#pavl is having blorbo thoughts again

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i am very interested in whatever is going on with his face here actually

like yes, why did you keep the murder mask? for idiot reasons? or do you not even really know?

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i love how after his house burns down, one of the first things blaine does is replace his stupid dressing gown with another one basically just like it. he just wants to be cozy and i can respect that

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i'm very tired so sorry for rambling but. i wonder what blaine was like as a kid? like, i can't imagine him at 5 or 6 years old going "i want to be a drug dealer when i grow up" you know?

we know music in general has always been a thing for him but if i was going to spitball (and i am) i want to say "businessman"? at that age he probably wouldn't know exactly what that means really, except it means that you're Important. like his dad is Important (and i'm sure mr"the strings i pulled" made his expectations clear from pretty early on). and maybe, just maybe, if he was Important enough, his dad wouldn't hate him so much?

even as an adult he still can't keep from getting pulled in after angus goes off the deep end, so i bet he had a "if i'm just Good Enough" phase that victims of abuse go through, the whole bargaining thing, even if it didn't last very long.

blaine and his daddy-issues/angus and his a+ parenting is just so chewsome, to me.

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Silly thought while I'm waiting for my drs appointment!

They should've put Blaine and Vaughn DuClark in the same room at least once, it would've been very funny I think

bitchiness off the charts because they'd despise eachother

also opportunity to keep up the pattern of blaine ending up under the thumb of someone with more money/power than him and just hating it the entire time, possible scheming etc

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so i'm a bit bored tonight and not to be picking every single expression on his stupid face apart with tiny metaphorical tweezers or anything, but now i'm interested

so at this point he's got his memories back and has had for...a while. and don e has already walked past and has his back turned, so he's not seeing whatever that's supposed to be, so...does he actually feel bad for getting his friend employee shot? like, even a teeny bit? or is it just more reflexive/performative bullshit to try and keep the conces from quencing?

unquenchable thirst aside i really, genuinely need to study this horrible bastard man under a microscope

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so i actually paused and read this and just out of curiosity, which part do you think pissed him off the most

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"i can fix him" "i can make him worse" yeah well i can love him enough not to need to change a single aspect of what he is

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I love waking up at 4 unable to go back to sleep

gives me extra time to work on my fic, it was already a bit unhinged anyway. maybe it's the lack of sleep talking but I'm pretty sure blaine would find the premise of this fic hilarious because he's all about telling lies and fucking with people 😂

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having a blast writing this so far, between him being the general Way He Is and his view on masculinity being a bit not great we're gonna have to gently kind of bully him into this i think but it's fine, i can work with that

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*bangs fists on table* i just want him to hold my cervix between his fingers and call me a good girl is that too much to ask goddamn

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a good hard cry and a thorough fuck while being told he's the most special, cleverest, prettiest boy, yes he is, would fi- actually scratch that, i doubt it'd fix much of anything but it'd do him good i think

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i was going to blame it on having had an adult libation or two but that would be lies. actually i'm just a big ol pervert who couldn't find a gif of the bit i actually wanted, so 'själv är bäste dräng' and all that i guess

somebody take me out back and shoot me like a lame horse

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so i was just putzing around screenshotting things for my own entertainment as one does and i had a horrible thought in the last episode so i'm just gonna put it out here so it stops rattling in my brain and make me unwell, if i am seeing things that aren't there then don't mind me lol

between peyton getting shot and the well he puts on a jacket. except that's not a jacket he's worn before and doesn't really look like something he'd usually wear, it's more of a smoking jacket, kind of old fashioned to my (admittedly inept) eye, doesn't fit that great. who do we know that's a bit slimmer over the shoulders and totally the kind of pretentious prick that'd probably own and wear something like that?

...angus

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now i am more annoyed than i probably should be

on pc the little bastards look fine, both file wise and on tumblr

but on phone it ends up stretched and weird on tumblr

and then stretched and weird on the phone itself but in a completely different way than it does on tumblr

the proof of my ineptitude truly knows no bounds, oh well

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ok look i realize that mr 'im so fancy and better than the rest of you lot' probably gets his suits and shirts tailored and 100% doesn't need these, but i was just reminded that shirt stays are a thing that exists and now the image of him wearing some is stuck in my brain folds like a popcorn kernel between my mental teeth and i am SWEATING

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sigh i am so unwell, that flippy thing he does with the knife should not be that hot