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sage, aloe vera, ivy, papyrus, tarot? ILU J 💖💖💖💖

HI SAMMY ILU2

from the random get-to-know-me ask game

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

oh music absolutely. i think because out of everything it came to me when i most needed it? or because it's always Been There and part of my identity. i don't know. you'd think it would be poetry, what with my career path and all, and absolutely, poetry - especially spoken word and slam - touches me in a way most art doesn't. maybe it's just,, vocal art is what gets me. i don't know. something something hearing the emotions and feeling them deeper for it, maybe ??? i don't know. but yeah. music. always.

aloe vera ⇢ what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life?

waking up and someone i love has made me breakfast in bed. i did that as a very small child once or twice for like, father's day, but i've never received breakfast in bed myself, hmmm

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

oh god lmao i have no idea. i'm quieter when i'm sad. i get twitchy when i'm angry/annoyed. i get really snappish when i'm tired or upset. i dunno! i think it's just in my face. i'm not very good at hiding my emotions. but also i have a resting bitch/sad/angry face so my neutral expression is negative so that's hard to read sometimes ?? i have no idea how other people perceive me slkdjflksdjf i think my facial expressions tend to be on par with my emotions, though, maybe?? or my body language?? i get pretty hunched up when sad/upset/etc. in a very classic way, i think. IDK AHHHH someone else, pls tell me what my emotional "tells" are, i cannot perceive myself XD

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

okay i put my spotify-generated "on repeat" playlist on shuffle and "(coffee's for closers)" by fall out boy came on! i have it on my "songs for kansas city" playlist and it's because of this like. "change will come, oh, change will come" and feeling disconnect and nostalgia and looking back on how things used to be and knowing i will never be there again. "come together, come apart, only get lonely when you read the charts." i like fall out boy, i like the chorus, it feels GOOD to sing along to it. kickdrum beating in my chest again.

taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about?

grad school!! teaching and how much it sucks but how great my actual classes are. my new friends, the other first-years, my poetry workshop professor, the other poets in the program, hoping to work in the publishing house next semester. how much i miss my friends in arkansas and kansas city and ohio and new mexico and texas and [the list goes on for literally every state/country my friends reside in]. the d&d campaigns i'm in right now, thinking about starting my own. my new apartment, how it's still such a mess, and my office at the university, how much i love my desk. how i haven't had time to watch anything new lately, how teaching takes up so much more time than i expected/wanted. how i've been reaching for nostalgia in music and fandoms, revisiting things i loved again when i was fifteen, sixteen, seventeen. missing my job at the library but being so excited for this program that i couldn't bear to go back. ...things like that