#my younger self wouldn't believe me if i told that yep. we're only still alive because of some silly au!!!

[comfysofti]

Random night thought, because I can't fall asleep:

Sometimes i think it's ironic that the only thing preventing me from ending my life is my madness combat au. I'm working on it for around 3 years now. And since very first weeks of my work on it i promised myself, that no matter what, I won't let myself die, until i finish writing it

Now every time i think about ending my life i immediately think "hey, but i haven't finished my au yet! There's people out there who's waiting for it to be finished! I can't just abandon it!"

So here i am. 3 years later. Still writing it. Still alive :33

Even though i only now, slowly starting to share this au with the world, or rather pieces of it, seeing people enjoy it, only motivates me further to keep working on it and to keep living <33

(special thanks to those people who let me ramble to them about my au, as i work on it, and always tell me how much they love it, y'all giving me extra motivation!!!)