military-grade canvas above, the inside is quite cozy.
Our truck came with two cool-weather sleeping bags, two full-sized pillows, and a couple of spare blankets should we get cold (we did a few times).  This all just stayed in the tent, waiting for us for when we next stopped for the night.
How do you set up the tent?
The setup was a breeze!  Far simpler than any other tent I’ve worked with.  Come nightfall, we just had to remove the cover, release the tie-down straps, extend the ladder, unfold the tent, and insert the support poles.  Boom!
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Teardown was similarly easy, effectively doing the same in reverse (and adding some fabric tucking action as you fold the tent).
It was all quite convenient!
Some tips:
The poles could be a bit tricky at times.  I sometimes found it easier to insert the bottom of the pole into the frame and then bend the pole to hook the other end onto the canvas (while we mostly saw everyone doing the opposite).
Climbing the ladder to insert the poles on the ladder side makes it far easier to do so.
Be careful that the ladder doesn’t come apart.  If the tabs that lock it into place get stuck in the up/open position, you might find you get half the ladder in your hands when trying to extend it (we did this a couple of times).
Mind the ladder that you don’t accidentally scrape the vehicle while setting up the tent.
Don’t try to drive the truck while the tent is deployed 🙂
Secure the cover inside the truck or somewhere out of the elements at night.  The wind often picks up a bit in the middle of the night, and having that thing slap against your tent in the pitch darkness is one of the most terrifying ways to wake up… trust us.
About renting
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Renting one of these trucks is much like renting any other vehicle.  However, since roads are particularly rough, you should definitely have full insurance (either already covered by your policy at home or as an add-on with the rental).  And due to the strenuous conditions on the vehicle, you’ll have more paperwork to sign, promising you won’t speed (seriously, please don’t; it’s quite dangerous to do so) or go recklessly off-road.
It is customary for companies to charge a deposit on the truck.  This covers incidentals like any scrapes you might acquire while driving through bushes (which you really shouldn’t do because you should stick to the roads) and a gas top-off.  You could also be held liable for any accidents, flat tires, or cracked windshields (depending on your insurance coverage).
Some companies (including the one we went with) will even offer an airport pickup/drop-off service.  We had an extra day on either side, so we didn’t take advantage of this, but it is useful to not need an extra rental or taxi into Windhoek (where you’re most likely to pick one of these up).
Our experience
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We rented our truck from Travel Namibia in Windhoek.  This is a small company, owned by a husband and wife team who are incredibly nice people.  They were in the process of relocating their office, so we picked up our vehicle from their residence.
When we arrived, Kato welcomed us into her home and offered us tea while we filled out the paperwork (standard liability agreements, fees for additional damage, etc.).  We talked about our travels thus far, and she was fascinated with our journey.  In fact, she ended up following our very sporadic social media posts of Etosha pictures while we were about and had a lot of compliments for the pictures upon our return.
She and her husband gave us some pointers on where to go within Etosha, and they insisted we call them straight away if we had any issues setting up the tent, if we broke down, or if we otherwise needed help or advice with any aspect of our excursion.  We even scraped a bush one of our first days in Etosha, and I was certain they’d use that as an excuse to charge the polishing fee (any other mainstream company would have).  But they looked at the paint and deemed the light scrape superficial.  I felt like we were borrowing a truck from a good friend rather than renting from a business.
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The truck itself really did become our home during those three weeks.  It ran well and never let us down, despite the rough conditions we subjected it to.  And against all odds, we didn’t get a single flat (Kato said we were the first!).
The tent was remarkably comfortable, and we looked forward to crashing each night in its cozy interior.  All in all, it wasn’t a bad way to live for those weeks.
We loved renting from Travel Namibia, and we happily recommend them.  You can find their booking details here.
A day in the life
06:27 – wake up to the birds beginning to stir, along with some of our early-riser neighbors
06:36 – finally drag ourselves out from under the warmth of our comfy sleeping bags, apply some deodorant, throw on some extra layers, and don a hat or a buff
06:42 – Aaron pulls out the propane tank, a pot, and a couple of bowls to start heating up some breakfast: the usual chakalaka or beans poured over rice and spruced up with our all-purpose seasoning, paired with rooibos tea with honey.  Meanwhile, I pack up as much of the tent as I can without his assistance
06:45 – Aaron helps pack in the excess fabric of the tent while I slowly fold it up, and we get it all strapped down and covered.  Breakfast heats on the stove
06:51 – we scoop up breakfast and pack up everything else into the truck
06:54 – we take our bowls and tea cups up to the watering hole to hopefully catch some early wildlife while we eat; nothing comes
07:26 – we drive out to the camp gate to await the new day
07:28 – the gates are already open, so we’re off!
07:49 – we pull over to take some pictures of an early morning jackel
07:55 – we reach our first watering hole, where we spy a few hyenas
08:37 – we stop to photograph some wandering wildebeasts, ostriches, and the ever-present springbok
09:23 – we spot our very first lions! thanks to the help of some other stopped vehicles
09:37 – we stop to hang out with a giraffe for a little while
10:08 – we see a lone elephant off across the field
11:50 – we arrive at another watering hole and park for a bit
11:52 – a huge herd of zebras come into the watering hole, and we take loads of pictures
12:12 – another watering hole; this time, springbok and oryx
12:18 – we notice a hornbill in the trees!
12:51 – wildebeasts and zebras on the side of the road
13:10 – a new watering hole with lots of black-faced impala chasing each other around
13:21 – elephants race into the area, scattering the impala and taking over the scene
13:43 – giraffes finally have a go at the water as the elephants disperse
14:08 – we finally leave the watering hole
15:26 – we stop in at one of the campgrounds to break for lunch: some leftover rice and chakalaka
16:02 – we start to head back in the direction of our campground
16:26 – we spot another lone elephant in the distance
16:38 – we come across a single rhino nearby!
17:03 – we arrive early back at our campground, well before the gates will close at sunset at 18:30 and set up the tent
17:13 – we take a fast shower (only if it’s warm enough, as most showers are open-air)
17:39 – we heat up some quick dinner: mixing it up with some potatoes and beans with our special seasoning
17:58 – we walk over to the watering hole inside our campground for the evening show and see a herd of elephants are already there!
18:14 – a rhino also shows up on the scene
18:31 – the rhino gets a bit too close, sparking a confrontation with one of the larger elephant bulls
18:41 – a small feral cat skitters across the area surrounding the watering hole
18:48 – the elephants finally depart, leaving the rhino alone at the water
19:17 – a flock of birds invades the watering hole, raising a boisterous chorus where it was silent only moments before – a nightly occurrence
19:41 – we call it a night and return to our campsite to get ready for bed, the early sunset training us to tire much earlier in the evening
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20:01 – we wind down the evening with a quick episode of anime on our iPad, at the perfect height when draped over one of the bungee supports inside the tent
20:42 – after what actually ended up being two episodes of anime, we finally turn off our solar-powered puff lantern (also conveniently hung from another bungee support) and snuggle into our sleeping bags to crash and get up early the next morning to do it all over again!
General truck tips
Stay alert while driving.  Distances in Namibia are quite long, and it’s easy to zone out.  Take regular breaks to take in the scenery and rest your mind for the next long haul.  This could also save you from making costly mistakes that could lead to rolling the vehicle or hitting something in the road.
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Watch for wildlife.  There aren’t many fences to protect the roads, and you’re likely to encounter anything from springbok and warthogs to cows and goats.  They can appear suddenly, so always be on the lookout.
Don’t drive at night.  The abundance of wildlife is the primary reason.  There are no street lights, and animals are more active at night.  Besides, it isn’t much fun to drive at night (or have to set up the tent after dark).  It’s much more enjoyable to spend this time stargazing, instead.
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Keep your windows closed while driving through cities.  Sadly, petty crime is quite common, particularly in the populated areas.  Open windows are an invitation for quick grab-and-run.  Even in smaller towns, many poorer citizens will take every opportunity to convince tourists to purchase their wares (usually handmade bracelets and other trinkets).  It’s easier to say no with closed windows (and only open them if you’d like to actually buy something from them).
Be mindful of areas where you can get out of your vehicle.  This is particularly true in Etosha National Park.  With the abundance of dangerous wildlife, you should stay inside your truck at all times.  Only exit in designated areas.
Resist the urge to speed.  With the road conditions in Namibia, this should be a no-brainer.  Washboard roads already aren’t pleasant at high speeds, and speed on gravel is a recipe for an accident (or a punctured tire).  Besides, the views are worth taking in – not passing by.
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If someone passes you, slow to let their dust clear.  Don’t be that person who insists on being the fastest on the road (see the point above).  If someone wants to pass, just let them.. and then let their dust clear.  Hanging out in someone’s dust cloud reduces visibility and could increase your risk of a rock in your windshield.  We seldom even encountered other drivers on the road (usually other travelers), so it wasn’t an issue to just slow down when we did.
Carry your passport.  You should do this anyway.  But it’s particularly important in Namibia, as you might encounter periodic checkpoints on the roads.  Officers (sometimes pretty imposingly armed) might ask for your destination, identification, and if you’re transporting any produce.  Some larger vehicles were even stopped and inspected, though we weren’t really subjected to this.
Know the names of the places you’ve left and where you’re going next.  We were asked this everywhere we went: every new campground, park, attraction, and checkpoint.  Should you go missing, there is a paper-trail log of where you’ve been and where you intended to go next – much like a through-hiking registry.
Memorize your license plate number.  This goes with the above.  Every campsite we checked in at asked for this, and we were caught, on more than one occasion, needing to dash quickly outside to remember the elusive digits on our license plate.  It wasn’t until one of our last days that we realized our helpful rental agency were kind enough to jot this down right on the keychain.. doh!
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When driving on dirt, open the canopy vent.  Thats right: open the vent on the back of the truck.  This sounded entirely counterintuitive to us; wouldn’t opening it let more dust in?  But no!  This actually breaks an otherwise vacuum situation, which would suck in dust kicked up from the rear tires.  We made the mistake of forgetting to open this only once, and our things were simply covered in dust.  There’s honestly no preventing dust, but this reduces the intensity.
Use four-wheel drive only when you need to.  This should be very rare.  We only used it once; two-wheel drive was sufficient for almost all conditions.  I could see our needing this more during the wet season, but we were fine during the winter.  And even if you do need it, familiarize yourself with how to engage it and which situations require which gears.
First, only switch the drive mode while the vehicle is at a complete stop.  Use four-wheel low when driving very slowly (generally over very uneven and solid, boulder-road situations), and use the high gear if you’ll require more speed (like the soft-ground situations we had going to Deadvlei).  Don’t push the engine too much while in these gears, or you might wear out the clutch.
Fill up as soon as you see the gauge beginning to drop below the F(ull) indicator.  Our truck had two gas tanks.  This meant we could fill up less frequently, but with gas stations being sparse on the desert roads, you really want to take advantage of them.  Our truck burned the spare tank first, so the indicator only moved once we started using the fuel in the second/primary tank.  We filled up every time we noticed the needle falling below F, which ensured we never ran out of gas.
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Regularly check your tire pressure.  This is important to monitor for any impending flats.  If you notice the pressure declining, get it checked out (many gas stations offer tire repair service) before it becomes a more costly repair.  And as desert temperatures fluctuate drastically, maintaining your tire pressure within the optimal range could protect your tires from punctures.
Final thoughts
Fair warning: renting one of these trucks is expensive.  All in, our truck cost us about N$1586 ($110 USD) per day (for two people).  They’re very popular, and you will see countless others on your journey through Namibia.  But it’s clear to see why.  The places this truck took us, and the fact that it served as both our transportation and lodging (not including campsite fees) for the three weeks, it was well worth the cost.
Have you ever stayed in one of these trucks?  Tell us all about your experience in the comments below!
We were not offered any discounts or free services by Travel Namibia in exchange for a positive review.  While we later agreed to provide them some promotional materials and a mention on our blog – for which we are being compensated – we do this because we genuinely enjoyed our experience with them and would wholeheartedly recommend their services to our friends and family.
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COVID-19: Tuesday, April 7
In normal times when the weather turns pleasant I switch between my Prospect Park run and my Manhattan Bridge run. It’s nice outside, but also the park has been crowded lately. Today I run the Manhattan Bridge.
I listen to Matt’s new podcast. It’s good—informational yet keeping his signature “no shit there I was” style—but it brings a familiar voice to the stories I’ve been reading in the newspaper.
I leave my apartment and turn left onto Lafayette, turn right onto St. James, left onto Dekalb, right onto Clinton. I’m guided by the signals to walk and make my way towards Flushing, which will give me more-or-less a straight shot to the bridge, running along the Navy Yard
I remember the first time I’d ever been to the Navy Yard many years ago. It was always a curiosity behind a high, guarded wall, filled with mostly-empty buildings, some light industry, and miscellanea. A collective of artists had open studios that a group of friends and I went to, not because we were interested in the art but because we wanted to see the inside of the Navy Yard. We saw some bad art and then climbed several stories to the top of the building for one of Brooklyn's few remaining unobstructed views of the Manhattan skyline.
Fast-forward a few years and there’s now a distillery and a vineyard, wholesale coffee roasters and bakers, and even a client of mine is headquartered there after spending many years in Flatiron. I once arrived for a meeting and was asked to provide extra identification—and to leave early—because Hillary Clinton was speaking there later that night.
There’s a line outside Wegmans grocery store where Admirals Row once was. I turn right onto Navy, I pass the temporarily closed Kings County Distillery bar and turn left onto Sands, which turns into a bike path that leads directly to the Manhattan Bridge pedestrian access ramp.
I cross the Manhattan Bridge, running over Brooklyn Bridge Park and the East River and the FDR. The pedestrian bridge ends at Point #3 of the former Five Points neighborhood at the intersection of Bowery and Canal. Normally I’d turn around and run back home. Normally the sidewalks along Canal would be impenetrable, pedestrians would be shoulder to shoulder and there would be no space to run: tourists buying knock-off Gucci and Louis Vuitton bags; traditional Chinese medicine shops; vegetable stands; fish mongers; and if you look hard enough you can see Little Italy.
But today Manhattan looks like a ghost town. Even a satirical image of plastic-bag-as-tumbleweed fails because New York banned single-use bags five weeks ago, an eternity.
Not to belabor a point, but the near absence of human life on Canal is such an aberration that I am beside myself. Canal is the main east-west artery of Lower Manhattan, linking the Manhattan Bridge—Brooklyn to Manhattan—to the Holland Tunnel—Manhattan to New Jersey. My most recent memory of Canal is not buying soft-shelled crab or cannoli—both of which I’ve done within the last year or so—but rather sitting in traffic at 2 o’clock in the morning and it taking 30 minutes to drive from Baxter to the Manhattan Bridge onramp. A distance that today takes 20 seconds on foot.
I run down Canal and turn left onto Broadway. The streets are empty and the stores are closed, of course, but even restaurants that could technically remain takeout-only are closed because there are few residential buildings. I pass a store called Prime Essentials that sells cheap clothes. It’s closed.
There’s something eerily familiar, but it’s the familiarity of walking through the Financial District on a weekend afternoon in the middle of winter. Not a weekday afternoon on a beautiful spring day. It’s impossibly empty; you can’t not social distance. A particularly cinematic moment is when I run past a restaurant playing Standing Still by Jewel to their nonexistent al fresco diners. Remind me again how long we’ve been self-isolating? God damn you all to hell, I think to myself.
I run past the Woolworth Building and St. Paul’s Chapel. I run past the Stock Exchange and turn towards Battery Park. At the southern tip of Manhattan I pause and look towards the Statue of Liberty in the distance. A few men are fishing nearby. The stockades holding tourists bound for Liberty Island are empty. “Freedom means the opportunity to be what we never thought we would be—Daniel J Boorstin.” I think to myself there must be literally thousands of quotes better than this one containing the word “freedom."
I turn back towards the Brooklyn Bridge, towards home. I run past the National September 11 Memorial. It’s empty and the trees are dead, but I remember the trees always being dead. I run past the Oculus, our $4 billion Calatrava-designed transit hub, looking like it did in architectural renderings from before it was built: clean, white, no people. The Apple Store is closed. Eataly is closed. Shake Shack is closed. Khiel’s Since 1851 is closed.
I’d planned to be in Manhattan for the evening applause for essential workers, but there isn’t anybody to applaud, so turn back towards Brooklyn. Approaching the Brooklyn Bridge I run past city hall. It’s quiet. As I leave the city I think about congestion pricing: if Manhattan had congestion pricing would the algorithm go haywire and start paying people to drive into the city?
Before home I run to Ft Greene Park. There are six-foot-wide signs in fire-engine red indicating how far to keep distant from one another.
I told my mother that I wouldn’t walk over to Brooklyn Hospital just to see what it’s like, but I do. It’s strangely quiet from the outside. I clap to nobody, but for everybody.
I run home wondering what scams Gwyneth Paltrow has cooked up at Goop.
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Wow, almost all of them, huh, @annoyinglyuniquebread? I’ll put it under a read-more as to not hit everyone with walls of text but read if ya feel like it…Okay, here we go!
0. Height 
I’m 5′1 just like Carrie Fisher/Princess Leia!
1. Age
I’m 21, but my birthday is in February so pretty soon I’ll be feelin’ 22! *Dances horrendously*
2. Shoe Size
 I’m a 5 in US sizes I think…?
3. Do you smoke?
I do not
4. Do you drink?
Well yes, it’s important to stay hydrated kids, my drink of choice is coke or tea…But I assume this is asking if I drink alcohol which I do not do
5. Do you take drugs?
Once again I assume this is referring to illegal drugs and not meds, I do not do any of those. However I do take antidepressants and sleeping pills for my anxiety-related insomnia/the occasional anxiety-suppressor.
6. Age you get mistaken for?
As I’m pretty short and thin (+ you tend to look smaller in a wheelchair which i occasionally use) I’d say people tend to assume I’m a lot younger than I am. If asked my age most people tend to guess around 15, or at least they did when I was in my late teens, no one has guessed my age in a while so maybe i look older these days? idk lol
7. Have tattoos?
I do have a tiny lightening bolt on my wrist, it’s a Harry Potter reference/a symbol for my general love of stories.
8: Want any tattoos?
I do definitely want more tattoos in the future, I haven’t really decided on placements yet but I know that I want a Buffy-B (a B in the Btvs-font) on my other wrist so that my two fandom tattoos can match in placements. I also want a fox somewhere and “fearless” in Taylor Swift’s handwriting to remind me of her brilliant definition of the word: (”To me, fearless is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, fearless is having fears. fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.”)   which I think will help with my anxiety. Those are a few of the tattoos I know that I want to get at some point, but there’s always room for more options since I really like the idea of a lot of tattoos!
9: Got any piercings?
Nope, not even pierced ears
10: Want any piercings?
Not really, no
11: Best friend?
@gay-grandma
12: Relationship status?
Single, sapphic and sad
13: Biggest turn ons?
As far as personality and little things go I’d say people who listen and respect my opinions and my view of a situation, but also aren’t afraid to say what they think/voice their opinions I guess. Also like, when people are genuine with their affection and you can tell that they just genuinely care for you I guess? Geez this sounds cheesy! As for physically, I’m gonna say collarbones…Is that weird? I feel like that’s weird…Not necessarily seeing collar bones (malnutrition isn’t sexy, kids!) but just like biting or kissing them I don’t even know! Maybe I have a few kinks too, but this is already officially TMI and I’m gonna stop………..   
14: Biggest turn offs?
Bigoted or small-minded people honestly, nope not gonna interact!
16: I’ll love you if…
You respect me, seduce me with your nerdiness and/or let me introduce you to nerdy stuff (Movies/shows/books/games etc) I like and most importantly, genuinely seem to like me tbh, I don’t ask for much…
17: Someone you miss
I live pretty far away from my family for school so I find myself almost constantly missing them and my dog :( Also you and your stupidly pretty face, @annoyinglyuniquebread I can’t believe it’s gonna be so long until I get to see you!
18: Most traumatic experience?
Probably something emotionally abusive at the hands of my biological dad or his wife but honestly I’ve repressed most of it and I don’t really wanna talk about that sooooo………*shudders* Anywayyyy
20: What I hate most about myself?
Too many things to list to be honest. I’m not trying to sound negative, but I do have a lot of issues when it comes to how I view myself, but I am working on them and am hoping to be getting to a place where I can honestly say that I don’t think I suck in the near future, wish me luck!
22: What I want to be when I get older?
Author! I wanna write, write write! If ONE kid picks up a book I’ve written and it helps them in any way at all or sparks that love of stories in them that has become my own driving force, then my goal in life has been achieved!
23: My relationship with my sibling(s)
Okay, so I have 4 siblings, two older sisters and two younger brothers. My relationship to my sisters are pretty much your standard sibling-situation, we grew up together and occasionally we wanted to murder each other, but most of the time we got along and now as adults we’re all pretty close even though I live far away. My brothers are a more complicated situation, due to my nonexistent relationship with my biological father I haven’t actually seen my little bros in years, I hope that we’ll be able to have some type of relationship one day, but as long as they live with dad I don’t see that as possible, although I love them and would love to be a proper big sib to them someday!
24: My relationship with my parent(s)
My mom is absolutely one of the most important people in my life, I love spending time with her and she’s the one I go to first if any problem, big or small arises in my life, we’ve always been extremely close and she’s quite simply my best friend. My step-dad (who I tend to refer to as dad most of the time) has been in my life since I was 4 and he’s more of a father to me than my biological dad (who i don’t even view as my ‘dad’ at all) ever was or could ever be. I love him with all my heart, he’s the best and one of the funniest people I know! I’d say generally I’m very, very close to both of my parents and they’re both extremely important to me and here I am getting sappy at 2AM. 
25: My idea of a perfect date
Movie/Show marathon and cuddling with snacks tbh
26: My biggest pet peeves
When the cover/general appearance of a book on my shelf doesn’t match what the rest of the books in that series look like…All my books have to match if they’re part of the same series or I freak the fuck out honestly! That’s really the only pet peeve I can think of at the moment.
27: A description of the girl/boy I like
I kinda really like @annoyinglyuniquebread but don’t tell her, it’d just get to her pretty head and she’d probably tease me about it and I’m shy!
28: A description of the person I dislike the most
Wow, has someone told the oversized cheeto running America that he has a giant dead cat on his head yet orrrrr…?
29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend?
I can’t think of a specific situation in which I’ve done this just now, but chances are if you’re my friend I’ve probably lied to you and told you I was sick so I wouldn’t have to hang out with you that day, it’s not that I don’t WANNA hang out, I love you I promise…it’s just my very awkward introverted ass not being sure how to tell you that I need to reschedule because my social battery is drained and that I am going to physically explode if I have to be around humans for the next few days, without sounding like a hermit and/or hurting your feelings soooo…Yeah, sorry about that!
30: What I hate the most about work/school?
That it ruins the fun of learning with all those deadlines and gives me performance anxiety about stuff I’d normally be good at/comfortable with doing…
31: What my last text message says?
“Night, I love you
32: What words upset me the most?
Any type of uninformed, ignorant hate speech, when someone is being bigoted in my presence it always makes me feel like I want to scream and/or cry 
33: What words make me feel the best about myself?
When people compliment my hair, clothes or writing it really makes my day every time without fail! Also when people use my chosen name and pronoun it makes me feel like I could take on the whole world on my own and win, so thank you SO much to everyone in my life who make an effort to do that every day!!
34: What I find attractive in women?
Um, everything about them, i mean have you SEEN girls??? I love being a lesbian; ladies, you’re all so beautiful I wanna squeal just thinking about it!
35: What I find attractive in men?
Them being Harrison Ford. If you are male, but not Mr. Ford I’m sorry but I’m simply not attracted to you at all and won’t date you. Sorry men, I don’t make the rules. However, if you’re reading this, Harrison from ca 1980 (why would you be?) hit me up!
37: One of my insecurities?
Too many to list again, but like I said, I am working on that! 
38: My childhood career choice
Author, not much has changed, huh? I’ve actually known what I want to be since I was like 5.
40: Who I wish I could be?
A happier, more secure version of myself…Or you know Han Solo/Veronica Mars/Kim Possible, that works too!
41: Where I want to be right now?
Right at this moment I’m pretty happy here under the covers in my big comfy bed listening to Taylor Swift with my laptop in my lap and answering all these questions. Even though I’m having a pretty bad case of insomnia I feel pretty content, a little hungry tho…Think I’m gonna go make noodles and finish Stranger Things when I’m done answering these! 
42: The last thing I ate
Some salted caramel chocolate a while ago, it was delicious!
43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately?
Well I’d be cheating on my wife if I didn’t say Sarah Michelle Gellar, wouldn’t I? Although there are a few other candidates as well…
44: A random fact about anything
Did you guys know that @annoyinglyuniquebread aka Bella is really cute and awesome and great at holding hands? Well, if you didn’t there’s a random fact for ya!
Wow, that sure was a lot of questions, but it was fun to answer them all! Thanks for sending them, Bella
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