#rewinds. watches it again. WHERE DID HE COME FROM. HE LITERALLY MATERIALIZES FROM A CLOUD OF SMOKE

[joelletwo]

[fully not paying attention to the naraku x shinsengumi fight] wait why is gintoki the boat driver all of a sudden

[defiesgods]

*   ╰     HELLO THERE, LOVELIES !    it is i, the literal trash can admin elise, BACK AT IT AGAIN with muse numero dos ! —— yes, that’s right my folks ; following my darling andromeda’s post, it is now my unfortunate duty to introduce to you the literal #sadboi shite show that is GILDEROY ‘ MAGICAL ME ’ LOCKHART. while his faceclaim ( taehyung, loml who i would certainly lay my life down on the line for ???? ) is a beautiful n magical boi —— gilderoy lockhart is Anything . But . !!!! so  BUCKLE :^) UP :^) KIDDOS :^) is all i can say ????? TRIGGER WARNINGS : physical & emotional abuse, self-harm, murder, sexually explicit content.

he trees unloose their soft arms from around ( gilderoy lockhart ) — ( he ) reminds me of ( the dark splendour of sorrow and sin ; bodies writhing, twisting, and you, screaming his name. he wants you to drink him in, love him, worship him like the god he once sacrificed everything for. you’re naked, asleep, curled up against his chest. he loves you ephemerally, then leaves you in the dark. ’ don’t desert me, don’t be horrified at me, you know what i am ’ ). a ( seventh ) year ( ravenclaw ), the ( facade ) is known for being being ( charming & assuasive ), however ( beguiling & vengeful ). rumour has it that the ( eighteen ) year old ( kim taehyung ) doppleganger is seizing their moment by siding with the ( neutrals ). ( elise, 22, aest/gmt+10, she/hers )

CHILDHOOD ! ( pre-hogwarts )

his father went to church each night, hoping to cleanse himself of sin. a man who had an unparalleled love for god, gilderoy’s father had the wrath of a god, too. but no matter how hard he prayed, no amount of confession & no act of contrition could ever absolve joshua hong of this sin —— murder.

our story begins with the birth of a darling baby boy. gilderoy hong is perfect in every way ( or at least his mother dotes as such ), with his ten tiny toes & ten tiny fingers ; reaching out for comfort &  warmth. with a hushed whisper carried on a current of love, anita hong provides her son with the sanctuary he craves ; placing butterfly kisses to his forehead and cheeks —— telling him she’ll protect him against the world that rages beyond these hospital walls. little does she realise that it is her own husband that she will need to protect her son from.

FLASH FORWARD —— and there’s blood on gilderoy’s hands. he’s killed his father, who just moments before had killed his mother —— and all this violence, blood shed & death had been sparked over three words. “ I’M A WITCH. ”

REWIND —— STRANGE THINGS ARE HAPPENING, and gilderoy’s days are lived in confusion, fear & terror. only four years of age, flowers bloom beneath gilderoy’s feet during moments of happiness ( he and his mother baking cookies in the kitchen, painting the sight of their garden together, gilderoy laid curled up on his mother’s lap while she read him his favourite stories ), while during moments of distress, melancholy & anger, the ground stirs and shifts where he stands as if it were about to swallow him whole.  a muggle man who belonged deeply& firstly to god, his own self second, and his wife and child third, these mystical happenings were painted by joshua hong ( gilderoy’s father ) as evidence of his son’s demonic possession. with misguided love & brutal hands, joshua fully intended to cleanse gilderoy of the devil’s influence.

FOUR YEARS OLD & COVERED WITH BRUISES —— DAYS COLOURED BY BLACK, BLUE & PURPLE.

a religious boy himself, gilderoy believed the magic, the beatings, and misery that had consumed his life were all part of some GRAND TEST. all he needed to do, he knew, was prove his faith in god & show that he was worthy, strong and true. god would reward him for his love with kindness and fortune, and everything would be fine in the end. with this belief in mind, gilderoy endured it all —— he believed that he deserved the tattooed bruises of deep purple and blue that covered every inch his soft skin, and he spent day after day crying in the darkest corners of his room —— scarcely even daring to believe that he was even deserving of being touched by the rays of sunlight that crept in through his cracked bedroom window. he was wrong, he was unholy, he was impure.

the only moments in the boy’s life that were filled with even the slightest moments of wonder and hope were also moments of deep pain. aged only 7, gilderoy took to wielding his father’s razor blade ; carving intricate patterns —— or scrawling the words of screaming emotions into the canvas of his skin. in these moments, gilderoy would not only make something beautiful of himself ; make ART —— but he would also be in control of himself, and in control of his s c a r s ( he had so many of them, and his own father had inflicted them all ). there was no small inch of the young boy’s body that had been left unharmed, but in gilderoy’s archaic and simple practice of tattooing himself with scars, he gained back control. his body was his own, no one else’s.

gilderoy’s mother watched on in HORROR as her husband ( her love ) beat her son ( her heart ) for the magic that she had given him through her blood. for eight long years after gilderoy had been born anita held her tongue about the truth, deeply fearful and terrified of the cruel & merciless man that joshua had become. THIS WASN’T THE MAN ANITA HAD FALLEN IN LOVE WITH —— this wasn’t the man that she knew ; and so, one night in late spring, anita told her husband the truth of her magic . . . trusting him, loving him, confiding in him —— and the truth cost her her life.

“ A WITCH ?! ” —— the screamed words are an accusation accented with betrayal ; joshua’s trembling hand keeping a sobbing anita away at knife-point, enraged. eyes hazy with sleep & mind clouded with waking nightmares, gilderoy tiptoes down to the kitchen where he can hear his parents yelling.

A BLUR OF BODIES.

the boy’s shrill scream curls into the night air as he watches his father lunge at his mother, her white night dress stained crimson red as she falls limp to the ground. the last words that cascade from her lips are pained, sorrowful, and coloured with terror. “ RUN, GILDEROY. ” but the boy stands where he is —— eyes glazed over, heart heavy with rage.

HE’S NOT IN CONTROL as the furniture begins to hover above ground, kitchen knives and chairs and cupboards levitating in an unnatural manner that foretells the disaster about to happen. as gilderoy’s wail rips through the air, a cupboard slams joshua to the wall —— crushing & swift ... and after a moment of pure terror ; the world grows silent once more. wood splintering, knives clattering to the floor, dust settling, gilderoy holds his mother’s cold body in his arms until the aurors show up & tear him away from her.

* light muzak playing * THIS IS AN INTERMISSION !!!!! this has been some pretty heavy material to read thru, i know, n i’m sorry, so pls hydrate, take a mental health break, take care of urself, eat some ice cream, go out into the sunshine, n love urself :~) love y’all x ! :~)

gilderoy is adopted into a family by the name of lockhart. two high-ranking ministry of magic officals, the lockharts adopt gilderoy into their family for no other reason than the motive of raising their popularity, boosting their profile, and making them seem more human, empathetic & relatable than they are. 

with hopes of being elected minister of magic, mr. lockhart sees gilderoy’s situation as an opportunity. an infamous crime case known throughout wizarding society, loving the orphaned boy whose mother was murdered by a witch-hating father would prove a useful rouse in a political climate where pureblood agendas grew stronger by the day.  

“ you’re so brave. ” people comment sympathetically at ministry galas and events, looking at gilderoy with downcast gazes and presumptuous condolences. gilderoy’s never been brave ; and now more than ever he despises the word. brave is what his mother was —— at least in the end —— and brave was the very thing that got her killed.

“ what a handsome boy. ” and this, gilderoy can concede. he decides to boast of himself, love himself, and make himself someone to be worshipped rather than pitied. in a world that battered & bruised him & made him small, gilderoy chose to live large —— he chose to make people swallow their words and fall at his feet so that he would never be at the mercy of any one else again ; —— not after what his father did to him . . . he owed his mother that much.

PRESENT DAY —— SOME RAMBLINGS / AESTHETICS THAT COME TO MIND.

THE TASTE OF YOU IS IN HIS MOUTH & he’s on his knees, at your feet —— but only as a way to make you his. bodies writhing, twisting, slapping, joining ; he makes you his, he makes you his. his name on your tongue, he’s in control —— his musk on your clothes, he seeps into your lungs —— he wants you to drink him in, love him, worship him like the GOD he once sacrificed everything for. you’re naked, asleep, curled up against his chest —— he loves you ephemerally, then leaves you in the dark. “ don’t desert me, don’t be horrified at me. you know what i am. ”

HE’S NOT BRAVE ( because bravery, bravery, bravery is death ) —— but he’s gifted ; he’s charming, he’s beguiling & the rest. THOSE EYES. dark brown brimming with such guilt. THOSE SCARS. lost boy, tell me who hurt you ? LIAR LIAR —— lie to me, love me, forgive me —— playing pretend & finding glimmers of happiness in the love that others afford you ; biding time until the overwhelming dark splendour of your past sorrows & sickening sins swallow you whole. 

ALONE IN THE CHASM, no mother, no father. 

who will save you now ? 

TL:DR — after everything gilderoy has been through, he’s hellbent on never being hurt by ANYONE, ever again. the unfortunate route he’s taken to ensure this is becoming a lying, scheming, deceptive and charming young man —— lying to make people love him, using his body and false words to draw them in and keep them for his own. despite the reasons why he’s become this way, gilderoy is not a good person, and he needs desperately for someone to SEE THROUGH HIS FACADE, break down his walls of pretence and pretend, and love him for who he really is ; broken, sorrowful, and stronger than he knows. but therein the dilemma lies, for who could ever love a MONSTER like gilderoy lockhart ?

PROOF-READING ?? WHO’S SHE ??????? ,

n also ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ...... that just happened. surprise, surprise ! gilderoy lockhart actually has a heart ??? it’s just well-guarded after all the SHIT he’s been through !! wow ,,, ! i always loved gilderoy lockhart btw ? he was a depthless n amusing nevertheless annoying character in canon BUT LIKE ,,,,, my creative muse was itching for a way to recreate and redefine him ??? & this is what i came up with !!! it’s dARK,,, i know ,,,, but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ the muse controls me, i don’t control it !!!! ANYWAY, shoot this post a like n i’ll come pLOT !