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THE OTHER SIDE OF THE LAKE

Alam kong madalas niyo na marinig ang story na 'to sa Bible. Pero ewan ko, nag scroll kasi ako sa notes ko tapos nakita ko 'tong verse na 'to. Timely lang sa season na 'to.

Luke 8:22‭-‬25 GNT

This was the moment na pupunta na sila sa Sea of Galilee. Jesus is about to perform miracle. Pero nung na sa byahe na sila, nakatulog si Jesus. Tapos biglang umulan nang sobrang lakas at napaka lalaki ng alon at itong mga disciples ni Jesus nataranta, kasi sino ba namang hindi? Kahit ako eh liit liit ng bangka tapos laki ng alon hahahaha

Nung nagising na si Jesus, He gave order to the wind and storm and they quieted down and there was a great calm.

Then Jesus questioned the faith of His disciples.

At ewan ko, i am really convicted na may pinapasabi ang Panginoon sa story na 'to.

Let me start by saying, It's never easy to fight the good fight of faith. Maraming down falls and breakings. At totoo na minsan hindi natin nakikita o nararamdaman pero nandyan lang si Jesus; fighting for you (over me) staying behind the scene. Waiting for us to surrender and allow Him to calm every storm. Watching us running through every wind and waters.

And it's okay to cry out for help – While it is true that the disciples panicked when the storm arose but they had enough faith to do something very productive – they asked Jesus to help them. Worry is always useless, but prayer is always effective. Although we may not get exactly what we want but we will get what we need.

After that storm story, nakapunta na sila sa other side of the lake which is the Teritory of Gerasa. And there, Jesus perfomed many miracles. And the disciples was with Him.

Jesus is the restorer of all things broken, the healer of all things sick.

Magaling ka na, okay ka na. Pero baka pagod ka na, and i encourage you tonight na okay lang mag pahinga. Natulog din si Jesus. And after that, He restores.

You glorified God by resting. Hindi ka naman human robot beh, tulog tulog din, 'wag masyadong i push kung antok na talaga. Pero ewan ko bakit ko nasingit 'yan pero matulog ka na *says by the small petite girl na nasusulat nito at 12 midnight* 🤣

Pero seryoso,

Kapag dumaan tayo sa mga problema don't focus on what we see. Because there is a behind a scene, which is power.

The behind the scene of our problems, sabi nga sa John 10:10 diba the enemy will try to kill, steal and destroy. Because the enemy is looking at your future with prosperity, grace and integrity.

We have the power to overcome, power to continue the fight because Jesus is with us. And storms will bow down by His name. Just fight the good fight of faith.. Mahirap but the spirit of victory is within you.

You will get there - to the other side of the lake, makakarating ka sa kung saan ka dadalhin ng Panginoon dahil lumaban ka.

It's always faith, trust and process.

At kapag dumating na ang araw na we passed through the other side of the lake don't forget someone that is on the other side.

They are also lost that waiting for someone na tutulong sa kanila, lalaban para sa kanila, at mananalangin para sa kanila. And that's your ministry. To win, but not your responsibility to save.

[love-amihan]

stop this is me whenever i find someone shorter than me fdgskdjfbgadf

[masayahingbatapoako]

20120

Hi 2020 Real talk tayo ha? Panibagong challenges ang haharapin ko ngayong taon na ito. at malamang it will be harder this year and i hope i can do it! And i know that i can! I can!

so someones ask me whats my new year resolutions? siguro madami dami din. madami ako dapat iwasan. madaming babawasan. less expectations, less food to eat, less talking, less of emotions. Less of sharing goals and my successfull goals that have been achieved. Kung ano man dapat bawasan bawasan na kasi hindi worth it. And always stand up for yourself.

Madami din akong ma experience especially being an adult like hello i am 23 na po di na tayo bata. but hey i am trying though basically trying my hardest as i can to be. been pushing myself since. Been pushing myself to achieve things. Been pushing myself that i can do things that i cant handle or do. Been pushing myself to be better and enough!

This year is my year kahit anong challenges man yan kakayanin! I will just remind myself that i can do it! I will remind myself na don’t overthink too much, dont let my demon play around and mock me for not doing things na kaya ko naman gawin. Keep on motivating myself, i am big enough to handle anything, enough to grow up more of myself becaus i know to myself that i am enough i am enough i am saying this to myself because i am! I can do things na walang consent ng iba!

Because i know that all of people have their own timeline. I have my own time line aswell. hindi na din ako iyakin. Bawasan natin yan beh. iyakin ka eh. be strong enough self okay!? 😁😁 iloveyou self.

I would like to congratulate you the things you have done lately. you have pass your course, you have done something one if your goals. Hey self no pressure okay dont proscinate yourself keep it slow. achieve your goals as you can because i know you will achieve them one day. Take it slow lang ha. mahaba haba pa ang lalakbayin natin.

Mahal na mahal kita self. Proud ako sayo self! you have done so well.

[too-broken-to-fall-again]

Beh 4th Year na ako and I'm so super very ultra mega happy 😂.

After a long hiatus, I finally had the opportunity to update this blog. Hahahaha. Ang random na ng mga posts ko though medyo centered pa din minsan sa lovelife ko pati yung mga tula (eh bakit ba kanya-kanyang trip lang yun lol). Anyway, let's recap what's new with my life right now. I am currently on my senior in college, and I'm still fcking regular mthrfckrs. Hahahaha. Pero minsan talaga gusto kong magpairreg para man lang makapili ako ng sarili kong schedule. Puro ba naman 7:00 AM pasok ko hayop pang-una pa man din ako sa listahan ng late palagi hahaha. Minsan di rin ako makapaniwala sa sarili ko kahit na nagkadalawang 2.75 na ako nakakayanan ko pang humabol sa pangarap kong nagsimula lang naman dahil sa crush kong Mapúan na si Kuya CJ. 😂 Wait nga, sure naman akong nakwento ko na to nung mga last posts na kung di dahil kay Kuya CJ eh di ako magiging CE student today. Minsan sinisisi ko din siya tsaka yung kalandian ko pero wala eh. Natutunan ko na ding mahalin at enjoyin ang course ko, kahit na wala ako sa gusto kong school at di ko man lang nakasama ang crush kong CE. Hahaha. Anyways last na balita ko eh nakagraduate na siya. Di ko lang alam kung nung last November eh nagtake na siya ng board (na ang balita eh inubod ng gulo sa Mathematics section which also puts me at risk). Di ko nakita yung name niya sa list of passers ng board last November which can only mean two things: either he didn't take the recent board or he failed. Sana yung former na lang. And I have high hopes din kase na May pa siya magtetake since August eh kagagraduate lang niya (regular din siya beh mygad) and parang May ata talaga nagtetake ng boards ang mga Mapuan CE's though may mga tropa na siyang nagtake ewan ko talaga medyo nanlulumo akong isipin. Basta kahit anupaman ang mangyari naniniwala pa rin ako sa kanya kase sure akong matalino yun at proud pa rin ako sa kanya anuman ang nangyari o mangyayari. 😊 So mabalik tayo sa buhay ko. Ngarag na talaga ako beh. Feel ko yung weight ng second sem kase napepressure ako sa kahahantungan ng thesis ko at sa papalapit nang OJT. Ewan ko ba di na ako napahinga sa anxiety. Kahit anong pagpapaintindi ko sa sarili ko sa mantrang "Do not worry about tomorrow's problems, it hasn't come yet" eh di natitigil yung pag-aalala. Hays. Keri pa naman yung acads kaso feeling ko lalagpak yung prelim standing ko. Parang tanga din kase ako as in ang tanga-tanga ko din (sige push natin 'tong pangungutya ko sa sarili sa social media) kase yung expected performance ko di ko maabot. Nasasabaw ata ako kapag nakakakita ng test booklet o ng set questionnaire. Pero nonetheless, pasado pa din naman and I'm still very happy and positive. Thank you Lord huhu. ☝☝ Ano pa bang bago? Uhm, ayun, single and contented na yung dating single and bitter me. 😂 Wala. Natutunan ko na din kaseng tanggapin na nawala man sila agad at nagstay lang para manlandi at aalis din, may mga tao pa ding nagsstay para mahalin ako. I feel so loved by friends and family. I finally learned na I'm searching for love in the wrong places pala. So ngayon rkis na sila kahit ano pa mang pagpaparamdam nilang gusto nilang bumalik. Like manigas na lang kayo. HAHAHAHA. 😂 Wala din akong balak sundan sila ng bagong lovelife since napapagod na ako and di na ako natutuwang palagi akong hopia. Di ko din nga maintindihan eh may mga nagsasabi namang cute at gumagwapo ako pero wala pa din akong lovelife hahaha. If ever you're wondering it came from unexpected persons and di naman po sila nagpapabayad since wala akong pambayad din and ako pa nga nangungutang sa kanila. Wala din akong outstanding debt sa kanila so di naman nila ginagawa yun to compel me to pay for it so I think it's a little legit joke humangin bigla beh stop na natin to hahaha. Di ko pa rin maiwasan mapahugot minsan, ewan siguro it just became an integral part of me na laging may laman ang mga sinasabi. Nakasanayan? Maybe. Tsaka nakakapaglabas din kase ako ng stress minsan dahil dun eh. Ang saya kaya. Hahaha. So tomorrow is Valentines Day and wala akong planong i-date ang kahit sino. Maybe I'll go date myself na lang siguro kung matripan ko bukas. Pero medyo malabo din yun since di ko din bet gumastos at wala din akong pera pati hahaha. Unless yayain ako ni Vincent and magdedate kami na sagot niya why not diba hahahaha jk. Asa na naman ako tama na. Hanggang crush na lang si Vincent and tama na yun. Kapag siya na yung umamin tsaka na lang ako magmomove ayoko na mag-assume ng uncertain. Hahaha. 😂 Basta ang mahalaga we're happy as friends and I'm super ok with that (ganda ko dun jk hahahaha *wears crown*). Naikwento ko na din si Vincent dito ang alam ko pero kung hindi pa I'll tell our story next time (lupet our story agad daig pa ata thesis kong wala pang title at capsule kala mo talaga eh 😂). Pati na din yung mga staring games ko sa campus kasama ang mga naggwagwapuhang bi sa school. HAHAHAHAHA omaygad dumami bigla yung mga oppa at unnie sa alma mater dear saya na mag-aral lalo kaoag nakakakita ka ng mga archi sa hallway omg HAHAHAHA. 😂 So yun lang guys. Maliban dun wala naman nang bago since my life has been undergoing a period of hibernation and plateau. I'll update na lang ulet kapag nadapa ako or kapag nagka-plot twist ang buhay ko ng malala. Sana magka-plot twist na Lord kahit isa lang yung masaya po hahahaha (demanding). Well kailangan lang talaga maghintay. Sabi nga nila kanya-kanyang panahon lang yan. Maybe wala pa talaga. And I'm really looking forward for it. Because I know, good things come to those who patiently wait.

[tinalupangutak]

PWE

Pwe. Yan yung pinaramdam mo sakin ngayon. Sabi ng umuwi na ayaw. Sabing pumunta kung nasan ako, ayaw. Pag pinapili mo, iiyak. Pag ikaw namili, ikaw masama. Ang daming excuses kung ba’t ayaw pumunta. Ba’t di mo nalang kasi sabihin ang totoo. Na sa utak mo, tanggap mo at pakiramdam mo totoo ang mga sinasabi ng tatay mo tungkol sa ate mo. Na she will take your faith away. Baka iligaw ka niya ng landas. That’s what they say, di ba? My psych powers still work. And it sucks sometimes to know the truth. Kasi dati hindi ka naman ganyan. Dati gustong-gusto mong natututo ng gospel. Alam ko dati you feel the spirit when you hear talks sa church. When you hear me or others testify. When you learn true doctrine. I’m not even inviting you to join the church. I just want you to feel the quiet whisper of the Spirit sa lesson kanina. I dare you to say “never kong naramdaman yung Holy Ghost sa church niyo.” Can you honestly say that? Nung sumama ka nung general conference, can you honestly tell me na walang DIRECT message for you si Heavenly Father? Can you?! If you’re being honest you’ll say NO. Because even I see the glow in you after talks sa church. And it actually hurts when you act as if nakakadiri yung lugar. As if I’m pulling you away from God, or even from your faith. Na parang hinihila kita sa isang masamang lugar at iwas na iwas ka. Well, ganun naman kasi ang sabi ng parents mo at ng grandparents natin, di ba? Pero ba’t ganun, beh, ba’t wala kang sariling paninindigan? :(( Yung ni hindi mo ko kayang ipagtanggol sa parents mo. I feel it. I know. And that’s something you will never ever understand. And that’s something you will never feel na gagawin ko sayo dahil palagi kitang ipagtatanggol :((  Now tell me, am I bad for wanting you to receive heaven-sent messages?  For wanting to give you an extra spiritual push? I know you need it because of your challenges sa mga kaibigan mong plastik at sa mga academic issues mo. Pero siyempre matanda ka na. Direkta mo ng sinabing ayaw mo...e ano pa bang magagawa ko? Alangan namang pilitin kitang makinig sa mga bagay na alam kong makakabuti sa loob mo pero pinandidirian mo. Alangan din namang paghintayin kita sa 7-11 for more than one hour, for what? For a tricle moment? Tss. I don’t think so. So there. Sana hindi mo iniisip na I’m putting my church friends over you. Hindi ako umalis dun dahil I will always put God first above anyone, even you. and you know how much I love you. Pero pag faith at Diyos na ang usapan, hindi ako magdadalawang isip na unahin ang tama. Dahil sa buong buhay ko ng mga pagkakamali, eto lang ang tama kong ginawa--ang maniwala at magtiwala sa KANYA.  I will probably NEVER ask you to go there again. Kasi masakit pandirian. Ang sakit. lalo pag ikaw ang gumawa...kasi mahal na mahal kita. Pwe drama.

[sauljohnjoseph1]

Mahal na mahal ko tong 'taung tohhhh!! Sa kanya ko natutunan yung pagiging straight forward!! Be True to your self ika nga!! Beh thank you sa always pag-push mo sa akin dati,yung pagiging mahiyain as in sobrang mahiyain ko.You help me sooo much parang ate lang kita dati,you always guide me on what to do or wag gawin.Alam ko din beh sinubok yung friendship natin bukod sa away pusa tayo noon, simpleng tampuhan pero in the end PUSO pa rin nananaig sa atin..Bukod sa magka-same Month tayo ng birthday! Bukod sa maganda AKO talaga keme.. Haha bebe Happy Happy Birthday no long message bessshh masaya ako sa kung anu narating mo sa pagiging masipag mo..I wish good health.More bonding soon!! And sana talaga matuloy na yung out of town na noon pa natin pinag-plaplanuhan!!! Basta FRIENDS is FRIENDS tumanda man tayoooo..Para na tayong magkakapatid sa ibang Nanay.Love you bebe Lovely! @lablee.em #bebes #forever #bestie #beshie #beh #family #siblings Enjoy your day!!!!! Seeeee you very very sooooon!! 💋❤