#people dont usually NEED to do this shit when theyre overwhelmed with positive emotion

[mamamittens]

One of my favorite genres of OC-centric stories (or even canon centric if I'm being honest) is the one where the author is clearly Having A God Damn Blast. It's silly, the world is actively bending over backwards to make things happen, and it's all for their favorite blorbos.

It's also really hard to read, not because of any technical issues or regular, bad writing issues. Nah, I have a hard time reading them because I physically can't take it all in. I skip over whole sentences, stop and start reading the same chapter. I laugh my ass off and go do something else for a bit.

It's hard to explain but if I had to, it'd be that these stories actively drive me to stim without meaning to. I literally, physically, can't calmly read these fics despite my best efforts. I have to pace. I need to wave my hands or smack my fingers together in little one handed claps. Snap my teeth or bounce on my heels.

I just.

I have to DO SOMETHING.

And because of that, I'm more liable to drop them because I end up stopping my OWN DAMN SELF from investing enough to keep up with updates. Double if the chapters tend to be really long cause it's then also an issue of time commitment.

I rarely comment as it is but these are stories I hold back from commenting on if I can help it cause I have SUCH a hard time being coherent or normal about it.

It's just so damn embarrassing how riled up I get (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)