#nunfgyrhdgfe but yeah sorry for rambling in the tags I am just... so not used to the concept of people being nice to me still | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

pierswife · 5 months

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Okay just finished playing Lethal Company for the first time with a bunch of irl friends (we were using the bigger lobby mod) and like holy shit it's so much fun??? Like, I suck at it. If it isn't Resident Evil or FNAF I'm kinda shit with horror, ngl. But there's a lot of like... Comedic value with this game? ESPECIALLY with a bunch of friends.

And my one friend was super sweet cause he remembered that I'm afraid of thunderstorms so he made sure to speak up for me to say we could go anywhere except for really thunderstormy places in the game cause, well the way he basically put it, was that it wasn't okay to put me in a situation where it would actually make me scared and not have fun being scared, if that makes sense.

Uhh... tldr; Lethal Company is very fun and I'm still not used to having good friends irl that it does throw me for a loop /pos

#legit did not get actual genuine friends irl until like #turning 20 and even then I ended up falling out with... 4 of them? cause they couldn't respect my boundaries and I was forced to apologize #to THEM for making ME triggered. I had to apologize for being fucking triggered. cause they chose being friends with...#I don't wanna say abuser cause that doesn't feel or sound right but he did very heavily emotionally manipulate me to get his way vsgfrsdfgs #the kicker? the friend that was really sweet tonight is still friends with him but he's the only one out of the friends I had to cut off-#-that respected and still respects my boundaries about it. he (friend) really is a sweet guy even if he doesn't realize it #I was in fact yelling “WHERE IS MY EMOTIONAL SUPPORT [NAME]??” multiple times fhsdjfvbwshj #tbh everyone I played with (cause a few I'm only acquainted with cause it's my other irl friend's server) was very nice cause it was my-#-first time playing so they were all super patient with me and since I didn't wanna be alone someone always stayed with me #OH AND DEATH CHAT? FUCKING HILARIOUS #nunfgyrhdgfe but yeah sorry for rambling in the tags I am just... so not used to the concept of people being nice to me still #I'm working on it and I have been but it still just floors me when people welcome me into spaces with open arms #I'm not used to it like genuinely I'm so used to being a loner and I was always pretty okay with/came to terms with it #it's kinda healing... and this isn't just to the people I got to play games with tonight #this goes to everyone who has welcomed me into their lives whether online or irl: thank you. genuinely. from the bottom of my heart.#data log: personal

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