#okay im gonna stop now i need to sleep gnight everyone

[haunted-xander]

So. Fatebreaker, right? Ryne's biggest fears made manifest, daddy issues personified, yes?

He's an amalgamation of Thancred and Ran'jit, his face, his voice and his weapon is Thancred's, but his body, his fighting style and his words are Ran'jit's.

Throughout the fight Fatebreaker constantly makes comments about how only he can protect Ryne, only he can provide for her, only he has even the right to so much as stand beside her, to be in her general presence. He's possessive and obsessive, repeatedly asserting that she is HIS and his only. Which is exactly what Ran'jit says basically every time we encounter him.

But this time it's in Thancred's voice. This time it's with the voice and face of a man she actually cares about.

Ryne isn't scared of Thancred, she never has been. Even when she first met him she was barely even nervous (as clearly shown in Thancred's short story). There's a lot of different feelings happening between those two, but fear has never been one of them.

But now, after things have gotten so much better, she is scared of Thancred becoming like Ran'jit. Because if Thancred was just a little further gone, if he was just a little less compassionate, he would've. It wouldn't be hard for him to go down the same path as Ran'jit did, to be incapable of letting go of the ghost of that girl he loved so so much to the point he'd stubbornly grip anything close to her he could. He didn't, but the fact he could've is terrifying.

It makes his final words, words that are Thancred's, so very important. This is her deepest fears made manifest, but he still says he wants her to be happy. Her happiness not only matters, but is important to him.

[hyunwoo-archive]

Showhonon! Okay this may not be fully showho but ykno shownus haruhana iv where he wants to take care of his boyfs. imagine a poly!sho2won au!. wonho keeps sleeping late;one day hyungnu is sick of it n they miss him so they go to his studio n h.wons like if u dont stop n go back to the dorms n sleep shownu will actually carry u there n wonhos all yeah right until hes suddenly on shownus shoulder like a potato sack n he regrets doubting shownus strength then they sleep w wonho in th middle :D

i literally wheezed so loudly i felt my chest concave in on itself buT GODJKHKJDK POLY SHIPS,,, ESP SHO2WON,, MY WEAKNESS ! also im pretty u sure u expected this by now but fhjkds here i go w my Long Expansion :D

its near comeback time nd its literally the Peak time for wonho to disappear into his studio for Hours at a time nd he only comes home around 5am w tired eyes and mayb hes happy bc hes finally satisfied with a song he composed or hes frustrated bc its not sounding right and those are the days shownu nd hyungwon pull him in to sleep in between them nd they spend an hour or so just soothing him ,, telling him its okay to have a block nd that he shouldnt push himself to continuously make new things nd that its okay to just relax but it pretty much falls on empty ears bc as soon as they all wake up wonho is back in the studio

nd ofc hyungnu dont want to interrupt him or pull him away but this is like the 4th night he’s been at the studio so late so in the Wee Hours of the morning they bundle up in their scarves jackets nd coats nd shownu pulls a beanie over hyungwon’s ears bc he doesn’t want them to get cold nd hyungwon pulls shownu in by his scarf for a kiss on the nose nd they walk to the company to go get wonho

when they enter wonho’s studio hes slumped over his desk nd twirling a pen in his fingers nd he sits up so quickly when he sees them like “what are u guys doing here its like 5am???” nd hyungwon’s like “thats exactly why we’re here its 5am and ur not at home sleeping” nd shownu frowns as he looks around wonhos studio like “u’ve practically moved to live in here” nd wonho looks a little sheepish bc ,,, hes been so busy w composing nd writing nd he feels like a Bad Boyfriend so hes like “im sorry :-( i just want it to be perfect u know”

hyungwon’s the one who loops his arms over wonho’s shoulders like we know u want it to be perfect for fans but u also need to rest . that’s partially why i brought shownu along because if u dont come home now he’s gonna carry u home and wonho’s like HaHA ok sounds Fake ! give me ten minutes to finish this but shownu’s shaking his head like No ur gonna sleep come on and picking up wonho Should Not Be That Easy and yet :-)

wonho whines the whole time they’re walking home and hyungwon just smiles nd pulls at wonho’s cheeks like “ok baby u can complain when we’re tucked in bed” and wonho’s just :-( did u at least save my progress nd shownu’s like yes hyungwon did it 

when they get home its still really early nd everyone is still sleeping nd they dont wanna disturb the others so they set up camp on the living room floor . shownu helps wash wonho’s face nd makes sure he doesnt fall asleep while brushing his teeth nd hyungwon throws blankets nd pillows into a suitable makeshift bed for the three of them

they get comfy nd wonho gets the middle nd hes just Sandwiched in between shownu nd hyungwon who have their arms around him and he’s just like :D !!!! good night u guys nd hyungnu are like gnight stop talking and sleep nd wonhos like :-( okay ... gnight ily guys ..... nd theyre like i love u too now Sleep .

they end up taking the living room for a solid 8 hours nd when they wake up everyone else is setting up dinner nd they’re like wow u guys are finally awake congratulations its dinner time

[plasticiot]

time to vent into the nothingness

Oof I don’t like to offend people and I know tumblr is the place to get killed over any wrong phrase, but I like to joke about killing myself and I do it alot. I make racist jokes all the time. Y’know all too well those who make school shooter memes and pedophilic jokes. Sometimes that’s just a way to cope I guess. For me, I’ve dealt with thoughts of suicide, I dealt with situations that make me fear going to school or a certain relative’s house. The way I cope is by making satire jokes and making fun of those situations, It’s not that I think their okay, because they’re not, but I find it easier to just disregard their morbid integrity through jokes than sulking about them because it makes it seem more normal. Normal isn’t always good, but at least I’m not out here hating everyone and everything anytime I have to socialize. All of this probably makes no sense because I’m legit just writing down whatever comes to mind and my fingers just seem to be moving along with it. I had two cups of coffee tonight because I have a two part novel project due tomorrow morning that I havent even started on because Im stupid and all i know how to do is procrastinate, I mean I could yknow use my time that ive wasted writing all of this into actually working on my project but i just have so many things running through my head that ive just disregarded correct grammar and punctuation. Im trying my best on spelling right now and trying not to abbreviate. is that how you spell it? I dont know and i dont care at this point. I honestly doubt that anyone’s gonna read this, much less read this all the way. Im sure a lot of these people have way better things to do like fap to their furry porn or something lmao im done i need to sleep. too bad i cant because im hella retarded and decided it was a good idea to basically pump caffeine into my bloodstream. there was barely any creamer too so my coffee was kinda bitter. still good tho. im not even sure if it was ok to have any dairy because i ate shrimp earlier and like my mom has this dumb superstition that if you drink milk or anything dairy after or before eating shrimp, your stomach will hurt or something. What Im thinking tho is that ive seen some people make some weird dishes using like cream and shrimp or whatever and thats totally ok but like you cant eat some hawaiian shrimp and then have a glass of milk and a bread afterwards cus youll potentially be shitting all night. Oh fuck idek how long ive been writing but im starting to lose feeling in my right arm. only my hands have been moving and Im not sure if thats healthy but oof thats whats happening. OOOOOOf i dont know what im saying anymore please kill me and put me out of my misery. if i stop writing for even two seconds i feel the need to stand up and run around and i dont think thats a good thing. i dont think ive ever typed this long without a break not even on school assignments or essays. im not even thinking about what im saying unlike if i were in an essay id have to stop every two seconds to think about what im writing and going back to fix every gramatical error and oof that just seems like too much work., should i post this ?? maybe not maybe idk will this confuse people? will i get hundreds of notes from similar depressed teens all saying “same” in contributions to my post? maybe maybe not. decisions decisions im probably gonna shoot myself after this i dont know im battling with all my emotions rn and im honestly so conflicted its like my brain is having a little conversation with itself on whether it wants to let my logicality or emotions take over my thoughts and then some anxiety is there too so like oooof i d ont know anymore kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me i almost wrote jill me and that would have been extremely sad or extremely funny there is no in between damnit ok im going numb in my right pinkie i think this is a sign to stop typing so thats what im gonna do. uhhh gnight tumblr and whoever reads this congrats to you and if u got any hate to say go on it only feeds my depression and satirical humor even more. i love you stay safe make sure you go pee before you trick or treat and eat all the razor blades byeeee!!!!@~!111