#okay i. am not a steddie girl BUT the idea of kas!eddie and steve but like. almost pet sematary esque return of eddie was??? so cool??

[sexybabystevie]

okay but. i woke up today Thinking of the whole kas!eddie thing (courtesy of a friend i explained my evidence to the other day :) ) and. well. i've got something stewing in my mind right now. and this is a half-baked thought so bear with me. (also steddie post under the cut because this got a little longer than expected).

it's around two weeks after the events of season 4. two weeks after the town rips into four large tectonic-plate-like things and too many people are lost to keep count of how much loss there has been in general.

steve is trying to sleep, trying because it's pretty much a failed attempt - from still living in his parents' shitty home with nothing but blank memories to trying to cope with what his life even is anymore, sleep is far, far away - when a strange noise comes from his bedroom window. he's too tired to really put together what it sounded like, whether it was a grating, scratchy noise or whether it was more of a loud and spontaneous bang, and so it takes another two times of the same noise appearing for him to truly be aware of his surroundings. and he is terrified.

the noise is like nails on a chalkboard - or, perhaps, some kind of metal scraping against glass - and steve can already conjure about fifty scenarios that are horrible which could be his reality right now. from vecna being the thing at his window, ready to take vengeance against him for even thinking he was capable of stopping him that day with nancy and robin, to the gruesome image of the scratching coming from something - someone - dead, steve harrington is pretty sure that this life - this new life, after everything has transformed and shifted into depths of the unknown, after his town, as shitty as it was, has turned into nothing but a reminder of all that was lost, after even a minor sound or discrepancy sets all who remain of his little family on edge - has become fifteen types of his own personal living hell combined.

steve stays paralyzed, stuck in his head, for much longer than he ever has before. but then he remembers that he's the brave one, the one who fights off monsters he doesn't even understand - didn't even know of their existence prior - to protect those that he loves, those that he's meant to protect. his mind haphazardly wanders to the kids, a moment frozen in time that feels so far away now, back before anything was too amiss and they thought maybe they had a shot a happy, normal life, when the convinced him to take them to get ice cream at midnight and all jokingly - but was it so jokingly? - yelled out "thanks, mom!" afterward. it's this moment that gets him out of bed and moving towards the window, but not before grabbing the bat that he now hides just beneath his bed. just in case, which he hoped was a hypothetical never meant to happen.

it's too dark to see outside, 2am sky pitch black without the warmth of the moon, and steve's arms are tingling numb from an uncomfortable combination of fear, anxiety, and a little bit of rogue adrenaline. he acts against all better judgement, offhandedly thinking if he were in a horror film, he'd certainly be paying the ultimate price for this, and slides the latch on the window up and pushes the thick glass open.

for moments, there's nothing except the chilly bite of the wind, setting steve's body rigid, stone-like, against the darkness that's creeping in. the anticipation is palpable, heavy in the air, and steve thinks to himself that, if whatever it is is trying to kill him, he wishes it would just hurry up and get it over with instead of toying with him.

as if on cue, a dark figure seems to pass right outside the window - as well as can be seen when one is searching for shade against the shadows, at least - and steve grips his bat a little tighter and readies himself for the strongest swing of his life when a familiar voice calls out to him.

"woah, harrington, chill out! it's me!"

and steve freezes again. because truly, this cannot be real. he has to have fallen asleep and is in the midst of some wild fever dream.

but then the figure steps into his room, is visible due to the bedside lamp he has stationed to his right at all times, and steve feels exceedingly dizzy because eddie munson - the eddie munson who dustin claimed died weeks ago, the eddie munson whose funeral was scheduled for next thursday - is standing in his bedroom.

it takes him moments before he lets his bat fall to the floor, the exhaustion overtaking the adrenaline and practically causing his grip to falter. he's still guarded, memories of billy being something he wasn't in his final moments keeping him on edge, prepared for the worst possible outcome when in reality he should be celebrating, he should be relieved and happy. and as fucked up as it may be, he is.

out of everything his mind imagined, this was not among any of the possibilities, and it made sense why - this was good. maybe dustin was wrong, somehow eddie hadn't died in that swarm of hellish bats in the upside down, somehow he had just been mistaken. that night was hard for all of them, more stressful than any other inter-dimensional fight from before, so maybe... that could explain why eddie was now here, in steve's room, painfully familiar, almost bashful smile natural on his lips.

"how the hell are you even here, munson?" steve asks, voice low, no traces of venom found in his inquisition.

"let me crash here and i'll explain everything?"

steve makes his next horror-movie mistake while staring into eddie munson's soft brown eyes. he's not stupid enough not to notice it - the deep, dark bags underneath his eyes, the way his skin is disturbingly pale, his lips stained a dark red that's too bright to be normal - but he's also reminded of how he felt when he was walking in those haunted woods with him, when eddie had tried convincing him to start pursuing nancy again. steve had thought about telling him then, that he was actually into someone who he had previously misjudged, someone he really never expected to be into, and that nancy was really only the result of him being confused by the insisting of his other friends.

but he hadn't. they were too close to danger and steve thought expressing himself would set one of their fates into stone as being the next victim - wasn't that always a trope that was prominent too? - but he wasn't aware that their fates had seemed to be sealed with or without his confession.

he had spent weeks wallowing in guilt, wondering what could have been if only he had been at the scene of the crime, if only they had a little more time together. and lo and behold, two weeks after the dreaded incident, here he was, sneaking into steve's room in the middle of the night like he would've if they would have ever gotten a real chance at being anything other than a dying wish.

so, he lets his loving nature take over and moves forward to wrap his arms around eddie, in a sort of welcome back hug that he hopes can also express a few other things he's been thinking, and ignores the shiver that rumbles down his spine as his hand brushes against the other's. eddie munson's skin is ice cold.

[2ambiace]

Okay, so Steddie (mainly) fics that I am currently writing or want to write (all of these are or will be handwritten first because that’s how I roll and fight the writer’s block/imposter syndrome so in order to post any of these I’d have to type them up first)

- Kas!Vamp!Eddie heavily inspired by the one edit from tiktok/youtube that I’ve reblogged before. Featuring Steve and Dustin being brothers (like Steve full on moves in with the Hendersons because his parents officially suck), them spending time mourning Eddie, them going back to the Upside Down to find Eddie’s body gone and then being attacked by Vamp!Eddie. Getting Eddie to remember them and bringing Eddie home. Steve and Eddie being ridiculously in love. Some plot in there about Vecna and Will having powers like El (Eddie knowing that Vecna wanted Will but didn’t know why.) Eventual plot details play into whether or not Eddie is truly on their side, defeating Vecna with two superpowered teenagers and maybe the power of love (so far 200+ handwritten pages over two of my 6”x8” journals, all plotted out except I have 2.5 possible endings that I haven’t decided on yet) (this is the one I’m most nervous to actually type up and share because I’ve probably put the most of myself into it, especially writing it primarily from Steve’s POV and him dealing with all the trauma, abandonment, grief, falling in love, losing love, and found family.)

- Max’s Big Brother, which is a fic where Eddie and Steve’s afternoon at Eddie’s gets interrupted by Max (who is in a wheelchair and blind, post-s4) asking for a ride to the mall to spend the afternoon with Lucas. Mainly Eddie being a good older brother to Max and her trusting him to help her without treating her differently. Also features Lucas and Erica. (Rough draft fully written out, but needs some serious editing before I can post it.)

- Another Love, Steddie, inspired by a fan edit on youtube, where Steve and Billy had a fling (basically just sex) towards the end of senior year and when Steve spends an afternoon with the kids instead of Billy, Billy gets jealous and violent. Eddie spots the altercation and steps in to rescue Steve and Max, before taking them to his place. Cue Steve and Eddie becoming friends over the summer, eventually becoming something more. (I’ve only written some sad Steve feeling like he deserves to be used by Billy because he believes he was a shitty person and a shitty boyfriend. But there will be cute Steddie interacts, Scoops Ahoy Steve and Robin shenanigans, with probable reference to the Starcourt incident being a catalyst for Steve admitting his feelings for Eddie.)

- Soulmates AU, Steddie, idea where when someone meets their soulmate, that person’s name ends of sort of branded/tattooed on them. After finding Eddie that night in the boathouse, Steve later discovers Eddie’s name on his chest where Eddie had held him against the wall. Most of the s4 events still occur (except Vecna is defeated and Max survives unharmed) and it’s only when returning to find Eddie bleeding out in Dustin’s arms does Steve finally react and takes some slightly drastic measures to rescue Eddie. Cue the boys falling in love while Eddie recovers and deciding for themselves what being soulmates actually means. (I started writing the scene where Steve sees Dustin cradling Eddie and panicking.)

- Where I Belong, Steddie - sort of Vol2 rewrite from the gang splitting up. Steve and Eddie share a dramatic look and as Steve starts to leave with the girls, he realizes he’s making a mistake and tells the girls to protect each other and that they don’t need him, they’re perfectly capable on their own, before returning to Dustin and Eddie. He and Eddie kiss before he helps them fortify the trailer and defend against the bats. Happy endings all around. (I’ve written up to the point where Steve returns and kisses Eddie, with Dustin being supportive but annoyed ‘because now isn’t the time guys!!!’)

- Co-Parenting by Accident, Steddie, fic idea where Steve and Eddie are friends pre-s4, Steve knows Eddie is going back to school to try to finally graduate and that Dustin, Max, Lucas, and Mike are starting freshmen year post-Starcourt and the Byers moving away, so he asks Eddie to keep an eye on them. Eddie agrees and then sees Dustin in his Weird Al shirt and suddenly gets why Steve is enamored by these kids and invites them to join Hellfire Club (he extends the offer to Max too but she declines, which is fine, Eddie gets that she’s not up for it right now.) And then it’s just Steve and Eddie slowly falling in love while they accidentally co-parent the kids all year. (optional if s4 events do or do not happen, though happy ending would absolutely apply) (Idea only, nothing written yet)

- The Harrington-Munson Home for Misfits, Steddie, an idea that I keep flip flopping on whether it’s Steve and Eddie somehow buying a house with enough space for them, Robin, and the kids or if somehow Steve just ends up with full ownership of the Harrington house and then he and Eddie, plus Robin and the kids make it into a real home. Eddie and Robin moving in post-graduation, Dustin and Max having their own rooms and living there 50% of the time, the other kids staying over a lot too. Just like a domestic look at Steve and Eddie and their little found family. Family breakfast, Steve and Eddie remodeling part of the house, Robin helping Max plan her wardrobe (Max being blind, in a wheelchair with a service dog named Lucy aka Lucifer), and Dustin planning a Hellfire campaign for later that afternoon/evening. (Sort of started writing it, but the flip flopping on location has sort of stalled the writing for the time being.)

- Temporary Custody, Steddie + co-parenting Max and Dustin, an idea I wrote out most of but feel kind of iffy about overall where Max’s mom gets in a car accident and is in the hospital and so Steve ends up with temporary custody of Max while she recovers and Max and Dustin end up spending several weeks staying with Steve and Eddie, while they basically get like a trial run being proper parents at 21 years old. Eddie and Max bond as Eddie opens up to her about losing his mom and younger sister, before he ended up living with his uncle Wayne. Max’s mom survives, Steve and Eddie’s relationship is strengthened by the ordeal, lots of cute Max and Dustin being siblings interactions. (I originally started writing it as a way to process my grief over my distant alcoholic bio-dad’s death, and idk, I’ve kind of gotten over that grief so idk if I feel comfortable finishing this story in order to type it up and post it now.)

- Anger, Steddie, angst, major character death x2, mostly an excuse to write established relationship Steddie during the events of s4, Steve arriving back to Dustin and Eddie only to watch Eddie die in Dustin’s arms, Steve being angry that Eddie essentially died for nothing, they lost to Vecna, Max is in a coma, and Steve feels like a failure. Steve making the stupid choice to try to fight a weakened Vecna on his own and dying. (Mostly an excuse to write a scene where Steve says he watched the man he loved die and it meant nothing, and that it’s the fourth time (Barb, Billy, Hopper (who Steve doesn’t yet know is alive) and then Eddie) someone has died because of the Upside Down and Steve is tired and angry and he doesn’t know if he has any fight left in him. That scene is written but nothing else. I don’t normally tend to write angst but the idea was itching at my brain one afternoon.)

- Maybe a Time Travel AU/Maybe just a character study of grief, Steddie, inspired by a fanvid edit where Steve and Eddie fall in love prior to s4 but Eddie still ends up dying and I keep flip flopping if I want to do an actual time travel AU where Steve somehow goes back in time and saves Eddie or if Steve just wishes he could while he grieves. (Idea only, I mostly want to write a fic where Steve grieves and struggles with the loss and reminisce about his and Eddie’s relationship. The edit that inspired it was made by the same creator who made the Kas!Vamp!Eddie edit and it made me ugly sob, it’s so good.)

- Illegal Gay Wedding, Steddie, Steve and Eddie get ‘married’ by just having a secret wedding with only their close friends/family out by Lover’s Lake. Technically not a legal marriage, but hey they’ve fought inter dimensional monsters and won, so fuck it. Dustin is Steve’s Best Man, Max is Eddie’s Best Man, Robin officiates, all the kids plus Wayne, Joyce and Hopper are there (though if asked officially, Hopper was at a very lovely family picnic by the lake and nothing else happened.) (Idea only for now, just an excuse to write happy boys in love, semi-inspired by the fanart of Jopper’s wedding where Joyce tells Eddie he should try marriage and Eddie says it’s illegal.)

- Random short one-shots of Steddie being cute and in love and noTHING BAD EVER HAPPENED NO SIR NO MONSTERS HERE ONLY CUTE BOYS IN LOVE YOUR HONOR! Probably some stuff with supportive Uncle Wayne, Max and Dustin being the favorite kids, lots of boys kissing and cuddling and me maybe dipping my toe back into writing some spicy fic (no promises.)

- Jewish Eddie Munson. That’s it. Just fics exploring Jewish Eddie because I am gonna rub my queer Jewish hands all over this character.

- Deal, Max & Eddie, with implied Elumax and Steddie, Max goes to Eddie for advice regarding her feelings for both Lucas and El. After having a nice heart to heart, Max agrees to talk to Lucas and El if Eddie agrees to talk to Steve about his feelings. They both agree. Happy couples all around.

Mostly wrote all of this out so I could see it and maybe feel encouraged to work on some of them and maybe actually start typing them up this weekend and maybe start posting fic again, since I haven’t posted any fic since my last Good Omens fic in December of last year. (Also tbh I also have two zine fics I never posted that I really should post, I just honestly forgot once all the zines were finished/sent out/etc. It’s ugh… it’s been a rough year.)

Also if anyone else likes any of these ideas and wants to write/create something based on them, please do! As much as these are fics I want to write I would also gladly read/enjoy them too. Two cakes and all that! (Seriously, I’m the person who gladly reads/shares every variation of s3 + Eddie, Dustin and/or Steve stuck in a time loop to save Eddie, Steve and Eddie having feelings for each other and being too oblivious to realize it’s reciprocated. The more fics/art the merrier!)