#presenti

[mostro-rotto]

Le persone che rispondono subito ai tuoi messaggi non sono disperate. Le persone che rispondono subito alle tue chiamate non sono disperate. Le persone che sono sempre lì quando ne hai bisogno, non sempre sono libere o senza lavoro. Forse sanno come ci si sente ad essere ignorati. Forse sanno come ci si sente ad essere soli e non avere nessuno su cui poter contare. Perché forse sono stati abbandonati quando avevano bisogno di qualcuno. Forse ti amano. Forse ti hanno reso la loro priorità. Non prenderli per scontati. Non perderli, sono ORO.

[primepaginequotidiani]

PRIMA PAGINA Corriere Dello Sport di Oggi venerdì, 26 luglio 2024

[slowdivinqs]

Hiii i loved presentiment so much, and I was hoping you could drop the lore on joel and sarah? and how he ended up becoming obsessed with the reader? tyyy

I'm so glad so many of you are enjoying presentiment!! It makes my day when people ask about lore and such, so thank you! 💓🌸 So, what happened with Joel in my mind is that Sarah went missing / was kidnapped when Joel was at work - vanishing without a trace, really. Joel searched high and low to find her, contacting the police while he still lived in Texas : it was a huge case for the small town, Tommy was in Joel's life at the time as well. I imagine a few months go by before they find her in the lake, with evidence of foul play : and Joel just loses it, goes absolutely crazy, he's broken and distraught, a shadow of a man. He’s lost himself, and there’s nothing left besides rage and violence, a need to destroy and tear everything to pieces - including himself.

He blames himself, thinking he was neglectful and got his babygirl killed. When the foreign DnA results come back with a match, he finds the perpetrator and...yeah. Flash forward a few years, Joel's pretty fucked up by now : violent and angry and hollow - existing as a ghost. Composed of nothing but grief and a twisted desire to be loved again, to be told that he’s not a monster who let his daughter die. He's moved away from Tommy, gone off the radar himself, and situates himself in an abandoned cabin near a small town in Wyoming. He's not really himself anymore at all, he barely feels human. He knows Tommy stopped looking for him after Joel ended up killing random men in bar fights and dumping the bodies in the forests around the town. He knew some crappy couple lived in the house across the forest, but everything changed when he saw they had a small child. It would torment him to think about, bringing back all kinds of memories he had buried deep. He would lose his mind every time reader's parents let her play, alone, in the woods : and would often watch her from a distance to make sure she's okay - scared this little girl would meet the same fate his Sarah did. ( that's the 'jackals' reader makes reference too, it's just joel watching over her from behind the trees ) He kinda made it his own responsibility to care for her indirectly, seeing that her parents were extremely neglectful : reminding him of his own regrets. He'd sometimes 'break' into the house to put extra food in the cupboards in those weeks reader's mother would go on a bender, when reader was still young enough not to question an infinite food supply. It was almost like torture for him to watch a little girl go about life alone, knowing he wished he spent more time with his baby before she got taken away from him. He kinda dipped after she got to the age of 14 and met Jerry : he knew she was in good hands and left her alone for a long time, only accidentally seeing her again years later when he got back from a hunting trip and saw her smoking on the porch, all grown up. That's where everything switched, and where the story starts. He feels as though the reader was brought to him for some kind of reason - like she was his second chance to fix everything he did wrong. ( when he goes to the gas station all those nights : he's checking on her to make sure she's safe, but he's also being a bit of a creep because he feels their imaginary 'dynamic' that he came up with has shifted with her age. He also comes to the diner after she didn't show up to the gas station or home, and decides to get rid of Jason after seeing the way he eyed reader : there was a point he thought Jason took her, and got so scared at the possible idea he killed him anyway. He asks reader if she's scared to test her survival skills and such, and almost wants to prove she's not capable of taking care of herself so he can justify taking her ) Joel feels as though he's undoing what happened to Sarah by keeping the reader safe and out of harms way, in a mini-psychosis during the story until the last confrontation. He believes he's doing 'the right' thing, but a large part of him is still simmering from his past violence and anger : he felt good when he killed Sarah's murderer, and some parts of him are just sick and twisted. which is why he hurts the reader. He feels it's out of his control, like he's split down the middle. He spends all his time with the reader because he regrets not being around sarah more often, he doesn’t let her go outside and locks the door because he wished he watched sarah closer.

Joel doesn’t see the reader as his daughter, but he compensates with his actions - trying to heal his own wounds.

His lines are blurred, and he's trying to deal with his grief and monstrousness by caring for the reader, and ends up finding some clarity at the end of the story before the smut. I hope this answered your question! I didn't have a concrete idea of Joel's lore besides a few main points lol.

[buscandoelparaiso]

l'italnuoto che non dorme per il caldo e i letti scomodi e quindi

[madelynpryor]

un omaggio a tutti coloro che parlano una lingua che non è presente in qsmp oggi. è così bello che anche coloro che non sono ancora rappresentati abbiano ancora il loro posto nella comunità

[elipsi]

secondo giorno di lezioni e sono un po' allibita dalla qualità delle lezioni

[ylespar]

“Stanford’s questioning was based on two considerations: (a) extrasensory response, like sensory response, presumably functions in support of the needs and/or dispositions of the organism; but (b), serving those inclinations logically need not require conscious knowledge of the information to which psi-driven action is responding. Indeed, an adaptive or disposition-affirming outcome orchestrated by implicit (that is, unconscious, automatically processed) psi or sensory information often might be the most efficient way to move the organism away from a threat or toward a gratifying situation. PMIR mechanisms support that possibility even when the respondent has no conscious awareness of it.”

Duggan, M. (2020). “Rex G Stanford”. Psi Encyclopedia. London: The Society for Psychical Research. https://psi-encyclopedia.spr.ac.uk/articles/rex-g-stanford. Retrieved 30 March 2024.

[mchiti]

dormo da due giorni ma ho fatto una prova concorsuale super very nice x essere la mia prima e soprattutto x essere una sad little girl senza famiglia materiale da romanzo per ragazzi dell'ottocento. a volte una pattina sulla spalla me la posso dare

[hysterical-and-uselesss]

Un professore s2 moodboard, parte 2:

1, 5, 9 J.D. Salinger, Franny e Zooey // 3 Dino Buzzati, Le notti difficili // 4 Anne Rice, Intervista col vampiro // 6, 7, 8 Temptation Island, Canale 5 // 11 J.D. Salinger, Nove Racconti // 12 Nanni Moretti, Caro diario // 13 Taylor Swift, Who's afraid of little old me?

(parte 1)

[simantopia]

uh. the bella [ciao, not goth] & crisp frenship timeline.

met online near the end of 1998 on WetCanvas' ArtChat!

quickly bonded due to their love & concepts for "dangerous art"

shortly exchanged AiMs.

after a few months of talking & knowing about cripin's (rather open) sexuality, bella felt comfortable enough to come out as trans to him. they're both very supportive of each other, strengthening the friendship further.

1999, crispin (& neo) were discovered by famed fashionista & impresario, diva roma. after leaving to diamond heights, crispin continues to chat with bella online -- although not as often due to new busy lifestyle.

bella doesn't seem to entirely mind that crispin can't chat to her as often as before, as she seems to enjoy boasting about having a friend in diamond heights. collects every magazine he happened to appear in to brag to peers about.

2001, crispin & neo leaves diamond heights to find the foundry. back at home, bella is having complications with her parents due to her identity & is on the verge of being kicked out. crispin offers to pay her ticket to live at the foundry.

2002-2003, crispin helps fund bella's transition (HRT, some operations) through his own bank & foundry's profits.

2005 (now), bella is one of the prominent and recognizable figures in the foundry, having created many of the "fire" / "dangerous" related artworks.

[mostro-rotto]

Le porte si spalancarono come il sipario di un teatro, mentre il rintocco delle campane segnava l’inizio della messinscena.

Nell’ombra, le maschere di circostanza si muovevano lente, corpi anonimi che si confondevano nella folla—presenze dovute, mai sentite. Il ticchettio dei loro orologi, freddo e implacabile, scandiva il tempo di una recita amara, dove il dolore non era che una posa ben calibrata.

Quel suono sottile si intrecciava ai sussurri velenosi, parole mascherate da condoglianze, che strisciavano come spine tra le lacrime, nutrendo un banchetto silenzioso di meschinità.

Eppure, tra il clamore sommesso della finzione, c’erano occhi senza maschera—sguardi nudi che cercavano davvero: un frammento di verità, un ultimo addio sussurrato al vento. Ma il vento non rispondeva, soffocato dal brusio ipocrita del palcoscenico

[houseofdaena]

un giorno vedró un progetto in cui pilar fogliati raggiunge il suo sogno di avere una fidanzata. quel giorno non è oggi.

[slowdivinqs]

heyyy I was wondering what Jerry and Jason from your fic look like? They were such amazing characters, I love jerry soooo much!

Omg i’m so excited someone asked this - I had such distinct ideas of what they looked like - and i’m glad you liked jerry! he’s a sweetie pie :(

read presentiment here! if you’re confused

TBH i can’t find an accurate photo for Jason bc i could not stop picturing my highschool english teacher as him LOL ( DW, the teacher was a sweetheart as well, i lowkey feel bad )

But this is def what Jerry looked like ( idk who this person is, it’s from pinterest )

[feliraeth]

post rubor presential flag

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[id: a rectangular flag with seven stripes that gradient from yellow to grey-orange to black. end id.]

requested by ; anon :3

[madelynpryor]

è così bello poter parlare in italiano anche se non è una lingua ufficiale di qsmp. ho visto usare così tante lingue oggi e sono così orgogliosa della nostra piccola comunità <3

[machiavelli]

today is the day where I have to text half of my family because of their name