#rambles of an emotionally unstable carat

[kveom]

one of the reasons i didn’t stan any kpop groups before seventeen was because the competitive nature of the kpop industry is just.. not my thing. getting views, sales, competing on music shows— i just feel for the groups that don’t have as big a fanbase as other groups or groups that just don’t get the views, sales and wins. it scares me that they’ll think it mean they aren’t as talented or hard working as the other groups-- which is not true at all.

the rest is under the cut because it’s just me being a mess

i understand that this is why the fans and groups have such a close connection, not like in western music, and that connection really is so amazing to me. it shows how dedicated fans are in ensuring their group’s success, and in return the groups work sooo hard for their fans. but i’m a really emotional person. if people i love are feeling down, i feel it as much as they do. and right now, hearing people saying that this might be a disappointing comeback for seventeen, i can’t help but think how they’re going to be feeling if it does end up being that and my mood is just dropping (like a gyro drop) by the second. so when i said i wasn’t ready for my first comeback, i meant that 100%. i try to say to myself ‘don’t worry, as long as i know how awesome they are and all the other carats know how awesome they are’ but that’s not what it’s all about in kpop and i get so :(((

so to sum this ramble up, i know it seems like i’ve given up on this comeback already but that is in noooo way true. i’m just a worrier-- i worry before something happens, when something happens and after something happens (so yes i’m a wreck). i still believe that our boys will make this a glorious comeback, but if it’s not what they wanted i hope they will never doubt how amazing, hard working, creative and loved they are and that this comeback or the amount of views and whatever doesn’t change that nor dictate their success. our self-producing idols produce their own path after all (¬‿¬). also, at the end of the day, what makes me believe in them 200% is the fact that they have each other. oh boy, do they. to cheer each other up, to make each other work harder or just to be there. WITH COUPS AS THEIR LEADER. they’re worth me getting this emotionally invested in (no more groups though-- svt will never get out but no other groups) and i’m so proud of them already :’)


sorry, i just had to say this even if no one reads it