#of course disclaimer that if people have this headcanon about Pete it's fine etcetc

[yujeong]

I know the fandom loves making Pete have low self esteem in the sense of finding himself ugly and unworthy of being Vegas' "boyfriend" (to the point of having seen the tag "Pete's canonical low self esteem issues" in fics), but can I suggest the opposite?

Can we make Vegas feel self conscious about his appearance post canon?

Vegas, who now can't wear the clothes he used to because his scars will be visible, Vegas who now can't ride his bike or drink or party or torture or kill or stay awake all night or FUCK like before, Vegas who finds showering a chore, which leads to him letting his hair turn greasy on his head, who smells, whose breath stinks because he can't get up to brush his teeth, Vegas who now has to expose every single part of his everyday life to the most important person in his life, even the ugly parts, even the disgusting parts that he hates.

How could he bear Pete watch him struggle like this, how is it fair for Pete to have to deal with him unshaven and smelly and rotting in bed all day?

(Vegas, of course, is a huge hypocrite, because he kissed a feverish Pete who hadn't brushed his teeth in days, and found the taste sweeter than any type of candy he's ever eaten, because he ate Pete's ass when it had barely been washed at the safehouse and it was so good he couldn't stop, even after Pete had lost his mind in pleasure, because the black bags under Pete's eyes made him look otherworldly, because he became obsessed with Pete looking sick and tired as he laid next to him on the hospital bed, below all the layers of guilt he felt for putting Pete through hell multiple times.)

Please, please, I need it, and I need Pete to have the most confused look on his face as he hears Vegas whine and obsess over things he deems unimportant, because what Pete wants, what Pete has always wanted, is Vegas in his life, alive and with him.