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Ngl, after experiencing the pure anguish that is traveling via airplane so often lately, I am very tempted to just... write an actual fic with this concept.

Both Vegas and Pete have a fear of flying.

For Vegas, it's the lack of control. He has no influence into the trajectory of the plane or its speed. He has no power in stopping the plane or making it change its route. He has to stay put in a secluded space up in the clouds for hours, waiting for the trip to end. It drives him crazy.

For Pete, it's the unpredictability. He doesn't know how the trip will go. He doesn't know if there will be intense turbulence or not, if the slight shake of the plane one moment means a bigger one will follow it the next or if it'll pass, only for it to happen again later. It makes him uncomfortable and shaky.

Both of them deal with it by imagining their deaths.

Vegas creates vivid images in his mind about the plane crashing, about the screams and chaos happening around him, about his body melting or drowning or suffocating. He considers what his last thoughts would be. They all involve Pete.

Pete just closes his eyes and tries to imagine how his body would feel after loss of pressure and altitude. How his heart would start beating faster, how he'd start breathing harder, how he'd probably shed a tear or two without wanting to, thinking about leaving his grandma and Macau behind. Vegas is always with him when the plane crashes.

Somehow, it makes them both feel better.

Neither of them tell the other about it.

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[me cradling my favorite character in my hands] i love you so much. i want the best for you. i'm going to tear you to fucking shreds

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BOC shared this image of Vegas a few days ago for the rerun of episode 4, and I'm so obsessed with it I made it my phone's Lock Screen:

Besides the obvious thing of it being a gorgeous photo - the lighting and the colours are mesmerizing, and Bible as Vegas always looks incredible - it's the implications about the scene in question that have me lose my mind in the best way.

Of course, since we've all seen the mirror scene, we can assume that this is a BTS photo of Bible getting mentally prepared to portray Vegas in that moment. I can recognize that, while at the same time explore the possibility of it being part of canon.

So. This is Vegas after returning home from the auction. He's defeated, ridiculed and failed to mark Porsche like he wanted. That red dot on his lips is probably his blood from when Porsche hit him with his head.

Do you see the melancholy in his eyes? The distance in his gaze, like he's somewhere else entirely? Do you notice the brewing anger that's hidden there?

I do.

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Vegas is waiting for the other shoe to drop, but it stays firm on Pete's foot and he's scared. He's itching to ruin things. It'd be so easy - old habits taking root and wrecking havoc. He might even feel good for a little while afterwards. Something he's useful for. "You've ruined me." Pete ignores him, kisses him and Vegas is trembling into it. He feels pathetic as he cries there, engulfed in Pete's arms, staining Pete's skin with his tears. Pete wipes them away with his fingers, his touch soothing and horrible. Vegas doesn't deserve his tenderness. Vegas doesn't deserve any part of him. "You shouldn't be here," he says, empty words he doesn't mean. Not because they're not true, but because Vegas doesn't want them to be. Pete shrugs. "I am, though. You can't really change that." "I wish I could." He expects Pete to get mad, but he doesn't. He's not even sad - he simply sighs and guides Vegas' hand to rest on his chest. "Can you feel it?" he asks, and Vegas holds his breath as Pete's heart beat is softly vibrating on his palm. Its steady rhythm makes Vegas want to cry all over again. He nods hesitantly, his gaze transfixed on Pete's. "Whenever you get the urge to spew such nonsense, do this," Pete says and he smiles self-consciously for a second, his ears a light shade of red. Vegas smiles back. Not being in any mood to argue, he kisses the rest of his dark thoughts away.

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I don't think we've talked enough about how Tonkla pulled two guys just by being sad.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: สี่นาที | 4 Minutes (Thailand TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Korn/Tonkla (4 Minutes Thailand TV) Characters: Tonkla (4 Minutes Thailand TV), Korn (4 Minutes Thailand TV), Win (4 Minutes Thailand TV) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Mildly Dubious Consent, Oral Sex, Voyeurism, Hurt No Comfort, Ambiguous/Open Ending Summary:

Korn doesn’t stop this time. ---- I’m aware the fandom is basically dead at this point, but I’m still here going crazy about these two insane people, so you’ll just have to deal with it.  Thanking the usual culprit @wretchedamaranth who’s so patient and kind with me it makes me cry on the regular. I appreciate your help so much my friend. Thank you for sticking with me for so long.  Whoever decides to read this, I hope you enjoy it <33

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“i speak into the silence. i toss the stone of my story into a vast crevice; measure the emptiness by its small sound.”

— carmen maria machado, in the dream house

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i'm pleased to announce that i'm back on my bullshit :D

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hyperfixation please stay with me long enough to complete the project. hyperfixation do not fade. hyperfixation finish what you started for the love of god

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For people getting hyped about Shine the Series, might I recommend A Good True Thai to read in the meantime? It's an incredible novel and will absolutely offer some background that will make the series richer.

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some fem vegaspete from my sketchbook

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“she kisses your top lip, then the lower one, like each one deserves its own tender attention. she leans away and looks at you with the kind of slow, reverent consideration you’d give to a painting. she strokes the soft inside of your wrist. you feel your heart beating somewhere far away, as if it’s behind glass. ‘i can’t believe that you've chosen me,’ she says.”

— carmen maria machado, in the dream house

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Do you like to read? If yes, put your current/most recent book in the tags!

Yes

No

I used to but dont anymore

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She was amazed to discover that when he was saying, 'As you wish,' what he meant was, 'I love you.'

The Princess Bride (1987) dir. by Rob Reiner

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So a few of my friends do this thing called a "crying counter", which is basically writing down when they cry and why. They jokingly said Vegas would do that too and, I'll be honest with you, I can see it.

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Tell me your most beautiful lie. Tell it in secret only to me. Talk to me about a fairytale, the one you chose forever to miss. You came and left like the stars. Many summers went past, the dream got lost in the sunset and I stayed here.

Monsier Minimal - The Moment