#now in the form of 95 theses nailed to my tumblr

[comradeclown]

OK, so in honour of my top posts now being me saying at various degrees of length that Arthur is gay (hashtag mylegacy, lmao…), I thought I should just go for it and actually dive in a bit a lot into why I read the character as gay. Now, usually all the justification I need to read a character as gay is “wouldn’t it be cool if this character I like/relate to/etc were gay like me?” and “it’s OK, officer, I do what I want”, and I’m well aware that 99% of the time it’s me using my own creativity to do a resistant reading + the film/book/whatever bumbling into subtext entirely by accident. And while I definitely don’t think there’s ever any more justification needed for any kind of LGBT reading, lol, as it comes to Arthur, obviously feel free to disagree with me, but I honestly think my read of him as a gay man is entirely textually supported, however unwitting and accidental that might have been on the part of the filmmakers (mind you, I don’t think it was Todd Phillips’ conscious intent, but I’m like… 85% sure Joaquin Phoenix knew exactly what he was doing).

(ETA that this is extremely long, so I’ve put it all under a cut.)

First of all, there’s of course… pretty much the entirety of Joaquin Phoenix’s performance (a very, very small sample can be found in my he gay son tag and just generally in my arthur fleck tag, ha), from his mannerisms to his physicality to the way he interacts with other characters. I know part of it is a function of wanting to go back to the character’s campy roots (which are themselves… you know…), and I know I’m relying on stereotypes to some extent, but first of all, you can’t divorce either camp or gender non-conformity from LGBT history and existence, and secondly this is literally how characters have been coded as gay throughout the entire history of cinema. What I’m saying here is that you can’t have a character who acts like Arthur does, literal limp wrist and all, or says “come on, Muuuurrrayyy, do I look like the kind of girl clown who could start a movement” the way he does, to pick one of many, many examples, and not evoke the long history of cinematic wink emojis at People Like Me.

That in itself would… honestly be plenty, lol, but it could be chalked up to, idk, Joaquin Phoenix doing his own thing, were it not for the fact that it’s completely reinforced at every turn by the filmmaking language, even down to his wardrobe choices, and it’s worth noting at this point that the framing is always one of empathy — albeit with nuance — and affording the character subjectivity, rather than being “ew, look at this gross [homophobic slur]”. Like, the very first time we see Arthur, literally our first impression of the character, he’s at a mirror, putting on make-up and then ruining it by crying, and while the make-up is of course part of his job, this is just not how the inner crises of straight male characters are expressed in the language of cinema. Of note too is the fact that he’s clearly visually separated from his co-workers in all the scenes at Ha-Ha’s, indicating his alienation from them, and while this could be chalked up purely to his disabilities, I don’t buy that that’s the only reason, given that Gary gets shit due to his dwarfism, sure, but at the end of the day he’s clearly “one of the boys” in a way Arthur (can’t be) isn’t.

There are honestly so many examples of the framing working to separate Arthur from conventional masculinity and heterosexuality that I’m just going to pick some highlights, such as: obviously, the way he expresses himself emotionally through dancing (to the point that one of his coworkers explicitly ribs him about it, “if your dancing doesn’t do the trick”), which again is not something that straight male characters do in the language of cinema. The fact that all the media we see him consume is musicals, classic comedies and a talk show he’s obsessively fannish about and watches with his mother — and we know he’s a fan of the show as a whole, not just Murray, hence him saying “I love Dr Sally” (and the way he says it…). Or, speaking of his media habits, when he’s dancing with the gun while watching Shall We Dance, this could have so, so easily been about him ~regaining his lost masculinity~ through, say, fantasies of revenge or badassery, but instead it’s about him being acknowledged as a great dancer and punishing bad dancers, and it all ends in slapstick anyway.

Also, while I’m on this topic, I want to address the nature of Arthur’s dissociative fantasies about Sophie. Honestly, I don’t read them as indicative of genuine romantic/sexual interest at all, because the film frames them as identical to Arthur’s more deliberate daydreams about Murray. I mean, not that I’m adverse to gay readings of that if that’s what you want to do, lmao, but to me they’re both very clearly post-traumatic fantasies of having another person look after you for once, of having someone value and cherish you and take care of you emotionally (which obviously has massive appeal if you’ve been dealing with the after-effects of catastrophic trauma all your life but nobody has given a shit about your suffering and you’ve had to be the one to look after other people to boot). Note that after the get-together with Sophie — which is clearly patterned after all those old comedies and musicals Arthur watches — the Sophie fantasies are incredibly platonic and involve things like having another person be there for you in a crisis, telling you something supportive, getting you a hot drink (in contrast with the reality of the hospital scene, in which Arthur is alone and he’s the one trying to comfort someone else, i.e., holding Penny’s hand), essentially no different from fantasy!Murray hugging Arthur and knowing exactly what to say to make him feel good about himself. Also note that both fantasies involve being the object of someone else’s affection, Murray picks Arthur out of the audience and Sophie comes to him, it’s a pillow princess Cinderella fantasy, more than someone loving you it’s about being loved. (And, once more, this could easily have all been v. v. different, the Murray fantasy could have been the much more conventionally masculine fantasy of being a famous comedian and being invited on Murray’s show, the Sophie fantasies could have had an undeniable sexual component, etc.)

Anyway, to get back to the general point of cinematic framing, again if the movie didn’t want me to read Artie as gay, it shouldn’t have had a pivotal moment in his character arc be him sitting at his mother’s vanity table, doing a new make-up look which involves using her lipstick, and then having a Moment while he’s literally holding a quasi-glamour shot of her.

And the thing is, all these reams of stuff aren’t even the key piece of the puzzle for me, which is the way in which the film as a whole can be read as a gay narrative. I’ve posted before about how part of the emotional catharsis of the film is about Arthur finally shamelessly embracing and even revelling in all his freakishness and socially-despised traits, a big one of which being what is arguably his effeminacy and… honestly I don’t need to explain how that’s a classic gay (and more generally LGBT) narrative, do I? Like, there’s a reason why a pivotal scene is Arthur having his hair-dyeing underwear rave in a flat that’s suddenly incredibly bright and sunny for the first time, it’s about reclaiming the pain and ugliness of your life and your circumstances into a space of potential liberation, which is honestly why this movie is always going to be incredibly personally meaningful to me for so many reasons, but definitely meaningful to me as a gay woman. (Again, this could so, so easily have been about him becoming some stone-cold badass or whatever, but instead the film has him dye his hair, put on a super garish new outfit and new make-up look, dance shamelessly in the street, and be incredibly campy on national television.)

More generally, there’s other aspects of the narrative arc that tie into this general theme and which also serve to continually distance Arthur from the conventional cinematic narratives of heterosexual manhood: for instance, once he starts fully embracing the Joker persona — which is… just Arthur, the crucial difference is in how others perceive him and how he perceives himself — any attraction to women, feigned or real, goes completely out the window and the only genuinely affectionate interaction he has with another human being is with Gary (I know we all love to joke about his first kiss being with Dr Sally, but it’s obviously Comedy Jokes and he doesn’t even kiss her for real, his make-up is completely intact; Arthur’s only real kiss in the movie is when he kisses Gary). Or, when Arthur’s personal narrative finally intersects completely with the larger social narrative — which is itself about upheaval, reclamation and potential liberation — the big triumphant moment is him once again dancing, this time for a cheering crowd, and using blood like lipstick to redraw his smile.

Or even, to a lesser extent, his whole sub-plot with his mother, before I watched the film I was worried that this was going to be the usual narrative about the henpecked guy who finally puts the bitch in her place as part of becoming a Real Man, and it’s not at all, quite the opposite, Arthur is not henpecked and is clearly in charge of the household, he genuinely loves Penny — and is confident she loves him back — and enjoys doing at least some things with her (them watching the Murray Franklin Show together), and up until the reveal any issues he has with her are largely the product of having to look after an ill person with zero social support and while working a physically and emotionally demanding job and dealing with his own disabilities. When he kills her, it’s a deeply sad and self-destructive scene and it’s the result of his profound anguish and sense of betrayal and he frames it as the bitter, trauma-haunted dark half of self-actualisation and self-acceptance (“that’s the real me”, “I haven’t been happy one minute of my entire fucking life”, “now I realise… it’s a fucking comedy”).

Or, at a more meta-textual level, the way the film is unabashedly both a pulpy thriller and a melodrama, just shamelessly embracing all its emotions, its pain and catharsis, without a trace of irony. Like, yeah, part of this is the immense sincerity and compassion Joaquin Phoenix brings to his performance, but it really is the movie’s approach as a whole, and when there is humour — and I do think there’s quite a lot of humour in the movie — it’s not the distancing, let’s-not-feel-anything-too-deeply-bro humour of your typical MCU movie, it’s the camp sensibility of laughing with and at your own tragedy. (Myriad examples down to the use of certain songs in the soundtrack.)

On a final note, you guys know how much I don’t care about authorial intent, but I feel compelled to point out that in his director’s commentary, Todd Phillips says, while discussing Arthur’s journey into becoming Joker, that he reads the larger pop-cultural character of the Joker as someone who doesn’t want women, and like… Again, it’s not like I think that he was deliberately making a gay narrative in any way, it’s just that if you’re creating this journey of a man who eventually becomes a character who’s not interested in women in that sense, you’ve also just ended up stumbling into a gay narrative accidentally on purpose, lmao, what’s the real difference between “at the end of the story, Arthur doesn’t want women because he’s ~da Joker now, baby, he doesn’t want anything~” and “at the end of the story, Arthur doesn’t want women because he’s gay and he’s no longer deeply repressed and closeted”?

Anyway, like I said, feel free to disagree, he’s a fictional character, lol, but this is where I’m coming from, and the reason why if everyone involved in the movie decided to make a statement tomorrow about how much Arthur Fleck wants to bone women I’d just say “shit, idc, I’m afraid you made a gay movie about Arthur Fleck, a gay man, it’s a little too late to retcon this bitch now ¯\_(ツ)_/¯”. Also this is over 2,000 words long what the fuck I am so sorry

[morepopcornplease]

Revoice! a Side B Conference Reflection

I wasn’t exactly sure what to write here, or even if I *would* write about my thoughts on Revoice.

But @monstrousgourmandizingcats asked, and, well, I can’t say no...

How was it?

You know, I’m not usually one for conferences with big worship sections where we stand and sing and such. (It actually made me realize that Catholics are, like, the Brits of the Christian world.... meaning, we are stoic and we do NOT do ~feelings~ in our worship.)

BUT, there’s still something undeniably powerful about being surrounded by 600+ queer Christians who are committed to their faith, taking our collective pain and suffering and offering it all up to God through song.

What did you do?

Attended excellent workshops and hugged people and had a LOT of good food and beer. I’m now Facebook friends with a Cistercian monk and LOADS more Side B’ers!! Also (and I cannot BELIEVE this happened) I met someone who had ALSO memorized Frozen in 25 languages?? and we sang it for some folks??? so. you know. that was a personal highlight  😍 😍 😍

What were the workshops?

You can find a full list here. The ones I attended were:

Leaders Track

Everything Belongs

Non-Traditional Families ARE Biblical Families

Queer Culture

Mission & Sexuality

Ecstacy in Celibacy

Are they available to watch?

Some, but not all, were recorded. You should be able to check out these talks as soon as they’re uploaded to the Revoice YouTube page (and you can check out last year’s talks, too!!)

Any words of wisdom you picked up??

PLENTY!

“Authentic celibacy--whether lay, ordained, or vowed--is oriented toward social and community life. To be a ‘spiritual father’ or ‘spiritual mother’--perhaps as a member of the clergy or religious, but also as a godparent, or an adoptive relative, or a catechist or teacher, or simply as a mentor and friend--is an esteemed vocation, something essential for a healthy and flourishing Christian community... celibacy is a communal practice.”

Catholic Archdiocese of Philadelphia, Love is Our Mission: The Family Fully Alive.

God Himself was the first missionary.

Genesis implicitly directs us to go and create culture. It is therefore not enough for us to critique culture, or reject culture. We must create culture, and that is part of our missions as Christians, and can give us purpose as Side B’ers.

Queer culture has many parts that parallel the first Christians:

“Coming out” parallels our “Declaration of Faith.”

Being rejected by our blood-tied family calls queer people to form a different family based on ties other than blood, rather like how Christians are called to be spiritual brothers and sisters to one another.

We must Include, Listen, Protect, and Invest in people.

Celibacy offers chances to give radical hospitality, more prayer time, and the ability to feel the absence of satiation from the world, making you more open to rely on Christ.

The broken places are exactly where we are most likely to see Jesus.

How can gay Christians be family / minister to the Church?

minister to widows, orphans, mothers, the lonely.

respite care for foster families, become foster / adoptive parents.

Family = Intentional Purpose + Connection.

We must be FAMILY to the queer community, and to our fellow believers.

As missionaries, we are “Reconciled Reconcilers,” that is, we are reconciled to Christ, and we must reconcile with others.

Of queer populations, roughly 79% grew up in the Church.

Of that percentage, 51% left the Church.

Of that percentage, 91% left not because of theology, but because of mistreatment.

The Church can impose celibacy as a “punishment” and then turn right around and say it’s “beautiful” in the same breath.

“Such were some of you” can be used as a weapon in the style of Prosperity Gospel, because it implies orientation change. This is a form of spiritual abuse.

We do NOT have to pass through heterosexuality to get to Heaven.

The Church has a responsibility towards those in poverty. So, too, does it have a responsibility towards those in celibacy.

Celibacy =/= loneliness

“You can belong to God alone, without being alone in your belonging.”

“You cannot love God more by loving others less.”

A Martin Luther quote, which, granted, he wrote it after nailing his 95 theses, but it nonetheless spoke to my Catholic self:

“This life therefore is not righteousness, but growth in righteousness, not health, but healing, not being but becoming, not rest but exercise. We are not yet what we shall be, but we are growing toward it, the process is not yet finished, but it is going on, this is not the end, but it is the road. All does not yet gleam in glory, but all is being purified.”

We did not come to comfort the well-off. We came to challenge each other to be better Christians.

Christianity is costly.

“Bear one another’s burdens, and so you will fulfill the law of Christ.” Galatians 6:2

How can I attend Revoice next year?

Revoice always takes place in St Louis, MO (it seems to be a Side B hotbed?) and has taken place during June these past two years of it’s existence (for, well, obvious Pride Month timeliness reasons XD)

While Revoice does offer scholarships, I have an additional idea of helping the Side B’ers here on tumblr attend.

So please, if you are Side B and are interested in attending Revoice next year, HIT! ME! UP!! Let’s make this happen. I understand the logistics are different for everyone, but I’d very much like for folks here to have a better chance to attend.

Much love and prayers to you all.

[artificialcats]

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omg thanks answers under the cut bc this is going to b long

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

tbh dont even remember but ive never like, held hands w anyone ~romantically~ or w/e

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

SHY but i have my more outgoing moments every once in a while

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

Quinn!!! and my other friends and my sister back home :-) and my cat

4. Are you easy to get along with?

uhh idk? i guess?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

tbh dont know 

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

nice ones. cute ones. ones interested in the same stuff as me ?

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

my friend did a tarot reading for me a week ago and when i asked if id have a gf this year the answer was not good lmao so doubtful

8. Who from another gender is on your mind?

idk?

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

im p indifferent

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

tbh my memory is garbage idk

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“signing tomorrow at 3:30″ cryptic out of context

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

the traveller- beach house (just walked to it in a fashion show! its good), boyfriend--best coast, sleepover--hayley kiyoko, forever (pt II)--snakehips, and a variety of tennis songs i cant choose from 

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

ya

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

not particularly

15. What good thing happened this summer?

last summer i got to do a bunch of fun stuff w different friends! 

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

ive never kissed anyone before LMAO (last “person” ive ever kissed was my cat on the head and ya id do that again)

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

I MEAN like the universe is so expansive theres no way theres NOT some other form of life out there 

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

lmao no 

19. Do you like bubble baths?

nah i dont like baths 

20. Do you like your neighbors?

at home yes (QUINN!!) and no (dont talk to anyone else) 

21. What are you bad habits?

nail picking, a lot of other stuff im too tired to list rn

22. Where would you like to travel?

would love to road trip it across the west

23. Do you have trust issues?

maybe? idk

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

moisturizing 

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

tbh feeling p good abt my body rn.. maybe my shoulders.. ive always disliked how square they r..

26. What do you do when you wake up?

p much immediately get in the shower

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

never thought abt it

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

my close friends

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

i dont have any exes

30. Do you ever want to get married?

maybe someday but not for a loooong long time

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

no

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

im ace so like,, none of them 

33. Spell your name with your chin.

losauirtfsa

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

nope. used to play tennis tho

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

probably tv. love music too much

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

HA ofc living that life rn

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

uh probably nothing

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

nice, supportive, is willing to dance around to/sing along w 70s/80s/2000s music w me 

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

thrift stores probably.. never know what youre going to find

40. What do you want to do after high school?

well rn im in college and thats p much what i was going for in high school so 

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

nah

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

probably just that i dont feel like talking? or im tired

43. Do you smile at strangers?

usually

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

outer space theres some whack stuff in the ocean

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

idk

46. What are you paranoid about?

a looot of things LMAO

47. Have you ever been high?

nope

48. Have you ever been drunk?

nope

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

no

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

grey

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

sometimes but usually just in like a ‘they look rlly cool’ or ‘i rlly like their style’ kind of way like just kind of envious

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

probably like, throwing my depression out the window

53. Favourite makeup brand?

dont wear makeup enough lmao

54. Favourite store?

tbh dont rlly have one also this is rlly similar to  previous question?

55. Favourite blog?

i love the househunting blog but idk if i rlly have a favorite

56. Favourite colour?

PINK

57. Favourite food? 

chicken bc theres so much good stuff u can do w it

58. Last thing you ate?

mini twix bar 

59. First thing you ate this morning?

eggs on toast

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

yea won a couple different ones for art related stuff

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

nope

62. Been arrested? For what?

nope

63. Ever been in love? 

platonically ya romantically no i dont think so

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

a short one: never happened

65. Are you hungry right now?

no ive been snacking all night lol

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

my tumblr friends p much are my rl friends so,, no

67. Facebook or Twitter?

twitter

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?

no

70. Names of your bestfriends? 

quinn

71. Craving something? What?

the sweet warm embrace of my bed

72. What colour are your towels?

one is pastel blue one is black/white/grey stripe

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

two

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

yea. i have a big pusheen plush and at home a mini dino pillow pet n a cat plush

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

like.. 3 i think? i used to have a L O T 

75. Favourite animal?

cats

76. What colour is your underwear?

black

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

vanilla

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

once i had cardamom n it was rlly rlly good 

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

white w blue stripes

80. What colour pants?

jean overalls

81. Favourite tv show?

OOGH rn the getdown, stranger things, parks n rec, x files, downton abbey, charmed, a lot, 

82. Favourite movie?

jurassic park

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

neither

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

neither

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

dont have one

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

idk maybe nemo? never rlyl though abt it

87. First person you talked to today?

my mom

88. Last person you talked to today?

my sister

89. Name a person you hate?

idk

90. Name a person you love?

all my friends

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

not anyone i kno personally

92. In a fight with someone?

idk

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

like one pair and i never wear them lmao

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

a couple

95. Last movie you watched?

ella enchanted

96. Favourite actress?

no one comes to mind ?

97. Favourite actor?

idk jeff goldblum? 

98. Do you tan a lot?

no

99. Have any pets?

yes!! two cats

100. How are you feeling?

tired but ok

101. Do you type fast?

i think so yea

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

idk

103. Can you spell well?

im ok

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

kind of but i know we’re so different now we probably wouldnt even get along.. its not a miss i feel all the time tho more of a ‘we knew each other for so long its kind of sad we grew apart’

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

i want to say yes but it wasnt like a party party

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

not that i know

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

yes

108. What should you be doing?

my homework 

109. Is something irritating you right now?

school. im ready to get out of here

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

i dont think so

111. Do you have trust issues?

wasnt this question already asked

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

my friend steph i think (over the final fantasy ending LMAO)

113. What was your childhood nickname?

i dont think i had one

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

yea

115. Do you play the Wii?

not a lot no

116. Are you listening to music right now?

yep (rn its 0 to 100 by drake on shuffle)

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

not really. i like the broth tho

118. Do you like Chinese food?

ya

119. Favourite book?

aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

depends

121. Are you mean?

i try not to be

122. Is cheating ever okay?

nah

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

NO LMAO i have a bad habit of standing on my own feet my white shoes r so gross

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

idk

125. Do you believe in true love?

idk

126. Are you currently bored?

not rlly

127. What makes you happy?

my friends, cats, pink, good food, nature, making my own art, old houses n rooms, lots of stuff

128. Would you change your name?

never thought about it

129. What your zodiac sign?

aries

130. Do you like subway?

not rlly

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

what

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

im p sure this ? was already asked

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

134. Can you count to one million?

y

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

dont remember but lots of em

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

closed. i cant sleep w them open 

137. How tall are you?

5′10″

138. Curly or Straight hair?

i have straight hair

139. Brunette or Blonde?

im blonde? i dont kno if theses r refering to me or what i prefer on other people?

140. Summer or Winter? 

summer

141. Night or Day?

tbh a tie

142. Favourite month?

dont have one!

143. Are you a vegetarian?

no

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

milk

145. Tea or Coffee?

neither

146. Was today a good day?

it was ok

147. Mars or Snickers?

no preference

148. What’s your favourite quote?

dont have one

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

i mean i dont not believe in ghosts

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? 

“Grant said “what did you think?”” -Jurassic Park

[alix-chronogirl]

Get to know me 1) What images do you have set for your desktop/cell phone wallpapers? I've set a quote Who said " I'm not good at making promises " 2) Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? Yes , The Art teacher XD but not A really crush , sometimes I call him Senpai And He say " Thanks " In Japanese 3) What was your last text message? To My Enemy " What Your Fucking problem ? I will punch You in the face really Hard that Even Black magic Wouldn't save you " ( I'm French So I said that In French ) 4) What do you see yourself doing in 10 years? I see me as a doctor or a vet ( I'm Learning about it ) 5) If you could be anywhere else right now, where would you be? At my bestie House 6) What was your coolest Halloween costume? A bloody Doll 7) What was your favorite 90s show? Buffy vs Vampire 8) Who was your last kiss? It was been For my bestie ( On the cheek ) 9) Have you ever been stood up? 10) Favorite ice cream flavor? Vanilla 11) Have you been to Las Vegas? No 12) Your favorite pair of shoes? It's A black one ( a adidas I think ) 13) Honestly, have you ever cheated on your significant other? ne-ver I'm faithful 14) What is your favorite fruit? Strawberry 15) Have you talked to anyone on tumblr that you could see yourself dating/having sex with? If possible? Nope 16) Are you into hookups? Short or long term relationships? I don't Have a boyfriend but I'm in love, but I think That he don't love me 17) Do you smoke? If so, what? I don't 18) What do you do to get over your anger? I punch a wall Or a pillow or get a hug to my bestie 19) Do you believe in God? Yes , of course 20) Does the person you're in love with know it? I think I hope no... I'm preparing myself to tell him 21) Favorite position? 22) What's your horoscope sign? Sagitarius 23) Your fears? Been Alone 24) How many pets do you have? What kind? 2 and it's two kittens I'm gonna have a puppy 25) What never fails to turn you on? A naughty talk 26) Your idea of a perfect first date? It have to be In a park With theses Pink flower 27) What is something most people don't know about you? I can get angry very fast 28) What makes you feel the happiest? Me and My Bestie laugh 29) What store do you shop at most often? Idk 30) How do you feel about oral? Giving and/or receiving? Nervous 31) Do you believe in karma? Idk what is it 32) Are you single? Yes 33) Do you think flowers or candy are a better way to apologize? I think that flowers are better 34) Are you a good swimmer? Yes 35) Coffee or Tea? Tea 36) Online shopping or shopping in person? In person 37) Would you rather be older or younger than your current age? Older 38) Cats or Dogs? Cats 39) Are you a competitive person? Yes 40) Do you believe in aliens? Yes 41) Do you like dancing? Yes , I'm a breakdancer and I do hip-hop 42) What kind of music to you listen to? Electro , pop and A tiny bit of rock 43) What is your favorite cartoon character? Duh peridot from Steven universe 44) Where are you from? France 45) Eat at home or eat out? Home 46) How much more social are you when you're drunk? I never drink Alcohol 47) What was the last thing you bought for yourself? Some fries 48) Why do you think your followers follow you? Idk 49) How many hours do you sleep at night? Between 2 and 10 hours It's depends 50) What worries you most about the future? I'm worries if I will be forever alone 51) If you had a friend that spoke to you the same way you speak to yourself, how long would you be friends? I think so 52) Are you happy with yourself? No really 53) What do you wish you didn't know? I wish I didn't know that My friend ( a girl ) talk Behind my back Say that I'm a useless bitch and That I should kills myself 54) What big lesson could people learn from your life? That they need to respect everything, even if they don't like it 55) If you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be? The house of Marinette in miraculous Ladybug 56) What's your favorite Website? Idk 57) What's the habit you're proudest of breaking? My t-shirt Who it's write on " I've the strong of Osoro Shidesu and The style of Oka Ruto 58) What was your most recent trip of more than 50 miles? Nothing 59) What's the best bargain you've ever found at a garage sale or thrift store? A sketch book 60) What do you order when you eat Chinese food? Noodles 61) If you had to be named after one of the 50 states, which would it be? ... 62) If you had to teach a subject to a class, what would it be? ART BRUH 63) Favorite kind of chips? The cheese one 64) Favorite kind of sandwich? I don't have Any 65) Which do you use more often, the dictionary or the thesaurus? Dictionary 66) Have you ever been stung by a bee? Yes but I'm alergic 67) What's your favorite form of exercise? Sleep 68) Are you afraid of heights? YES ! 69) What's the most memorable class you've ever taken? My first years Of college ( in France college Is after elementary school) 70) What's your favorite breakfast? Coca Cola ( I'm not joking ) 71) Do you like guacamole? Nope 72) Have you ever been in a physical fight? Yes I punched her after that she bleed 73) What/who are you thinking about right now? I'm thinking About my bestie if she's okay 74) Do you like cuddling? NOPE ! 75) Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Yes food 76) Have you ever experienced one of your biggest fears? YES ! BE TOO HIGH! 77) Favorite city you've been to? Paris 78) Would you break the law to save a family member? OF COURSE 79) Talk about an embarrassing moment? It was A long time ago , I've been in love with someone , and he told me that he do to , I was happy And after that I tried to hug him and He say " hell not I'm only kidding" GOD 80) Are there any causes you strongly believe in? yes ! I believe in love everyone can Two girls , two boy , a boy and a girl 81) What's the worst injury you've ever had? .... It's something secret 82) Favorite day of the week? FRIDAY ! 83) Do you consider yourself sexually open minded? Depends but yes 84) How do you feel about porn? Bad 85) Which living celebrity would you like to know? MELANIE MARTINEZ 86) Who was your hottest ex? I don't have ex 87) Do you want/have kids? Yes ! Twins 88) Has anyone ever told you that they wanted to marry you? Nope , oh yes ! A game ! 89) Do you get easily distracted? Yes 90) Ass or titties? Ass 91) What is your favorite word? Hope 92) How do you feel about tattoos? I love people who have one... But I won't have one 93) Do you have any pets? Yes 2 kittens 94) How tall are you? I'm 1m58 ( in France ) 95) How old are you? I'm 13 years old 96) 3 physical features you get complimented on a lot? My nails , my eyes and my hairs 97) Is there anything you're really passionate about? Art ! 98) Do you have trust issues? Yep 99) Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes 100) What are some words that you live by? Why? Hope because everyone can hope