#sara.amara2

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— SETTING: the mall ; tuesday evening — AVAILABILITY: closed starter for AMARA OBI | ( @amaraobi )

"...I mean, don't get me wrong..." Sara began, chewing softly on the inside of her cheek as she watched people walk past them at the mall. Apparently, Black Friday frenzy was still a thing, even on the following week. Yay, capitalism? "...but are you sure you want to go on a honeymoon trip with your ex?" Being friends first with Omar, and now, having tackled this friendship with Amara, Sara didn't feel weird to ask this.

Even if she didn't have feelings for her ex-husband anymore, it would still be weird to go on a trip with him... imagine still having lingering feelings for the other? In that case, it was Omar. He was the one who had admitted still caring about his ex like that. "Red would look amazing on you, by the way." The short-haired woman said, holding a pair of a two-piece up for Amara to see.

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"That's fair." Sara granted with a nod. They were both good people... they deserved to know if there was still love left between them. "You guys deserve the truth, and that is something that no one except yourselves can grant each other." There were times where healing was a painful process, but Sara could only hope that, for both Amara's and Omar's sakes, there was still something there worth being saved.

It made her heart ache a little, as she thought about the relationships in her life that hadn't worked out the way she would have wanted them to, and, as transparent as Sara could be, she tried not to let it show to her friend.

"Please, you don't have to thank me." The petite brunette smiled as she shook her head and waved her hand in the air. "That's what friends are for, right?" And Sara was one hell of a fiercely loyal friend. "Ha! I'm definitely looking forward to all the juicy details. Most of all, I'll be dying over here in the cold, while you have fun in the Maldives." As she chuckled, the brunette wrapped one arm around Amara's. "Do you feel like having some coffee?" / @amaraobi

Amara wanted to know the opinion of someone else because her own emotions and broken heart clouded what was smartest and best for her. A war between her heart and her head. "I don't know that it's that simple right now. I guess the whole trip is a means to figure out if there's still something there beyond the pain and hurt that we've caused each other." The broken trust was a big issue for both of them and they'd need to figure out if it could be rectified it after everything. Maybe that was the first step she needed to take.

Nodding her head, the girl tucked hair behind her ear and decided that she owed it to herself to give it a real try, but also to know when to release her hold on something that could never be. "They do say that the best way to get over someone is to get under another person. I'll take that under consideration if things don't work out. I don't know that seven days will fix anything but maybe I'll meet my next husband on the trip." Either way, she wanted to be open and welcome whatever came with open arms. Smiling when Sara cupped her face, she placed her own on her friend's sides and gave her an affectionate squeeze. "Thank you for talking me off the ledge. One thing is certain, whatever happens, it's going to be interesting and I'll be certain to give you all the juicy details when I'm back."

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Sara wasn't the biggest judge of how people lived their lives, but she wasn't entirely sure if she would have done the same as Omar and Amari were doing with their honeymoon trip if she and Hyun Woo were in their shoes... but then again, she and her ex had been in a completely different situation than her friends'. "I know, I know... at least you guys will be able to have fun, right?" She smiled, trying to remain positive about the whole situation. "Maybe that's what you guys need... to talk things through." As the romantic that Sara was, she wished there was still hope for this love.

"No buying things with him in mind." Sara shook her head as she placed the bikini hanger back on the rack and laced her arm around Amara's, gently pulling her away from that area. "You're going on a beautiful trip. He just happens to be there, you know? Besides... have you seen yourself? You'd look amazing wearing a paper bag." A light chuckle escaped her lips as she allowed her gaze wander along the aisles of clothing. "What else do you need?" / @amaraobi

Amara looked down at her feet as she considered her feelings. For the most part, she'd been trying to avoid feeling or overthinking the whole honeymoon decision because she'd think herself into a panic attack at being stuck on an island with him. "I don't know that it's a great idea but I think there isn't any other option. It's complicated to switch the tickets off to someone else such short notice and I'm almost wondering if it'll help us either close the door or figure out if we even want that."

As for her, she didn't know what she wanted or felt towards him. For a long time, she had just discarded the thought whenever it threatened to come up. "I have a really nice red bikini that I had my eye on." Amara said as she pinched the bridge of her nose. "I'm buying items with him in mind and its such a bad thing because I'm not trying to impress him. It's not why I'm going."

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"Look... I'm not the best person to be asking these things, nor to be taking relationship advice from, but..." The brunette chewed on her bottom lip for a moment, before continuing. "If it's crystal clear that you won't work out, then maybe the best thing you do to each other is to let the other go." Sara knew well that sometimes, love just wasn't enough to keep a relationship alive. She knew that holding onto a feeling, whether it was one-sided or not, sometimes, it was a path to destruction, and she knew a thing or two about self destruction and how it could end up eating one alive.

She didn't want the same to happen with Amara or Omar. "I'm not saying to jump on the first bed you see, though." She pointed out. "I'm saying that, if you two have tried, even in this trip, and it didn't work out, then maybe it's time to let the other go." Sara then pressed her lips together, hoping she hadn't said anything that would hurt either of them, because while she was beginning to forge a friendship with Amara, she too, loved Omar's friendship. "Sometimes, knowing when to let go is the best thing you can do for one another and for the years you've spent together." She smiled, reaching to cup Amara's face with both hands. "But most importantly, you don't have to do anything you're not comfortable doing, you know?" She said that while looking into Amara's eyes, then dropped her hands to her sides, keeping that small smile on her lips. "It's the Maldives, after all. You can just enjoy some time in the sun." / @amaraobi

"Sleeping with someone while we're on a trip together." Certainly she wouldn't be so rude to flaunt it in his face or invite someone into the room they shared. "Would it be insensitive to go to someone's room even if it's clear that we won't work out. Don't you think I should at least wait until we're back here?" Especially since they had seats next to each other on the plane ride back which would only be awkward. "No, you're right. I deserve to get clothes and dress hot for myself, even if it isn't in paradise but just for a summer here."

"Maybe wait until I come back because I may not recommend that you go on vacation with anyone you have no intention to be on speaking terms." Whether that be exes or old friends. But she hoped that she was wrong and maybe it would be a step in the right direction to figuring out their future; whether that be together or apart. "We're going to the maldives. It was a big splurge."

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Sara furrowed her brows in slight confusion at the other's question. "What would?" Maybe Sara was being insensitive, that with being friends with both parties of the couple, but also, maybe she just had been single for so long that she no longer understood how being in a relationship meant? No, that wasn't it. Every couple had their own set of rules, so... "But yes, there's no harm in treating yourself to some nice clothes, right? Besides, summer in Providence Peak isn't half bad. You wouldn't only wear them while on your trip."

Sara looked around, trying to find something nice for her to wear, but given her mood lately, nothing really pleased her. "Maybe I should ask my ex if he would like to take me on a nice trip so we can figure things out, too." She joked. Truth was, there wasn't anything to figure out anymore. They had said their peace, they had gone their different ways, they had lived different lives. They no longer were the in love duo they used to be, and sometimes, Sara even questioned if that had ever happened on his side. "Where are you guys going to go again?" / @amaraobi

Amara was beginning to realize that she had been too deep into her own mind about the trip they'd finally settled on taking together. After days of playing out all the scenarios, she'd decided to jump the gun and try to get ahead of all the ways things could go wrong. The need for control had always been a bad trait of hers but she hadn't realize it was what she was doing until it was pointed out to her.

"Thinner and light." She agreed and added as she moved a few items, pulling one out of the rack before returning it when she disliked the color. "Do you think that would be bad?" Perhaps Omar would do the same but it seemed a little hurtful to be buying something in case she met someone else on the trip. "You think so?" It wasn't like she hadn't done a version of what Sara was saying in town already.

"Just because I buy something doesn't mean I'll use it or that it'll happen. There's no harm in being prepared for anything."

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Pressing her lips together, Sara thought that they should have had that conversation before going on said trip. Omar was a friend, Amara was on her way of becoming one, so it honestly hurt the young mother to see the estranged duo hurting themselves this way. Maybe it was her protective, motherly way talking. Maybe, just maybe, it was some sort of hidden bitterness because her own marriage hadn't worked itself out despite Sara (and Hyun Woo) claiming to love each other very much.

Sometimes, love just isn't enough, she came to realize.

And maybe that also made herself slightly cynical, but Sara didn't want to be that person. She didn't want to lose her faith in love, even if she had never had any luck with it.

"Okay. Something thin and comfortable." Sara pressed her lips together one more time. Dark hues scanned the racks until she found the sleepwear session, and pointed towards the general direction. "You should also get yourself something sexier to sleep in, just in case you find yourself in some hotter company." The young mother teased, wiggling her brows at Amara. "You're young, you're hot, you're on vacation in a tropical country. There's bound to have a lucky person out there to be in your company." / @amaraobi

Fun wasn't the first thing that she'd thought about when going on a trip with her ex-fiance. Awkwardness, longing, sadness had been the first but hopefully they could resolve some of their problems at the beginning in the hope of having something resembling a good time. "I hope so. It's going to be too nice to be miserable but we've got a lot to talk about. Maybe I should have that conversation in the airport so it doesn't ruin the trip." But with them sitting beside each other on a plane, it would make for an awkward flight. "I think so. It's been long overdue."

Watching as she returned the bikini, she let out a nod and a smile. "This is why I needed to have someone to talk me out of being too much in my head." It was also nice to be complimented and reminded that she was a catch. Even if it felt like her love life was in the dumps now that she was older and single, having to start all over again. "I need something comfortable to sleep in, mainly. I tend to sleep in a shirt and nothing else so I'm looking for something thin and comfortable."

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