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martyrbat · 4 months

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instead of dangerous new year resolutions that capitalize off my insecurities or dwelling on any of the shit that happened today, im learning how to knit :) im awful at it, probably always will be because FUCK my hands are so shaky—and im having a blast in making the soppiest stitches known to man and that motion alone

[ID: twenty stitches of light pink yarn on a single metal knitting needle. END ID]

(^ guy who will go through all these before getting one (1) knit stitch on)

#metal needles probably arent the best but also im autistic and am sidney crosby levels of bad with change so. struggle now excel later >:3c #it is 12 though and i haven't slept in 2 days so im probably going to go to bed in a hour or two but in the meantime this is fun #for Christmas i got a cheap pack of needles and 4 balls of yarn (pink yellow blue black) & some dark curtains so that was nice at least :)#ransom note #not looking forward to seeing my family tomorrow. ended today in a procrastinated breakdown because im so tired and was overwhelmed #and my dad will be in until the 28th so. hunker down and push through #<- its kinda funny how i shit talk my dad more than my mother when shes arguably much worse but with her im more irritated and ignore #with him i have that 'this big man is pissing me off and being mean and gross at me so i need to fight him' instinct which plays into it #<- the rose wilson in me........

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