#next right thing by mason ramsey slaps dude

[wholemonsternut]

hello it's me again (:

i am alive, well, & sane & i hope you guys are too :3c

i want to use this time to vent a little (mostly self-reflecting)

i find myself only ever being online in the past year (?) when i "have something to post" & tbh i never really noticed that until today haha

i also wasn't aware how lonely i was feeling bc i talk to both online-only & have-met-irl friends thru social media but that's neither here nor there

as of yesterday, my brain finally decided to lift itself from demotivation & heavy art block & i'm starting to draw again for fun so that's cool (i genuinely thought i was abt to start quitting XD how dramatic...)

for the past few months i've been disliking my own art-- that's in a "it no longer represents myself or my interests" way-- that i would get uninterested in my own sketches as soon as i've started XD

i'm currently sitting on a lot of WIPs that is just acting as decoration in my external hard drive as far as i can tell lol

i had to refund commisions bc i somehow could not bring myself to finish them within deadlines however i am forever grateful for those who are waiting for me (pls know that i am sobbing at your direction)

i'm not entirely sure what my gameplan is regarding feeling better abt my art but i am sure that leaving my sketchbooks & tablet collecting dust is not gonna help with that X3c

annndddd that's pretty much it from me right now

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