#risk potentially detrimental to my gaslighting trauma its easier to just know its the case and not talk about it at all | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

bellwitchfaggot · 10 months

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Trying 2 determine what all abt my life currently I feel comfortable actually talking about on tumblr these days n the answer is like. Well I think of updates 2 post n then I'm like well I thought that already, articulated the thought to the self no need 2 post now n I might regret it later. And now no one online knows anything about me maybe. I'm tipsy for what is not the first time in a while but I drink socially standardly these days n due to social burnout + did I do not rly cognisize those moments while alone. So I'm tipsy while mostly alone for the first time in a while specifically and I try to refrain from posting personal shit moreso when I'm not sober. A problem I realize here recent I have been having w posting to socials as in the past like year and a half or so I've re unmasked my eidetic flashbacks again is that I seem to have a booming social life and I script future tumblr posts while hanging out w ppl and now that I know that at all times it's like. Oh I already said all this shit just in conversation w a group of ppl like a month ago so its cringe genuinely to post it online now. Tumblr is for faggots w no friends once more, a demographic of which I am not in

#k im drinking yhr last beer in the fridge see what that does to me. pussyboys life is good and i am burnt out and its just that irl i think.#shit im a normal adult in my mid 20s and its overwhelming the moment im posting to tumblr #i think a big part of it is that in the past like handful of years at least theres been like a lot of life i have lived which i have rarely #acknowledged outright online and now im working through gaslighting trauma and unrepressing so much of it and its like. i will be #disbelieved about half this shit on the basis i just havent been talking about it in an upfront manner for yrs now and then when thats a #risk potentially detrimental to my gaslighting trauma its easier to just know its the case and not talk about it at all #then the times i want to talk about it and its still That One i think it fosters further dissociative amnesia automatically so. its just #vague nonsense i continue trying to post abt life n hoping i dont misconstrue the meaning later on #did log

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