#oh my god miss rodrigo where the HELL where you when i was 17

[katierosefun]

OKAAAAAAAAY i’m listening to olivia rodrigo’s new album now and holy SHIT THE FIRST TRACK ALREADY SLAPS

EDIT: okay gonna put out all my thoughts here

traitor is already killing me haha. ain’t it funny how you said you were friends, now it’s sure as hell it doesn’t look like it. haha. ha. this song is so painful for so many reasons, and i already have a lump in my throat lmao. (god i wish we thought this through before i went and fell in love with you. bro. i’m just gonna sit down here.)

drivers license. we already know that this song slaps. 

1 step forward, 3 steps back. okay okay okay, so apparently this was from the sample of new year’s day by the one and only taylor swift, and now i’m :’)) also...yeah, i feel like this song very perfectly captures that weird fascination/confusion with a love that’s probably not good for you and i’m just...”i’m the love of your life until i make you mad.” ouch. 

deja vu. once again. still slaps. 

good 4 u. honestly.........the justified angry teenage angst. yes. i will sure as heck burn down every single timber of the house to this song. 

enough for you. ouch. olivia rodrigo really said “i’m gonna fill you with unapologetic rage in one track and then fill you with an unending sadness in the next”. and also....”i don’t want your sympathy / i just want myself back” and oh godddd...............oh god...........oh god. “don’t you think i loved you too much to be used and discarded” and “don’t tell me you’re sorry, boy, you’re sorry for yourself”....”and they’ll think i’m so exciting / and you’ll be the one who’s crying”. there’s some really raw lyrics here, and there’s some parts that just. ouch. ouch ouch ouch. ouch. 

happier. oh. how can a song be both full of yearning for an old relationship but also be bitter. also, olivia nodding that this other girl is pretty and sweet and nice and like,,,she can’t even bring herself to get mad at this other girl because she gets it, but a part of herself still wishes that the person she’s singing about still isn’t as happy with this new girl as he might have been with her--hm. i’m mostly just impressed by how olivia’s able to walk the line between these two emotions? and kind of acknowledge that weird relatable/selfish feeling of i hope you’re happy, but i hope you’re not as happy with this new person as you were with me because haha, yeah, maybe petty, but...it happens. 

jealousy, jealousy. OHHHH okay now olivia’s spitting some truth here again. the whole lyric about wishing that you could be anyone else............happy for people who are getting what they want, but also kind of not.........also, olivia acknowledging that like “yeah, i know that i’m also pretty, and i know that i’m also successful, but i’m kind of sick of myself and i still compare myself and why is everyone else so cool and why does everyone have a pretty face and a pretty boyfriend and all i see is what i should be....” bro. 

favorite crime. ohhhhh okay. my mind always goes nuts whenever people start comparing love to some kind of dangerous game. but like. my heart breaks a little bit for olivia, just reflecting on like. doing things just to impress someone else. realizing that it wasn’t...going anywhere. (also....oh god....the vocals.) i say that i hate you with a smile on my face. oh look what we became. oh the things i did just so i could call you mine...also added this to my anidala playlist

hope ur ok. olivia reminiscing on a friend she knew when she was little who had it rough. the “if you’re out there, i hope that you’re okay.” :’))) and then reminiscing on a friend she had in middle school. “we don’t talk much, but i just gotta say...i miss you, and i hope that you’re okay.” OH BOYYYY THE BRIDGE OKAY OH BOY..........NOTHING’S FOREVER / NOTHING’S AS GOOD AS IT SEEMS....WHEN THE MONSTERS CREEP INTO YOUR HOUSE AND EVERY DOOR IS HARD TO CLOSE, WELL I HOPE YOU KNOW HOW PROUD I AM.....................oh god. oh goddddddd oh god don’t look at me. ‘cause i love you and i hope that you’re okay. don’t talk to meeeeeeeeeeee. also....the piano at the end. the voices. god. my brain. i’m so. 

anyways, well done miss rodrigo. what a talented gal. honestly, you guys? i think she’s gonna make it big.