It's funny how the music I listen to evolved.
When I was about 10 years old, I got my first mp3-player. It was quite old and often broken. The music that I could listen to, sounded bad because of rustlea and it got cut off often. I didn't care though, I was happy that my dad gave it to me (even though my mum was against it, but that's another story). I listened a lot with it. Mostly songs of a Flemish music program for kids. So only national music then.
A little time after that my parents found out that my mp3-player was of really bad quality, but I didn't want them to buy a phone, because I was happy, idk I was a strange kid. I was happy that I had some rusty music and I didn't need more I guess. It was around that time that I saw "The Lazy Song" from Bruno Mars on TV and I asked my dad to add the song on my player. He added the whole album and for a few months I only listened to that. It was one of my first encounters of the English language. Yay.
On my twelfth birthday, at the end of 6th grade, I got my first phone. It was a very cool one, 'cause it had a touchscreen and a yellow case. I always loved yellow. Still my favourite colour and yes I am a proud hufflepuff. Deal with that. Anyways, this phone gave me a new possibility, bacause now, I was able to search and download my own music. So I discovered some more music. Mainstreet (a Dutch band), MBAND (a Russian band), some single songs and music from movies and musicals. I really began listening to international music, and as I said before, it helped me evolve my english. That, and also Harry Potter (the first movies me and my sister watched with english audio and Dutch subtitles. Now we watch every series and movie with english subs and english audio. Yay).
Around 9th grade my phone broke. The buttons for sounds and the on/off button didn't work anymore. Well I got another one. With almost unlimited music download possibility. New music wave. Serguei Lazarev, Alexander Rybak, Kpop (yeah your heard that right my dear emo friends, and i can still read the Korean alphabet).
Actually Kpop gave me some good things. So I'm happy that I went through that phase. It was the final thing to make me a non-rascism person (i am ashamed of the fact that i was, indeed, rascist. I'm not anymore though. Thank God for that). Also, I got my taste of fashion there.
Then. The emo begins. It actually doesn't begin good. It has a story too. There was this girl, a friend of mine. Let's call her A. Well she had her own problems, not gonna get into that. She listened a lot to punk/hard-rock kinda things, didn't know back then. I always judged her for that (fuck past-self me). That's not important. She had a friend (let's call him S). She was in love with him, he wasn't with her. He was also a friend of my sister's. He was a huge fan of Twenty One Pilots. Anyways, this friend S told my sister about A's problems, and my sister told me. So I knew A's problems and I knew that S told my sister, even though he was supposed to keep it secret. I did the stupidest thing by telling a good friend of mine (let's call her E) about it. I asked E not to tell A, because it would only make things worse. She told A. Still mad at her for that. Everyone found out, it was a huge mess, I hurt myself, started crying and hating myself (hasn't stopped), etc. I knew I needed help. And then I remembered about that guy S, who was a fan of tøp. I started listening to it. I fucking loved it. With whole my heart. The whole summer of '18 was a tøp-summer. It was also with the start of Trench. I was really happy. I still am. I wonder what I would be if I hadn't decided to listen to them. Fucked up probably. I still am, but I try to become better. Anyways. I went to their concert in March too. Magical night. Tøp teached me to think about what you feel.
Through Twenty One Pilots memes and all I heard a lot about the other bands of the emo quartet. A lot of a certain "Gerard Way" too. Also "Frank Iero". Well I posted a post on my tøp blog (if anyone's interested it's @trenchil ). I got to know this perfect girl @fangirling-account . She told me everything about mcr. Everything. (And I can't thank you enough for it, dear) I love mcr. I love them so much, but I guess you know that, based on my little blog here. Mcr teached me to accept myself and not trying to be someone I'm not.
I plan on getting into other bands too. Green Day, p!atd, fob, ya know.
Also, when I get into something, I mean getting slurped up in the tornado of songs, inside jokes, memes and feelings. The whole damn package. Sometimes it hurts, but I love doing it. It's called obsessing and I love it.
The thing I enjoy about music nowadays too, i the fandom. You get to share your experience with the world, there are other people who get you, there are people you can have a discussion with. People who have the same interests of hands (looking at you @areebbbb).
Anyways music kinda saved me.
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ТЁМКЛИП 2014
Лучшая мужская роль
Bruce Springsteen - Hunter Of Invisible Game
Пицца - На Всю Планету Земля
Вася Обломов - Письмо Санта-Клаусу
Andreas Bourani - Auf anderen Wegen
G-Eazy - I Mean It
Лучшая женская роль
МакSим - God
Annie Lennox - Summertime
Lana Del Rey - West Coast
Kylie Minogue - Into The Blue
Christine and The Queens - Saint Claude
Лучшая мужская роль второго плана
Pharrell - Hugs
Donald Webber Jr - Dark Horse Parody (Key of Awesome #85)
Вахтанг - У меня появился другой
The Weeknd - Love Me Harder
Иван Криштофоренко - Санта Лючия
Лучшая женская роль второго плана
Rita Ora - Black Widow
Rihanna - Can't Remember to Forget You
Nicki Minaj - No Love
Юлия Савичева - Любить больше нечем
Beyonce - Say Yes
Лучшая мужская роль драма
Luke James - Options
Влад Соколовский - Всё возможно
Нигатив - 222
Серёга - Твой любимый клоун
Gavin DeGraw - You Got Me
Лучшая женская роль драма
Mariah Carey - You're Mine (Eternal)
Emmelie de Forest - Drunk Tonight
Nicki Minaj - Grand Piano
Юлия Паршута - Cut Me Open
Jessica Mauboy - Never Be the Same
Лучшая мужская роль комедия
Austin Mahone - MMM Yeah
Weird Al Yankovic - Tacky
A-Dessa - Женщина, я не танцую
Christopher - Mama
Lil Dicky - Lemme Freak
Лучшая женская роль комедия
Kimbra - Miracle
Виа Гра - У меня появился другой
Taylor Swift - Blank Space
Елена Борщева - Кастинг
Paige Grimard - Dark Horse Parody (Key of Awesome #85)
Лучший бессловесный персонаж
25/17 - Последний из нас
Kylie Minogue - Into The Blue
Years & Years - Take Shelter
Sia - Chandelier
Klangkarussell - Netzwerk (Falls Like Rain)
Лучший актерский ансамбль
DJ Snake, Lil Jon - Turn Down for What
RuPaul - Sissy That Walk
Noize MC - Влиятельные Покровители
Charusha - 16
Dierks Bentley - Drunk On A Plane
Лучший новичок
Betty Who
Zara Larsson
Luke James
Kiesza
Austin Mahone
Лучший артист
Nicki Minaj [Lookin Ass, Pills n Potions, Anaconda, Only, The Crying Game, I Lied, Grand Piano]
Annie Lennox [Georgia On My Mind, God Bless The Child, I Put A Spell On You, Memphis In June, Mood Indigo, September In The Rain, Strange Fruit, Summertime]
iamamiwhoami [blue blue, chasing kites, fountain, hunting for pearls, ripple, shadowshow, tap your glass, the last dancer, thin, vista]
Trey Songz [Change Your Mind, Foreign, Na Na, SmartPhones, Touchin Lovin, What's Best For You]
Tony Bennett & Lady Gaga [Anything Goes, Bang Bang, But Beautiful, I Can't Give You Anything But Love, It Don't Mean A Thing]
Лучший музыкальным фильм, альбомная антология
Nicki Minaj - The Pinkprint Movie
How to Dress Well - What Is This Heart? trilogy
iamamiwhoami - Blue
25/17 - Русский подорожник
Lady Gaga - G.U.Y. - An ARTPOP Film
Лучший режиссер года
Ryan Pallotta (Jealous, Make A Move, Really Don't Care)
Dawn Shadforth (Into The Blue, Your Love, The Heart Wants What It Wants)
Рустам Романов (Океан, На Всю Планету Земля, Не буду бояться, Борода, Чтобы лето не кончалось, Маршрутка, Стань)
BRTHR (Youth, Tough Love, Breaking Up)
Joseph Kahn (Can't Remember To Forget You, Blank Space)
Лучшая режиссерская работа
Bruce Springsteen - Hunter Of Invisible Game. Directed by Thom Zimny, Bruce Springsteen
Sia - Chandelier. Directed by Sia, Daniel Askill
Kylie Minogue - Into The Blue. Directed by Dawn Shadforth
Пицца - На Всю Планету Земля. Directed by Рустам Романов
Christine and The Queens - Saint Claude. Directed by Julien Choquart, Camille Hirigoyen
Лучшая комедия
Lil Dicky - Lemme Freak
Ленинград - Патриотка
Key of Awesome #85 - Dark Horse Parody
Елена Борщева - Кастинг
Weird Al Yankovic - Word Crimes
Лучшая драма
Макс Корж — Мотылёк
How to Dress Well - Repeat Pleasure
Фидель - Не буду бояться
Проект Увечье - Стрижка
Иван Дорн - Мишка виновен
Лучший клип года
Kylie Minogue - Into The Blue
Sia - Chandelier
Christine and The Queens - Saint Claude
Taylor Swift - Blank Space
Пицца - На Всю Планету Земля
Лучший оригинальный сценарий
T-killah - Привет как дела
Noize MC - Влиятельные Покровители
Влад Соколовский - Всё возможно
Анита Цой - Мой воздух, моя любовь
Иван Дорн - Мишка виновен
Лучший адаптированный сценарий
Вася Обломов - Письмо Санта-Клаусу
Серёга - Твой любимый клоун
Виа Гра, Вахтанг - У меня появился другой
Елена Борщева - Кастинг
Макс Корж — Мотылёк
Лучшее женское видео
Charusha - 16
Tori Amos, Natashya Hawley - Promise
Kylie Minogue - Sexercize
Serebro – Я тебя не отдам
Christine and The Queens - Saint Claude
Лучшее мужское видео
Lil Dicky - Lemme Freak
L'One - Бери своё
Bruce Springsteen - Hunter Of Invisible Game
Chromeo - Old 45's
Andreas Bourani - Auf anderen Wegen
Лучшее поп видео
Austin Mahone, Pitbull - MMM Yeah
Taylor Swift - Blank Space
Ariana Grande, The Weeknd - Love Me Harder
Kylie Minogue - Into The Blue
Nick Jonas - Jealous
Лучшее традиционное поп видео
Gary Barlow - Since I Saw You Last
Tori Amos, Natashya Hawley - Promise
One Direction - Night Changes
Paloma Faith - Only Love Can Hurt Like This
Annie Lennox - Summertime
Лучшая баллада видео
One Direction - Night Changes
L'One - Океан
Нюша - Только
Christina Perri - Human
Nicki Minaj - Grand Piano
Лучшее диско, фанк видео
Kimbra - Miracle
Katy Perry - Birthday
Mark Ronson, Bruno Mars - Uptown Funk
Kiesza - No Enemiesz
Christopher - Mama
Лучшее дэнс видео
Alexandra Stan - Dance
DJ M.E.G., Molly - Kill Me All Night Long
Lady Gaga - G.U.Y.
Rita Ora - I Will Never Let You Down
Foxes - Let Go for Tonight
Лучшее электроника видео
Chase & Status - International
DJ Snake, Lil Jon - Turn Down for What
Years & Years - Take Shelter
Example - Kids Again
RuPaul - Sissy That Walk
Лучшее рнб видео
Tamar Braxton, Future - Let Me Know
Mariah Carey - You're Mine (Eternal)
How to Dress Well - Repeat Pleasure
Luke James - Dancing In The Dark
SoMo - Ride
Лучшее реп видео
Макс Корж - Мотылёк
Нигатив - 222
L'One - Бери своё
Рем Дигга - Вий
Серёга - Твой любимый клоун
Лучшее инди видео
Banks - Beggin For Thread
Ben Khan - Youth
Shura - Touch
Christine and The Queens - Saint Claude
FKA twigs - Two Weeks
Лучшее рок видео
Paramore - Ain't It Fun
Lana Del Rey - West Coast
AC/DC - Rock or Bust
Bruce Springsteen - Hunter Of Invisible Game
Pink Floyd - Louder Than Words
Лучшее кантри видео
Tim McGraw - Lookin' For That Girl
Eric Church - Give Me Back My Hometown
Dierks Bentley - Drunk On A Plane
Jason Aldean - Burnin' It Down
Keith Urban - Cop Car
Лучшее дневное видео
Paramore - Ain't It Fun
G.R.L. - Ugly Heart
Пицца - На Всю Планету Земля
Нигатив - 222
Виа Гра, Вахтанг - У меня появился другой
Лучшее ночное видео
Kendrick Lamar - i
Tim McGraw - Lookin' For That Girl
Luke James - Options
DJ Snake, Lil Jon - Turn Down for What
Вася Обломов - Письмо Санта-Клаусу
Лучшее зимнее видео
Вася Обломов - Письмо Санта-Клаусу
Avicii - Addicted To You
Гера Джио, Каспийский Груз - Жить Будем
iamamiwhoami - vista
Jennifer Lopez - Same Girl
Лучшее летнее видео
Example - Kids Again
Charusha - 16
Пицца - На Всю Планету Земля
Ханна - Чтобы лето не кончалось
Nicole Scherzinger - Your Love
Лучшее спортивное видео
Paramore - Ain't It Fun
Kylie Minogue - Sexercize
Trey Songz - Na Na
Charusha - 16
Chloe Howl - Disappointed
Лучшее социальное видео
The Script - Superheroes
Pink Floyd - Louder Than Words
Проект Увечье - Стрижка
Ingrid Michaelson - Afterlife
Coldplay - True Love
Лучший месседж в видео
Павел Фахртдинов - Играй (2014 Studio Link)
Макс Корж - Не выдумывай
25/17 - Думай сам
Джиган - #НадоПодкачаться
Вася Обломов - Письмо Санта-Клаусу
Лучшая романтика в видео
Gavin DeGraw - Make a Move
Jennifer Lopez - First Love
Kylie Minogue - Into The Blue
Винтаж - Когда рядом ты
Ирина Дубцова, DJ Leonid Rudenko – Вспоминать
Лучший эксплизит, R, нсфв
Ленинград - Ебубаб
Loc-Dog - Не до абстракций
DJ Snake, Lil Jon - Turn Down for What
Avicii - Addicted To You
A-Dessa - Я Бальник
Лучший экшн, триллер
Klangkarussell - Netzwerk (Falls Like Rain)
Paramore - Ain't It Fun
Sophie Ellis-Bextor - Love Is A Camera
Ella Henderson - Ghost
DJ Snake, Lil Jon - Turn Down for What
Лучшая реклама, продакт плейсмент
Black M - Sur ma route
Alizee - Blonde
Fergie - L.A.Love (la la)
Вася Обломов - ИМХО
Ariana Grande, Zedd - Break Free
Лучший вирусняк культурный феномен
Nicki Minaj - Anaconda
Егор Крид - Самая Самая
A-Dessa - Женщина, я не танцую
MBAND - Она вернeтся
Sia - Chandelier
Лучшее малобюджетное, минималистичное видео
Kylie Minogue - I Was Gonna Cancel
Shura - Touch
Sophie Ellis-Bextor - Runaway Daydreamer
Tori Amos, Natashya Hawley - Promise
Юта - Кстати
Лучшее мокрое, водное видео
SoMo - Ride
G-Eazy - Let's Get Lost
Mariah Carey - You're Mine (Eternal)
iamamiwhoami - hunting for pearls
L'One - Океан
Лучшее городское, асфальтное видео
L'One - Бери своё
Phillip Phillips - Raging Fire
Проект Увечье - Стрижка
ОУ74 - Вандализмо
Анита Цой - Мой воздух, моя любовь
Лучшее природное, пейзажное видео
L'One - Океан
iamamiwhoami - the last dancer
Bruce Springsteen - Hunter Of Invisible Game
Andreas Bourani - Auf anderen Wegen
Пицца - На Всю Планету Земля
Лучшее ретро, трибьют прошлым десятилетиям
Chromeo - Old 45's
Kimbra - Miracle
Charli XCX - Break The Rules
Kylie Minogue - I Was Gonna Cancel
Walk the Moon - Shut Up and Dance
Лучшее ЛГБТ видео
Shura - Touch
Avicii - Addicted To You
RuPaul - Sissy That Walk
Mark Forster - Flash mich
Kiesza - Giant In My Heart
Лучшее молодежное видео
Charli XCX - Break The Rules
Noize MC - Влиятельные Покровители
Павел Фахртдинов - Играй (2014 Studio Link)
Charusha - 16
Example - Kids Again
Лучшее пожилое видео
Lana Del Rey - Shades Of Cool
Tony Bennett - Sophisticated Lady (Cheek to Cheek Live)
Pink Floyd - Louder Than Words
Lil Dicky - Lemme Freak
How to Dress Well - Repeat Pleasure
Лучшее патриотичное видео
Вася Обломов - Письмо Санта-Клаусу
L'One - Бери своё
Ленинград - Патриотка
Баста, Смоки Мо, Елена Ваенга - Каменные цветы
Кристина Орбакайте - Московская Осень
Лучший анимационный клип
Weird Al Yankovic - Word Crimes
Иван Дорн - Мишка виновен
The Roots - When The People Cheer (Lyric Video)
Кристина Орбакайте - Московская Осень
Foster The People - Pseudologia Fantastica
Лучший документальный клип
Austin Mahone - Secret
Вася Обломов - Доброта
Нигатив - 222
Betty Who - Heartbreak Dream
G-Eazy - These Things Happen
Лучшее акустик видео
Andreas Bourani - Auf anderen Wegen (Akustisch)
Фидель - Не буду бояться (акустическая версия)
Sayaf, Dimaestro - Беглец (Акустич эффект #8)
Егор Крид - Надо Ли (Акустика)
One Direction - Night Changes (Acoustic)
Лучшее концертное, лайв видео
Eminem, Rihanna - The Monster (2014 MTV Movie Awards Live)
Sia - Chandelier (Live at Trailblazers 2014 LOGO)
Триада, Пицца - Я тебя не люблю (Lookin Rooms, 10/10/2014)
FKA twigs - Two Weeks (Live on KEXP)
Tony Bennett - Sophisticated Lady (Cheek to Cheek Live)
Лучшая пародия
Weird Al Yankovic - Tacky (Parody of Pharrell's Happy)
Shakira - Can't Remember to Forget You (Parody Key of Awesome #83)
Katy Perry - Dark Horse (Parody Key of Awesome #85)
Katy Perry - Dark Horse (Parody Bart Baker)
Nicki Minaj - Anaconda (Parody Bart Baker)
Лучший кавер
T-killah - Привет как дела (Леонид Нерушенко Cover)
Kiesza - What Is Love (Haddaway Cover)
Betty Who - Love Me Harder (Ariana Grande Cover)
Andie Case - Jealous (Nick Jonas Cover)
Stephen Cornwell - Superheroes (The Script cover)
Лучший клип саундтрек видео
Ellie Goulding - Beating Heart (from Divergent 1)
Janelle Monae - What Is Love (from Rio 2)
Gavin DeGraw - You Got Me (from Dolphin Tale 2)
Alicia Keys, Kendrick Lamar - It’s On Again (from The Amazing Spider-Man 2)
Lorde - Yellow Flicker Beat (from The Hunger Games 3)
Лучшая русификация интерпретация, полезный благородный ремейк
Сергей Лазарев - 7 цифр
Quest Pistols Show - Санта Лючия
Джиган - Хочу быть с тобой
Серёга - Твой любимый клоун
Пицца - На Всю Планету Земля
Лучшее лирик видео
Weird Al Yankovic - Word Crimes
Porter Robinson - Sad Machine (Lyric Video)
Katy Perry - Birthday (Lyric Video)
Tove Lo - Talking Body (Lyric Video)
Kylie Minogue - Into the Blue (Official Lyrics Video)
Лучший тизер, трейлер
Kylie Minogue - Into The Blue - Video Teaser 01.02.2014
Kylie Minogue - Into The Blue - Video Teaser 02.02.2014
Jennifer Lopez - Booty [Teaser]
Katy Perry - Dark Horse (Music Video Trailer)
Quest Pistols Show - Санта Лючия (teaser)
Лучший Behind-the-Scenes
Shakira, Rihanna - Can't Remember To Forget You (Behind The Scenes)
Kylie Minogue - Making of Into the Blue (Video)
L'One - Документальный фильм о съёмках клипа Океан
G-Eazy - Behind The Scenes - I Mean It (R&R)
Kylie Minogue - Sexercize Exclusive behind the scenes
Лучшая стилизация
Coldplay - Magic
Lana Del Rey - Ultraviolence
Charli XCX - Breaking Up
You & Me - Break the Cycle
Ben Khan - Youth
Лучшая хореография
Sia - Chandelier
Kylie Minogue - Sexercize
Влад Соколовский - Всё возможно
Christine and The Queens - Saint Claude
Quest Pistols Show - Санта Лючия
Лучшие визуальные эффекты
Christine and The Queens - Saint Claude
DJ Snake, Lil Jon - Turn Down for What
Lil Dicky - Lemme Freak
Katy Perry - Dark Horse
Elvira T - Ледяная
Лучший оператор
Klangkarussell - Netzwerk (Falls Like Rain)
L'One - Океан
Kylie Minogue - Into The Blue
Sia - Chandelier
Christine and The Queens - Saint Claude
Лучшие костюмы
Taylor Swift - Blank Space
Ленинград - Патриотка
Black M - Sur ma route
Kylie Minogue - Into The Blue
Katy Perry - Dark Horse
Лучший грим, прически
Black M - Sur ma route
Katy Perry - Birthday
RuPaul - Sissy That Walk
Coldplay - Magic
Lil Dicky - Lemme Freak
Лучшая работа художника-постановщика, декорации, арт дизайн
Katy Perry - This Is How We Do
Nicki Minaj - Anaconda
Christine and The Queens - Saint Claude
DJ Snake, Lil Jon - Turn Down for What
Avicii - Addicted To You
Лучший монтаж
Sia - Chandelier
Kylie Minogue - Into The Blue
DJ Snake, Lil Jon - Turn Down for What
Taylor Swift - Blank Space
Christine and The Queens - Saint Claude
Лучший звук
Ariana Grande, Zedd - Break Free
Stromae - ta fete
Lil Dicky - Lemme Freak
Chromeo - Old 45's
Анита Цой - Мой воздух, моя любовь
Лучший монтаж звука
Lykke Li - Gunshot
Azealia Banks - Heavy Metal And Reflective
Avicii - Addicted To You
Иван Дорн - Мишка виновен
Nicki Minaj - The Pinkprint Movie
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