#random0lover emotional dumps

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I hate men and their need to act like any emotional reactions you have while you’re on your period is just you being “hormonal” and “not yourself”

(Rant in tags)

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About to have a mental break down in the shower… I’ll let everyone know how I feel after <3

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I had planned on writing tonight but I literally don’t have it in me to actually sit down a write anything. Like I keep writing in my brain (I literally missed 10 minutes of the show I was watching because of mental writing) and I keep coming up with great stuff but the moment I open a doc for it I get really bad anxiety.

But I’m going to bed after I post this so goodnight y’all <3

Turns into a rant right here so… yeah-

My heart rate has been unusually high today (like 130-150 bpm literally all day) and idk what’s wrong with me tbh, my anxiety has been at an all time high for like the last few days, I keep dissociating, I get like 8-10 hours of sleep and I’m still super tired, stomach has been hurting, I’ve been avoiding doing all the things that I normally do like cooking, cleaning, and I’ve been avoiding messaging this one friend I have because I keep getting stressed because it’s been so long since I’ve messaged her back *sigh*, and last but not least I feel like I’m on the edge of having a panic attack.

I’ve also started throwing myself into writing again and I’ve literally had major writers block for months now…

Rant over-

Anyways I probably won’t have what I was wanting to write posted tomorrow cause it’s my dad’s day off so I’ll be busy busy but hopefully I’ll have it posted Monday🤞🏼

Now here’s some pics describing exactly how I feel:

The best part is my dad knowing I’m not okay and then treating me like shit because I’m not okay 🫠

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Having someone ruin your life and then you forgiving them because you love them and they mean a lot to you just for them to turn around and treat you like you’re a nuisance really fucking hurts…

(Oh btw you’ve been helping take care of this person your whole entire life. Given up opportunities and things that were important to you so that you could keep helping take care of them. Been there for them even though they were tearing your life apart. And they tell you they wish you would just leave… then when you talk about actually doing it they talk shit to you :) )

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Fuck today and fuck people

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I just got my period and all I wanna do is burrow myself into some blankets and sleep but I have so much to do 😭

Here’s some period memes & things for ya:

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This includes CNC (CONSENSUAL non-consent), intense bondage, knife play, gun play, pet play, intense impact play, fear play. I think that’s it but more may be added.

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🌩️☀️✨] A Day for First’s and Adding A Second

- Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley x wife fem!reader, slight NSFW, established relationship, pregnancy mentioned, you and Simon have a son, fluff

🌨️🌪️✨] TF141 x gn!reader That Was a Military Kid

-Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley x GN!reader, SFW, angst, fluff, reader is mean and dealing with a lot emotionally, talk of parental death, established relationship, Simon is understanding and caring

-mini series-🌪️🥀🌨️] Open Wounds and War Paint

- Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley x GN!reader, SFW, Angst/No Comfort, blood, reader death(?)

-part 2- 🌪️🥀🌨️] Her Past is Their torture

- Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley x GN!reader, SFW, Angst/No Comfort (yet), nothing to serious for this part but make sure to read warnings

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❄️✨] Johnny Mactavish Head Canon’s - dad edition (kinda)

- John ‘soap’ Mactavish x afab!reader, SFW, marriage, pregnancy, fluff

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- John ‘Soap’ Mactavish x GN!reader, SFW, Fluff

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❄️✨]John Price Head Canon’s - dad edition (kinda)

-John Price x afab!reader, SFW, marriage, pregnancy, fluff

🌨️✨]Captain John Price Head Canon’s- SO that has Tourette’s Syndrome

-John Price x GN!reader, SFW, reader has Tourette’s Syndrome, John is supportive, fluff

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- Watersports (what is this?) (not judging just not my thing)

- Pedophilia 😡

- Scatophilia (what is this?) (not judging just not my thing)

-Cannibalism (only time you would probably ever see this is if I’m writing an apocalypse fic but it would not be an important part of it)

-anything involving dead bodies or animals (I mean this in a sexual manner (like kinks people have) as this is absolutely disgusting and horrible)

} Things I’m not exactly comfortable writing

This is not to offend anyone as I would never judge anyone for their kinks! This is me just trying to set some personal boundaries <3

- age play

I have nothing against age play (as long as everyone is playing a legal age). I went through some childhood trauma that makes writing it hard and I would prefer not to write it for my own mental health <3

-CBT (what is this?)

Once again nothing against anyone that enjoys this! It’s just really not my cup of tea and I don’t want to offend anyone or spread any misinformation by writing it incorrectly!

-Tentacles

I myself have read a few fics like this but I don’t ever really see myself writing it. I don’t frequent in erotica like that so I really wouldn’t know what the hell I would be doing 😅

-Electro stimulation (what is this?)

Honestly never heard of it until I started looking into different kind of kinks. It’s definitely an interesting one but not something I could see myself writing.

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