#myproblemis

[myproblemisthis]

Why is there a pill for everything but motivation?

I have struggled with depression all of my 45 years to the point that I don't bother anymore. I have accepted this is how it is for me. There is no reason for my depression, mind you: My childhood was fine. I have not been a victim of a violent crime. I have a loving family. Awesome husband. Like my job. Like where I live. I am not rich, but I do not lack for anything. Except one thing: motivation. I have zero whatsoever. It is getting worse every year. I am on meds; otherwise I would not function. My problem is this: Where is the pill for that?

All I want to do is stare at the wall. Or the TV. Or internet. Or read a magazine. Or sleep. I have zero energy. It does not matter if I sleep very little or if I oversleep. If I work out or don't. If I eat healthy or pizza. Yes, already tested everything, thyroid, blah, blah, blah.

The motivation factor has gotten so low that I don't even want to lift a finger. Even for the things that I liked to do.

So, what works for your motivational problem? Don't tell me to get over it. I sooooooooo wish I could.

[nathanknowsbetter]

my problem is:

I don't have an off switch

I work to distract myself from my emotional problems

I can't say no to others

I never do anything nice for myself