#rightloveatthewrongtime

[just-another-eve-of-eden]

I love you with a love that's forbidden.

In my mind I wanted to let you go, but my heart says no.

You make me feel like a real woman I never felt before.

With just a look in your fierce eyes, my heart melt. My spirit shuddered with so much joy.

I dream of your arms wrapped around me.

Your lips on mine showering me with sweet kisses. While your hands caressing every curves and edges of my body with your gentle touch.

In my dreams, with soft sighs and moans I bare my heart and soul to you. Giving you everything without reservation.

I shouted your name, dugging my nails on your chiseled back on every thrust you made. Feeling your warm and strength inside me. I love it my love, so much.

I looked at you with so much admiration as you reach the core. Loud and beautiful . A music to my ears I will never forget.

With a victorious smile, you looked into my eyes deeply and kiss me again. This time you whispered my name and said those words I love to hear.

But I could not hold my tears. I cried for happiness and desperation.

How come I love you so much but I cannot love you openly. My feelings for you is true. But to have you just for me, or me just for you is forbidden.

So I just keep it in my thoughts and in my heart.

A beautiful and wonderful secret. I will just love you in my dreams my love.

For only in my dreams I can have you whole.

I love you.

[sweetnovember01]

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A....I love you...always...i will love you no matter what

[idiosyncraticlass-blog]

Right Love At The Wrong Time

CHAPTER X

Trixie's POV

Caleb asked me if I want to move on, if I want to forget all the pain that's in my heart and I said no. Why should I forget? Why should I move on by means of forgetting everything about him? About all the pain and hatred. I want to to love but at the same time I want to keep and treasure all the pain. Because that is how our life go and how our life flow.

* Fast Forward *

My best friends and I and Calebs' friends went to a birthday party. While were at the party somebody thought of a game called "Drink or Dare" the direction of the game is easy you need to drink a glass of vodka if you can't answer or do the dare. Everybody was excited because that is our first get together.

They started spinning the bottle and every time it comes to the point wherein it’s about to stop I can’t stop myself from holding my breath hoping that it won’t stop at me because I’m scared of the things they might dare and ask me.

Then the bottle stopped at Caleb. Everybody was shouting but as for me I just keep quiet and wait for his dare. His friend told him "Choose between Trixie and your girlfriend" Yes you're right Caleb got himself a girlfriend I don’t know the reason why but whenever I'm free he got himself a girlfriend and whenever his single I have someone on my side. I was so out of the blue when Caleb answered "I choose my girlfriend and drank the vodka" Everybody was kind a disappointed because they're hoping that he'll choose me. Well they are hoping just like I do. I was still attached to him and can't stop myself from meddling about the things concerning about him. Well I guess this is Right Love At The Wrong Time.

[littleredmavis-blog]

IKAW, AKO... WALANG TAYO..

‘Yung iba nasasaktan kasi walang nagmamahal sa kanila. Habang tayo, nasasaktan, kasi nagmamahalan tayo pero may nagmamay ari sa'ting iba.

Nakilala kita sa pinakamaling panahon ng buhay ko. Kaya nga paulit ulit kong tinatanong kung bakit sa lahat ng bagay na pwedeng mahuli ng dating sa buhay ko, bakit ikaw pa?

Hindi ako dapat maging masaya kasama ka dahil masasanay ako. Masasanay akong makita sayo lahat ng bagay na gusto kong makita sa kanya. Masasanay ako sayo. Masasaktan ako.

Ngunit kahit anong iwas ko ay hindi kita maalis sa utak ko. Hinahanap hanap ko ang amoy mo sa tuwing wala ka sa tabi ko. Hinahanap hanap ko ang iyong mga ngiti sa sandaling hindi kita kasama. Hindi kita kasama dahil kasama ka niya. Kasama ka ng taong mas may karapatang tawagin kang kanya.

Bawat ngiti mo ay langit para sakin. Napakaperpekto mo para sakin. Bawat araw ay gusto kitang yakapin. Gusto kong maramdaman ang init ng balat mo. Gusto kong madama ang lambot ng mga labi mo. Pero ilan lamang yun sa mga bagay na hindi ko buong makukuha. Dahil diba't hindi ka sakin, hindi ako sayo. Walang tayo. Biktima tayo ng magulong laro ng kapalaran .

Kung iisipin, wala ka namang kasalanan. Hindi mo naman kasalanang nakilala mo ako sa maling oras. Hindi mo kasalanang sa lahat ng pwedeng ma-delay sa buhay mo, 'yung pagkakakilala pa natin. Wala kang kinalaman sa magulong takbo ng tadhana. Wala nga rin tayong kasiguraduhan diba? Sigurado lang tayo na mahal nga natin ang isa't isa. Sigurado ako sa sayang nadarama ko kapag hawak ko ang kamay mo tuwing kasama kita. Sigurado akong hindi ka lang basta basta. Isa kang taong para dapat sakin kung naki-ayon lang sana ang tadhana.

Pero hindi ba't lahat naman mg nangyayari ay may dahilan? Doon ako kumakapit. Sa dahilan na iyon. Na baka ang dahilan kung bakit nakilala kita ay dahil ikaw nga ang para sakin. Na baka sinusubok lang tayo ng tadhana pero sa bandang huli ay tayo pa rin.

Iyon ang pinanghahawakan ko kahit masakit ang makita kang yakap ng iba. Naniniwala akong balang araw ay hindi na natin kailangan pang itago ang nadarama natin para sa isa't isa. Nagtitiwala akong dadating ang araw na magkakaroon ako ng karapatang ipagdamot ka. Karapatang magselos at karapatang yakapin at halikan ka. Pero hanggat wala pa akong karapatan ay kailangan kong magtiis magnakaw ng mga oras mo. Kailangan kong tanggapin na hindi ako ang nasa unahan ng pila. Na hindi kita pagaari at pagaari ka ng iba. Kahit masakit pa ang makita kang hinahalikan niya. Kahit masakit pa ang katotohanang walang tayo at baka hindi na nga maging tayo. Na baka sa bandang huli ay magising nalang ako isang araw na hindi na ako espesyal para sayo. Na baka sa bandang huli ay maging isa nalang akong pahina ng isang luma mong kwaderno. Isang pahinang punong puno na ng sulat na hindi na mahalaga para sayo kaya pupunitin mo nalang, itatapon at kakalimutan.

Dahil lahat pwedeng mangyari lalo na't meron lamang ikaw.. ako.. pero walang "tayo".

[poseysgirl]

Those awkward silences.

Today have made me realize how important and special it is to share those silences. When we have those secret glances at each other. When we look like fools smiling at each other from one end of the school to the other. It's like those eye contact that we secretly share is so much more special when we actually do have a conversation. Honestly, I could sit by you and stare at those beautiful eyes all day and we don't even have to talk. It's like our eyes have their own language. It's kinda cute how whenever I'm deep in thought from reading or taking notes and when I look up, you're staring. Not only that but when you realized you got caught staring at me, you would smile. "A smile that could light up this whole town." it just sucks how we have the right love at the wrong time.

[idiosyncraticlass-blog]

Right Love At the Wrong Time

CHAPTER VIII

Trixie’s POV

I feel so damn hurt. I feel so hurt that I don’t want to move my feet, I don’t want to go to school. I don’t want anybody to see me. The love of my life just left me. I don’t know what to do. What have I done in my past life that every body is cruel to me. For the nth time a guy cheated on me. I can’t think straight but I tried my very best to go to school and let things go. 

I went to school without even thinking whats going on. I don’t care and I won’t care anymore. My best friend told me to tell her the story of our break up so I told her everything but while telling her my story I can’t stop myself from crying. Because I really did everything for my ex boyfriend. He was my world, the love of my life, my everything. I cried as hard as I could while I’m on my best friends’  arms. 

* Fast Forward *

While eating a snack alone, John sat beside me and told me that Caleb said that he’s still into me. At first I didn’t care at all but then I realized that I need Caleb in my life again. I used that as an inspiration to move on, well technically I used Caleb’s affection to move on in my life. I want him so bad that I came to the point on asking him “Ano mo ba talaga ako?” And to my disappointment he answered me “Kaibigan lang kita” I feel so stupid that I’m willing to move on because of him. I feel so stupid that I hoped for that damned thing to be true. I feel so stupid that I asked you that question hoping that you’ll say I’m your world. I know i’m wrong for using you as my escape but what can I do? Your the strongest reason that I got for me to move on. But then again, “You see me as your friend”

[idiosyncraticlass-blog]

Right Love At The Wrong Time

CHAPTER VII 

I thought it was a new beginning for our friendship again after you let me take a photo with you but I was wrong. January 2015 after our Christmas break I waited for this day to come and finally talk to you. I smiled at you, Love but you just looked at me with your blank stare. I thought were already okay but I was wrong again for the nth time. I heard that you’re not allowed to talk to me because your boyfriend might get mad. Why? Is he that scared I’ll steal you away from him? March 23, 2015 your boyfriend surprised you at our gym. Everybody was looking. Everybody was so happy, everybody except me.  Then for the nth time I saw you hugged him so tight. I was so hurt, so damn hurt that I don't even want to look at you. I stood up and walked away. I walked away because I can't bear to see you smile and cry because of happiness. The happiness that I can't to you.

* Fast Forward *

Summer break has ended and here comes the new start of our school year. I heard that you’re still with your boyfriend. I'm quite surprised that the both of you are still together because that boyfriend of your holds the title of being a casanova. Because of the fact you managed a guy like him I feel for you again. You really are a unique girl to love.

* Fast Forward *

June 29, 2015 your break up with your guy was quite a news to our campus. Everybody was talking about it. Everybody has their own opinion. But in my case? I only want to see your face. I wanted to see you so bad. I waited outside our classroom and here comes your face sad, angry, lonely, in pain, in agony. I dont see any happiness in your eyes. Not long ago after you went inside our classrom your bestfriend grabbed you outside and let you tell the story. While telling your story, you cried so hard like there's no tomorrow. Then I said to my bestfriend John.

 "Gusto ko pa din talaga si Natalie, Tol"

[idiosyncraticlass-blog]

Right Love At The Wrong Time

CHAPTER VI

Caleb's POV

 Months have passed and you're still not talking to me not because you can't move on. But because your scared that your boyfriend will get mad if he would have known that you're talking to be. Like what the fuck men you got my girl. I was so disappointed about that lame reason of yours but what can I do? Its my fault that I let you go.

Even if I know that it is impossible, I'm still waiting for you. Even if I'm dying whenever I see you smile because of him, I still look at you. Even if I'm in pain whenever I'll caught the two of you snuggling with each other, I still do love you. Every day I prayed that someday you'll give me your attention again. I wish I could be your world.

 * Caleb talking to this bestfriend John*

J: "Ang tagal na ni Trixie at yung boyfriend niya no?"

C: "Oo nga" 

J: "Di ba nililigawan mo si Trixie bago maging sila?"

C: "Oo. Pero gago ako e. Natukso ako ayun naloko ko siya kahit hindi ko naman gusto"

J: "Tol sayang, ikaw sana yung kasama niya ngayon." 

While saying those words John were looking at Trixie and her boyfriend laughing while looking directly at each other's eyes. I feel like a shit eveytime I'll see them like that. Because I know that it is my fault. It's all my fault that I lost her. 

* Fast Forward*

Our christmas party has arrived and the program was about to begin, everybody was waiting for you because you're the host of our event. I waited for you otside our classroom because I want to be the one to see you. There you are love, I was looking at you from afar I know its you because I can already see your beautiful face. I smiled and said this to myself "Shit. Ang ganda niya" you were wearing a pink dress and hat. I look stupidly happy because you're already here.

Our program started and my eyes were stuck at you. Every move, every walk, every talk that you make I made sure that I can see it. You walked towards my direction I thought you're gonna tall to me but no. You walk directly into the door and at that moment I already kno that you'll go and see your boyfriend. I lost the momentum for a while because you left for him but when you get back you smiled at me I was like Shit men my girl just smiled at me. 

After a while the party was about to end and you're about to go when I called your name and say "Pwede ba magpicture tayo?" Thank God you said yes.

I went straight home just to make sure that I’ll have a very good look on our picture. Is this the new love? Are you going to talk to me now?

[idiosyncraticlass-blog]

Right Love At The Wrong Time

CHAPTER V

Caleb's POV 

 School days started again, and Yes you're still my classmate. But things have already changed. You're not talking to me like you used to before. You're so distant that I didn't even have a small chance to talk to you. I keep on waiting. But days, weeks, and months have passed and sad to say that you're just my classmate and not a friend anymore. I'm always looking at you but I don't even know why. Do I still love you? I think I still do. But I know I've hurt you. I've hurt you so much my love. You look so wonderful. You've changed the color of your hair that suits you very well love. 

 One day while looking at you and your boyfriend,  I saw you wiping his face. I saw you feeding your boyfriend while laughing. At that very moment I want to grab you, I want to take you away from him. Then I unconsciously uttered these to myself "Tangina ako sana yun e"

I saw you sitting alone on the bench under the tree. My eyes were glued at you on that instant. Then I realized that you weren't just sitting but you were also crying silently. I was about to walk towards you and comfort you like I used to before, but then here comes your boyfriend. Walking so mighty towards you and hugged you tight. I feel like there's a knife pointed directly at my heart and stabbed me so hard when I saw you hugged him back. You hugged him so tight like you don't want to lose him. Then again, I uttered silently..

"AKO SANA YON"

That day I went home early because I'm not feeling well. While looking at the roof of my room I caught myself uttering these question "Bakit lagi nalang akong wrong timing? Bakit kasi nakilala ko pa yung babaeng nagpagulo sa isip ko at naging rason para iwan kita? Miss na miss na kita. Hindi ko na kaya" As I closed my eyes, I silently cried in pain.

[idiosyncraticlass-blog]

Right Love At The Wrong Time

CHAPTER IV

 Trixie’s POV

 Am I doing the right thing? Well I guess it's not that bad to give him a chance. After all, he was the only person that stayed at my side after his best friend left me. 

After I gave him the permission to court me day after day we're talking to each other almost every time. I asked everything about him. If what made him like me, his favorites, his likes and dislikes. At a very young age I feel so loved. He made me feel like i'm the most precious girl in his life. Then one day... Here comes the semestral break. One week, that one week I didn't have a chance to text you or update you on the things that's keeping me busy. One day before our school starts I made it sure that I don't have anything to do. I'm planning on spending the whole day with you. But I guess I expected too much. I texted you and called you a thousand times. But you left me hanging without even replying. I thought you wouldn't hurt me. I thought you won't do the same thing like your best friend did. I am so hurt that I don't even want to see your face. I hate you. I hate you but I love you. What should I do now? Caleb's POV I feel like shit. I keep asking myself what have I done? Why did I do that to the girl that I love. I left her hurting. Crying... for the pain that I caused her. Maybe I was just so happy that my emotions were overflowing. Am I wrong? I was just being sincere with my feelings but then I hurt her. I left her hanging for someone else. 

Now, she’s not talking to me anymore. She’s so close yet so far to reach. I’m so hurt but I know that this feeling is just nothing compared to the pain that I caused you. Here comes our summer break. I was about to tell you that I'm sorry but you found yourself a boyfriend.Why love? Its way too soon. I know I made a mistake but why is it too soon? "Bakit ang bilis? Meron ka na agad iba”

[idiosyncraticlass-blog]

Right Love At The Wrong Time

Chapter 2

Caleb’s POV

She looked so happy now. She look good as always. I smiled unconsciously while looking at her. I want to ask her. Are you really okay? You know love.. if you’re hurting. If you’re in pain, just say my name and I’ll stay with you until you feel at ease. Don’t hide your pain with that smile.

I didn’t even realized that she walked towards me. I held her cheeks unconsciously then that hit me. Holy shit. What am I doing? Then I tried to get away from what I have done saying that she got a booger on her cheeks then I left her blushing in humiliation. What a silly move I said to myself. Haayyyy I guess, I really am in love. The next day you sang in front of our class. Shit. Why did you do that?! What will I do now? How can I stop myself from courting you after I heard your angelic voice. That night I keep on thinking about you. It’s like I swallowed a cassette player with your voice playing. The next day I feel like I was floating in clouds. Why? Because it’s time for arranging our seats. I guess it’s my lucky day because our teacher let me sit beside you. Well that’s not a free deal because I     Have a condition to do just to sit beside you. But it’s okay, the feeling that I’ll feel if I’ll sit beside you is worthless. Day after day I look stupidly happy and energetic going to school because I know that you will be there right beside me. I’m kinda nervous that you might hear the loud beating of my heart. ……..

Shit. Shit. Shit. My hands are shaking. I’m so nervous alone in my room. Should I text her? Or not? Uggggh! I’m so frustrated. Woooh! Okay. I’ll text her. -Hi Trixie. Holy crap it’s already five minutes why she’s not texting me back! ….15 minutes ….45 minutes I’ll go and take a bath first. *while taking a bath I heard my phone from the shower. I ran as fast as I could just to read that stupid message hoping that it was from you. *You got a text message* -Opening…. Loading… From Trixie: Oh hello! Who’s this? And I was likeeee HOLY CRAP! The love of my life just texted me back!!

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