#not to toot my own horn i'm just like. is it so difficult to cross check a leaflet with a program jesus

[imanes]

i'm so...... i hate delegating tasks and then when i see the results it's so botched that i feel like i could've done it from the beginning and never asked shit from anyone because even the process of asking and explaining was a waste of time. anyway have a blessed Monday morning @ everyone I'm going to clock out SO EARLY today

[aprillikesthings]

I'M GONNA TOOT MY OWN HORN FOR A MINUTE

I am super proud of the text of the actual letter itself, even though it's not very long.

If you haven't read the fic, she writes it just a few months after the events of the last episode. Their relationship is still new, and they're still both hella traumatized and struggling.

What Catra sat down to do, and thought she did at the time: pushed herself to write out her genuine feelings for Adora despite the fact that doing so was utterly terrifying.

What Catra actually did: insulted herself nearly immediately, couched multiple compliments in joking insults because it was still difficult not to (though she does manage not to call Adora herself an idiot or a dummy, even in jest), gave away how much guilt and shame she was dealing with (to the point of Melog harassing her into crossing out a couple of particularly egregious things), made it obvious that she doesn't feel like she deserves Adora's love and worries that Adora will one day wise up and change her mind without ever openly saying that.

Even in the paragraph where she's openly horny for Adora, she's mostly humorous about it, and only barely manages to mention that she likes when Adora does the same for her.

There's also moments where she really does push through all of it and lays out her heart--even if at least one of those times she immediately gets angry at herself for finding it so difficult.

But the poor girl is trying so hard and you can tell, and in the end it's enough for Adora to keep the letter for the rest of her life and cry every single time she reads it, even though years later her tears are mostly compassion for their younger selves.

Also I cried while writing it, which I'm not sure has ever happened before? Surely I've made myself cry at least once before now?

Also I managed to sneak the word "promise" into the last sentence of it because c'mon, Catra would.

I did try to figure out a way to indicate when a bit of Catra's handwriting got noticeably shakier, but it was too awkward so I left that out.

Catra loves Adora.

Once upon a time, it was a shameful secret Catra couldn’t even admit to herself. Now half of Etheria knows.

But professing your feelings when you both might die is one thing. Doing it day after day is another.

Vulnerability is terrifying.

Catra learns how to push past her fear and express her feelings to Adora.

(Rated mature because sex is one way to show your feelings for someone.)

Just over 1600 words.

[utterlyinevitable]

Yes please to in canon after the kiss at MK for the jealousy fluff piece! 😍 I actually had that exact timing in mind but didn't want to be too demanding in my request 😂 Thank you so much for humouring this, I'm so excited! And I have been glued to The Conference, can't wait to see what comes next. I'm such a sucker for the jealousy trope ❤️

Thanks so much for the request! I am so sorry it took forever! 💖💖💖 ugh i want to get the next installment of the conference out but i also don’t want to do any medical research for said conference 🤣 literally the only thing stopping me from updating it haha

Settle Down

Word Count: 973 Warning: a few curse words Summary: Becca hears that Ethan’s seeing someone else and goes ballistic. 

A/N: I did begin writing this for @wackydrabbles “I can’t believe you remembered” but then got stuck and abandoned it... ALSO Not to toot my own horn or anything but the last two lines of dialogue is the funniest and smartest thing I’ve ever written 😂😂😂

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‘I heard they’re getting back together.’ 

‘Who?’

‘Ramsey and Emery.’

‘I saw them coming out of Emery’s office - his hair was a mess.’ 

‘Did you hear? They’re going to the Massachusetts for Medicine Gala together tonight.’ 

‘They’ve been on and off longer than I’ve worked here. Should suck it up and settle down already.’ 

The overheard nurses’ conversation played over and over again in Rebecca’s mind. What gala? Ethan never mentioned a gala? 

Just last week he kissed her outside of his apartment, after his father crashed their dinner date, with a promise that they’ll talk about whatever they were becoming. And then two nights ago he did it again during their Mass Kenmore heist. Was Becca endlessly foolish for thinking he wanted her just as much as she ached for him?

He’s known Harper forever… They couldn’t be more than friends, could they? Would they? 

She shook her head at the thought, having to remind herself, He’s not mine to claim. He’s made that perfectly clear…

But deep down she knew that they were tied to one another. His initiations and actions made it so. 

Becca’s blood started to boil as she stomped her way up to his office. Every replay of every word he’s ever said added with the nurses’ commentary fueled her fire.  

Why the fuck would he be stringing me along?!

She rounded past the diagnostics office noticing how a few of the blinds had been drawn over the glass walls. She could see Ethan in deep consideration staring at the whiteboard, his left arm folded across his torso and right hand stroking the stubble along his chin. 

Fuck me. 

She was thankful he was alone. She didn’t think she could handle having an unhinged outburst in front of the rest of the team. Although June knew of her and Ethan’s history she didn’t know how much she knew and if she knew how Harper Emery fit into all of this.  

Becca pushed the glass door open with force bringing Ethan out of his stupor when it closed shut with a solid whack. 

Ethan didn’t have time to turn towards the disruption before Becca shouted, “What do you think you’re doing?” 

He was taken aback but quickly composed himself as he digested the familiar voice he came to care so much for. “Working on our case. What are you -” 

“Harper,” she bitterly cut him off as he turned towards her. “What kind of game are you playing here, Ethan.” 

“I’m not -”  

He assessed her with a trained eye. Becca hovered by the threshold, five feet away from him by his desk, her tanned arms were folded across her small torso. Her eyes were a darker shade of brown than he’s ever seen and there was a divot between her angered brows. He was gobsmacked by her brazenness as she interrupted him once again;  

“I remember your fMRI - there’s something between you you’re not telling me.” 

“I can’t believe you remembered that,” Ethan said more to himself than anything. 

Becca was hyped up but she heard him. She always heard everything that velvety baritone voice said, whether she wanted to absorb the information or not was another story. 

“I remember everything about you!” she exclaimed, still on her warpath. “It’s unimportant, don’t change the subject.” She scolded, pointing a hostile finger at him. “What the fuck! You’re back with Harper? The nurses saw you. What the fuck!”  

Ethan leaned against his desk, his arms folded across his chest. A smirk playing on his features as he watched the petite doctor motion through her outburst. Becca was now pacing furiously around in front of him. 

“Are you done?” he asked with a raised eyebrow once she went quiet, giving her an option to continue her ridiculous strop. 

His words stopped her pacing in place. Her brown eyes whipped towards him and were coated in rage and betrayal, her chest was huffing rampantly, and her gel manicured nails were a beat away from drawing blood in her palms. 

Calmly he announced, “Yes I have feelings for Harper.” Becca’s jaw dropped at the admission. Ethan’s arms followed suit, fingers curling around the edge of his wooden desk as he continued, “Feelings of respect, admiration, and collegiality. Nothing else.”  

Humored blue met embarrassed brown. 

“But -” 

Ethan shook his head to stop her from the disastrous rumors plaguing her mind. “I don’t know what you saw. But it was most likely guilt -” He crossed the distance between them. “For keeping Naveen’s condition from her or for all the times I’ve made her run as Chief more difficult than it had to be.” Once he was but mere inches away he took each of her hands in his, forcibly removing her nails from her palms. “That’s all.” 

Becca didn’t mean to but she relaxed right into his touch. “You truly are an ass,” she grumbled.   

“Hopelessly, so,” he smirked, lacing their fingers together.  

Becca let out a large breath of air. “So there’s nothing between you?” She looked up at the towering and handsome man she has come to adore.  

“No.” His effervescent blue eyes trailed down to admire his Rookie. “We’re going to drum up business and secure outside funding for the clinic,” he addressed the obvious elephant in the room. “If I had been invited you’d undoubtedly be my plus one.” His crooked smile shone through, that one smile he reserves just for her. Ethan trailed his hands over the curves of her body and up to cup her cheeks. “How could anyone say no to this face,” he cooed, squishing the flawless flesh.  

“You’re one to talk,” Becca rolled her eyes. “You seem to be a master at it.”  

“I was working towards a PhD but decided against it.” 

Ethan leaned down to place a feathered kiss on the tip of her nose.   

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[bowieemeddow]

TRINITY. (Queen Fanfiction)

Part 1 // Runaway.

Summary: Margaret McCullugh comes to the realisation that her life is a total mess. After an argument she realises she’s had enough; she grabs her bags and runs away.

Note:Hi guys this is the first chapter of my new fanfiction. I’m not the best writer and this is my first time so please go easy on me; there will be grammar and spelling mistakes throughout this chapter. Feedback will be greatly appreciated 🙂

Warnings; Swearing, sexual assault, bad writing, slight Scottish slang (I’m from Scotland and I write the way I talk sorry 😉✌🏻)

Enjoy.

Thursday // May 1970

"I've never wanted to punch him in the face more in my life than at this point of time." I thought to myself as I glared at him across the dining table. Even from what felt like a mile away; I could still see that smug look on his Greg's face.

"Margret! Are you even listening to me?" I tore my focus from my bastard of a step father to my bastard of a mother. "You'll be meeting Thomas next thursday remember. To talk about arrangements."

Ah Thomas Russel. Son to a millionaire family; him being a successful doctor in the making at 22 and is apparently a distant relative of some foreign royal family (to be fair I wasn't listening to the shit leaving my mothers mouth)

The cherry on top of it all; I've never actually met the boy and I'm his fiancé.

"Poor Thomas." Gina; my younger sister mumbled under her breath while eating her dinner.

"Mind your own business you little shit!" I spat kicking her harshly under the table. Believe me I know this makes me look bad but I promise you I'm not a bad sister; I was actually excited when I found out I had another sibling on the way. I loved her even when she was a newborn. It was when she started talking; she turned into a sneaky little bully and mummy's favourite.

"That's enough don't you dare kick your sister again!" She snapped at me.

I cringed at my mothers comment; more because of the way she said it. Trying to act as posh as possible; trying to mask the natural Glaswegian accent she's had her whole life; the same thick apparently "rough" accent I also have yet Gina never developed it as bad as me, my dad had the rough accent and I was a daddy’s girl... before he left us.

"Why do I have to marry him. I didn't him pick him, hell I haven't even met him! Marrying me off to becoming nothing but a trophy wife? Fully dependable on my husband with a big empty house full of loads of children. Nothing to do except cooking and cleaning-"

"Can we please change the topic?! I don't feel like sending you upstairs again." My mum sighed

"Oh mother!" Gina exclaimed making me jump; her bloody voice goes right through me.

"This dinner is absolutely amazing!" I chuckled to myself quietly, Gina is so far up mums arse it's embarrassing.

"Thank you darling I made it myself."

Yeah right did she make this shit, she doesn't even know how to use the stove, it was the cook that made it. All of it is vegan since "meat is the reason why your acne is so bad and you've starting to lose that figure Margaret, you simply don't take proper care of yourself."

“Oh god I forgot! I was meant to take you bra shopping today.” Mum informed Gina

“But she’s only 13 mum. I never got my first bra till I was 15?” I argued, Gina got everything she wanted without having to even lift a finger.

“You should go with them Margaret. You wear too small a bra better go up a size sweets." He smirked away as he took a drink of his wine that's likely more expensive than everything I own.

At that point I was so pissed off I grabbed the closest thing to me which was a potato from my plate funnily enough and threw it at his head. If I wasn’t so pissed off I think would’ve found it difficult to keep a straight face.

Friday// May 1970

While sitting in period 7 English I thought back to last night.

After successfully hitting Greg's big head with a potato for his inappropriate comment about his step daughter's breasts; Mum took his side and got sent upstairs without eating anything for the rest of the night; not like I wanted to eat any of that shit anyway.

"God he's so cute!" The girl next to me squealed to her friends who were both in front of her; their chairs turned from their tables to form a circle that I was sadly apart of. I wasn friends with the three girls; Tracey, Yasmine and Gemma were the popular girls, the best housewives in the making.

I looked down at the newspaper which Tracey had in her hands, it was crumpled up due to her "fan girl" moment taking over her senses.

"The Gregory Special." The newspaper was called;

Only rich wankers read it.

"Thomas Russel is ready to settle down but who's the lucky girl?"

It said with a picture of the boy himself below it . Wasn't his best picture; he was probably flirting with some random girl in while the photo was being taken.

"So who is the bitch huh?" Gemma spat as Tracey read away at the newspaper trying to figure it out.

"YOU! Mrs Reynolds wants to see you in her office.” My English teacher shouted pointing at me it made the three girls jump back to their original spots as if they were actually listening to the lesson.

Shit what have I done now; I usually lose track at this point.

While putting my things in my bag I looked over at the three girls to see them scanning back through the newspaper frantically to find out who the "lucky woman" was.

I accidentally let out a chuckle of sympathy which caught their attention.

“I’m sorry, is there something you want to say?” Jemma snapped.

"Yeah I do actually since you three can't read for shit. Page 24." I sassed back and waited a moment.

"Margaret McCullugh? Who the bloody hell is that?!" I rolled my eyes at the stupidness.

"Margaret McCullugh. Now." My teacher shouted across the classroom which I nodded to standing up and grabbing my bag and coat with a grin on my face.

The three girls had their mouths wide open once they put two and two together; it was me.

"Bye girls." I whispered chuckling while leaving the classroom.

...

"Please tell me you are joking Miss McCullugh?" Mrs Reynolds pleaded with me

"What's wrong with what I want to do once I leave here?" I argued back.

"Your mother is a politician; she could bloody well be the prime minister in a several years time. How is she gonna get there with her child wanting to do.... textile design?" She gagged at the though of me becoming something that wasn't a doctor or lawyer.

"Why does it fucking matter anyway I can't even do what I want. My mums already set up my whole life." I argued back slouching in my seat with my arms crossed over my chest.

Fuck being ladylike.

"Ah your talking about your engagement with Thomas Russel. Your mother wants you to just be okay, she's worked hard for where she is right now and it was a risky thing she done to get there. She doesn't want you taking any risks when you go onto be a politician or a lawyer-"

"Or a textile design artist." I corrected for her not giving in to her manipulation.

"Margaret I know you okay. Through these past 6 years that you've been in this school you've been very strong willed and feministic attitude to social issues and topics."

"Damn right-"

"But I'm sorry to burst your bubble but this is a patriarchal society we are living in. Woman will not change society. Ever."

I was beyond pissed at this moment of time. I shot up off my seat and slammed down both my hands on her desk in order to shut her up.

"Fucking watch me then!”

...

Saturday // May // 1970

"Hey chickadee." Tana smiled as she came into one of the private rooms of the pub, she lifted my feet and plopped herself next to me in the booth then put my feet back down to they were resting on her lap.

"Hi." I said stretching slightly as I shut my notebook over immediately and set it down on the table.

Tana was probably one of my only friends at this point of time; the moment she turned 19 she was allowed to decorate her parents bar; to which she called me up and asked to borrow my creative mind for help. Before it was just an old looking bar where young ones likes to hang out; now it was a modern neon, rock music bar.

"Glam Rock" it was called and it was placed in a more poverty ridden area of Glasgow. If my mum found out I was here I'd get murdered.

Every Saturday night people from everywhere would come here and celebrate a new "generation" as they called it.

"This new rock generation is gonna grow everywhere. Where men dress like women and women dress like men. Completely and utterly flamboyant!" I remember Tana saying to me when I first came across this bar; it was a Saturday morning and she was getting ready for a party. I was here because I was trying to find the record shop since they sell limited editions for half off.

"We just need someone to spread Glam Rock to every corner of the world."

"HELLO EARTH TO MARGARET!" She shouted snapping her fingers in front of me.

"Huh?" I said snapping back to reality.

"I said were you writing something?" She said pointing to my notebook, I didn't answer yet again because I was too busy admiring what she was wearing.

"For fuck sake! Have you took something?" She laughed trying to get my attention again.

"Sorry, sorry just had a long day. Thinking about what kind of punishment I'll get this time once I make my way home." I chuckled

"Anyways what did you say again?"

"Writing songs... oh and you've also got your camera."

"When am I not writing songs or taking photos Tana?" I said sitting up to grab my vodka and lemonade and down it.

"That's very true. So, let's see what photos you took." She said as she pulled off her slip on heels so she could fold them in a basket.

I put down the two photos I took on the table.

"Have you got a pen." I asked her as she admired the photos.

"Umm.. yeah I think somewhere in they drawers." She said turning her head to the left to show me where it was.

"This bar does look fucking amazing, you have to admit it."

"It's because I decorated it Tana. I hate to toot my own horn here but I'm fucking brilliant at decorating." I laughed as I took one of the photos and wrote the location and date behind it; then done the same with the other.

"You're good at everything you do it does my head in." Tana complained with a groan as she ran her fingers through her black long curly hair.

"I'm not."

"You are. You can paint, you create these amazing clothes, you can play the piano like no one else. You're an amazing singer..." my smile dropped as I grabbed both the photos from Tana's grip and stuck them in my bra for safekeeping before sticking the the pen back in the drawer; the room was so silent you could hear a pin drop, or more like you could here me slamming the drawer shut.

"Maggie-"

"I'm not a singer." I said interrupting her.

"Correction, your mum says your not a singer. But frankly love, you're  the best singer I've ever heard. You should join a band."

"That'll never happen."

....

Sunday // May 1970

Walking up the driveway of my massive house barefoot with my heels in my hand, my make up and hair a mess I knew I was in for it.

I accidentally fell asleep at Tana's last night and now it's 8am in the morning.

I walked in the house and shut the door behind me.

"MARGARET BEATRIX MCCULLUGH!" I heard my mum screech as the sound of her heels became louder and louder.

"God don't say my middle name." I cringed with my face scrunched up; a massive migraine was starting to take its toll on me.

"Where were you?" She shrieked once again; I'm starting to see stars with how bad my freaking headache is. It's way to bright in this house.

"I'm sorry I fell asleep at Tana's I should've called you it's my mistake I won't let it happen again."

One thing to know about me; when I'm in the wrong I apologise.

One thing to know about my mum; she throws my apology right back in my face and calls me immature.

"TANAS!" She started to trail behind me as I clumsily made my way up the stairs to my bedroom door. Once I reached the door I got an overwhelming feeling that I was about to vomit so I stopped for a moment to calm myself down.

I leaned my forehead against the cool marble that the whole house was made from to cool myself down.

"WHAT HAVE I TOLD YOU! NO GOING TO ROCK GLAM, NO DRINKING, NO KISSING RANDOM GIRLS OR BOYS."

She caught a glimpse at my notebook; purple velvet and green floral exterior. She knew exactly what it was and snatched it from my hand.

"Hey!-"

"AND NO MAKING SONGS. NO SINGING SONGS I TOLD YOU NOT TO SING OR WRITE THEY DIRTY LYRICS."

I snatched the book from her and held it right to my chest. This book was my lyrics, my ideas, my thoughts, feeling. My whole life.

"ITS CALLED ROCK MUM! Get with the times, it's the Beatles that are popular now, not fucking hymns." I snapped as I walked into my room. Before I got the chance to shut the door over she was already invading my space.

"I don't give a shit what it's called. Stop it okay! That part of your life is over. It's time to grow up and face reality. You are engaged-"

"I'm not marrying him you can fuck right off." I looked at her through my full length mirror as she walked up to me. Her expensive heels clicking against my flooring as she walked closer to me.

"You're an ungrateful human being you know that. I found you a man; a millionaire who can take care of you for life you won't have to work a day in your life-"

"Yeah that's what I'll do, I'll go right ahead and marry a man I don't marry so that I'll birth all his kids and be his perfect dumb trophy wife for life. You worked hard to get where you are, why can't I work hard in something I wane you do. I don't need a man to do that." I said smothered in sarcasm making my mother roll her eyes.

"You and your bloody pride. Here's the real world Margaret; a woman's purpose main purpose in life is to get married and as the bible preached, have children. You'll never be anything different." She spat.

"You're going to the Russel's household on Thursday morning  for you to plan the wedding with your fiancé with a big bloody smile on your face you hear me?"

I chuckled softly as I walked up so our faces our almost touching; her Chanel No.5 tickling my nose.

"I'd love to see you try." I spat in her face. I suddenly gasped as her hand connected with my cheek forcing my face to the side as my cheek started to warm up almost instantly.

"I hate you, you're not my daughter you know! I should've aborted you when I had the chance you know that! If it killed me oh well, as long AS YOU WHERE NEVER BORN." She screamed in my face, she turned to leave my room to meet Greg leaning against the door frame.

"Are you okay Darling?" Greg asked my mum; his voice all sweet and soft making my scoff and roll my eyes.

She ignored him and left in anger.

"Would you get the fuck out of my room?!" I asked, his head snapped from watching my mum as she made her way down the landing and down the stairs to me.

"Seems you need to be put in your place a bit huh?" He asked as he walked up to me, so close to my face I could feel his breath hit my skin.

"I don't see the bad thing about being a trophy wife Sweets? You'd be a damn good one anyway."He chuckled as he looked at me up and down licking his lips. His hands were resting on my arse ready to give it a spank. A sudden spur of anger and confidence caused me to push him back.

"Touch me again and I swear I'll rip your tongue out."

"You don't have the guts." He simply said before leaving the room.

He's right I didn't have the guts, I didn't have the guts to go to the police and ruins my mother's career that she worked so hard for when it got out to the media that her husband is a child molester.

So Ive kept my mouth shut for years.

I feel hot years fill my eyes, I take a long deep breath in an attempt to calm myself down while looking up at the ceiling to try and stop the crying; I didn't want to give him the satisfaction.

That's when I found myself packing a suitcase, grabbing my passport, some money I had. A couple of outfits to keep me going two or three weeks.

I grabbed my notebook, my Polaroid camera and my box full of Polaroid's and squashed it all into one massive suitcase.

I had to leave the rest so I could move quickly.

___

An hour later my family left to go out for lunch without me. I sat at the window and watched them leave.

I watched them get smaller smaller until eventually I couldn't seem them at all.

I would never see them again.

I grabbed my suitcase, grabbed the keys to my mums car and fucked off out of there with the intention of never returning again.

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I just had to put Harry Styles in there somewhere.

Sorry not sorry 🤪😩