#say yes to heaven in bg for 2 hours

[koitarou]

|| fatherhood. ||

girldad!kiyoomi x fem!reader; wc: 1.2k of pure struggle; cw: reader is not present in the picture, imagine whatever happened to her, mid 50s kiyoomi, sad ish?, im thawing out cut me some slack, kiyoomi is a gorl dad missing you a/n: fuck you kevin hart, i wanted to watch a comedy movie and not BAWL. alexa play daddy issues

Kiyoomi guesses it’s been a while since he has missed you. 

Kokomi takes up every minute, every second he has to offer— not that he minds it. Maybe sometimes he hates it, hates being so preoccupied with her that forgets to miss you. The last thing he wants to do is forget you, even when he is old enough that his already greying hairs start to fall out.

You’ve been gone for long enough that he has forgotten what you felt like in his arms, how you smelled when he hugged you close to his chest. He hates that his senses are giving up on him.

But he hasn’t forgotten everything about you. He hasn’t forgotten the way you rolled your eyes at him whenever you disagreed, how you always latched onto his arm whenever you got scared watching a horror movie, how you kissed his forehead twice for each mole he has— because she does the same.

Kiyoomi is glad to have Kokomi in his life because everytime he looks at her, he sees you. It’s not a stretch when someone asks if he misses you and he says no, because he never will. He might forget what you feel like but he will never forget you, the you who gave him the best gift in the world, his daughter, his baby. 

The more she grows up, the more she resembles you. As he grows older, he sees Kokomi growing older and it’s bittersweet. He’s proud of her for everything she’s achieved in her life and proud of himself for bringing up his amazing daughter. It was tough at first, balancing his career and her, but with everyone's help, it was possible. It takes a village to raise a child, but what good is a village if it has no head. That’s what he felt like when he was just starting out, he felt lost without you to help him. He had his team, his village, to support him through thick and thin but he used to miss you. 

As the team grew and so did your daughter, he realised everything was indeed good. He feels proud of them as well, Atsumu, Bokuto, Hinata, Komori, everyone. 

He likes to believe you would’ve been proud too— of Kokomi, of the team. 

But he especially misses you today. Seeing your daughter off to college, he remembers your face glowing when you used to talk about milestones of your baby’s life and her going to college.

“Kiyo, she’s gonna be amazing I know it.”

“Yes baby, she will be,” “You have to lay off her though.”

“What”

“I know you'll be crying the day she goes to college and fussing all over her. Ugh, especially with boys”

“No, I won’t. Except boys, I don’t trust those hormone ridden monsters”

“Of course you don't, darling. Because you never were one, right? You were a toddler and straight up went to being an adult.”

And then you rolled your eyes at him the same way Kokomi is doing right now, “Dad, I’m going to be honest with you, I can’t swear off boys. I just can’t–”

“Yes, you can. Promise me.”

“Dad—

“Promise me that you’ll be my little girl forever, never leaving me, ever.”

“We’re literally standing in front of my dorm room. You’re gonna have to leave at some point.” She narrows her eyes at him, still holding onto his hand.

He notices that. There were a lot of things he saw of you in her but she was his daughter too, he notices the way she’s picking at her nails, a nervous habit she’s has had ever since she was 5. She doesn’t want him to leave, not with the grip she has on his hand. 

“You know I am here for you, right?”

“Yes, dad and I love you too.” Never good at words but they both managed, understood each other even though you weren’t there to do the talking for him.

“He’s bein’ mean again, y/n!”

“Tsumu you know he doesn’t mean that, he appreciates the thought you put into this gift.” “Yeah, I’m surprised he could think at all”

“Kiyo!– Tsumu, he means it’s great, he’s just affectionately dumb.”

He takes in a deep breath, the tingling sensation at the back of his throat feels familiar and he lets out a chuckle because he’s really going to cry now. Standing at her dorm room’s door, his heart feels heavy, and he’s looking at her now, ready to start a new chapter of her life, all on her own.

He cups her face and plants a kiss on her forehead, “One for me–” He kisses her temple, his hand holding the back of her head as she reaches out for a hug, “–and one for mom.”

She’s holding onto him tightly now, her fists balled up with the back of his jacket balled up in her fists, she mumbles, “I’m gonna miss you so much, dad. Promise to visit me, please?” 

“Every weekend, Kokomi, I promise.” He smiles and wraps his arms around her, cradling her head as he lets his jacket soak up her tears. He feels happy and he knows you would’ve been happy too and that’s all he needs to know.

Kokomi starts to draw back but he tightens his grip on her, and with a shaky voice, he whispers, “Give your old man a few more minutes more, please sweetheart.” 

Kokomi hums and they both stand there silently, until she breaks the silence with a ‘hey dad?’ and this time Kiyoomi hums in response, pulling away to look at her and finally let go.

“Mom would’ve been really proud of you.” 

Oh.

Kiyoomi doesn’t realise he is crying until he tastes the salty tears in his mouth and Kokomi wipes his cheeks, “And I am proud too. One more thing–” With a smile as she goes on her tippy toes to kiss his moles, “–One from me and one from mom.” 

Kiyoomi guesses it’s fine he didn’t miss you a lot, he never had to.

“And dad?”

“You weren’t serious about the ‘here every weekend’ thing though, right?”

“How much do you wanna bet at least one of your uncles will be here every weekend?”

Kokomi begins to whine in defiance to his response but is interrupted by a wailing Atsumu rushing towards them with Hinata, Bokuto and Komori in hot pursuit.

“Our baby’s all grown up!” Atsumu cries from behind Kiyoomi, sniffling and pushing him out of the way as he rushes to bring Kokomi into a bear hug and pats her head rather desperately, “Don’t forget about us, yeah?? And don’t forget us, we’re all here for ya. Also boy’s are disgustin’, ya won’t like ‘em anyways–”

“Why’s everyone obsessed with tha-”

In a flash, she’s squashed between 4 middle aged men bawling their eyes out and preaching they’re thoughts and views and promising to lay their lives down for her as she starts tearing up with them, telling them to take care of each other as well as her father since she won’t be there everyday.

Looking at this scene, Kiyoomi thinks his village did just fine. Plus he guesses it’s okay he didn’t get to miss you a lot because he believes it’s better to never not stop thinking about someone than miss them.

And he thinks– no he knows, you’re proud of him.

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[sungbeam]

xnonie present !! (i don't think i told u, but u should sing it as "ateez present" whenever u read that btw 😁🫶)

me when ur watching werewolf at night while i'm chilling in ur ask inbox: 🫂 BUT DW BEAM! i say i love horror movies but i scream like those flying goats in love & thunder when there's a jumpscare ✋️☹️

THE ENDING FOR SHE HULK IS BONKERS. i've yet to watch it but i'm okay w/ spoilers so i saw some gifs of it from a few tumblrs... SO THE SPACESHIP AT THE BEGINNING THAT CAUSED EVERYTHING WAS... the baby mama??!! 😭😭 HULK IS WILD. SHE HULK IS WILD. MATT MURDOCK LOOKS LIKE A DAD GOING TO A BARBECUE. AND THE MULTIVERSE IS OPENING UP MORE BY THE MINUTE.

btw i just saw ur response to my other ask & omg ur making kwan cry?!?! beam they literally have a song saying they don't wanna do that how could u ☹️☹️☹️ BUT NEVER FEAR i am one of the biggest consumers & writers of angst & all that dark gritty stuff, so i'll be thoroughly pleased. crying by the end, but thoroughly pleased 🤞😀

also MY picks??? WELL for the ones i gave u, it would beeeee

slow burn/matt, e2l/druig, fake dating/quicksilver (from any universe tbh b/c it can go in different directions from either of them)

theeeen for kpop: slow burn/hanji, slow burn/parkji, and fake dating/jay 💞💞

my other kpop fandoms are... a lot shdksjd but mainly skz, svt, cravity, enha, nct... basically a lot of the groups u write for 💀

as for ggs?? everglow, aespa, twice, rv, nmixx, & a whole lot more i can't name rn LMAO 😭

if u wanna give me an sb/e2l/fd from the bgs i mentioned then that would be cool too LOL

xnonie ur early LOL JKJK (ﾉ´∀｀*) i always go :DDDDD when i see and read ur messages (omg that's practically how i've been reading it in my head anyhow 🤩🤩)

BAHHAHAHAHAHAH DONT MAKE ME LAUGH IN PUBLIC NOT THE GOATS FROM L+T 😭😭😭😭😭😭 im not much of a screamer, i'm more of a sharp intake of breath, tenser-upper, hide behind a pillow type of gal. my brother always tries to scare me cuz he screams really loud when i sneak up on him and i don't, but i really can't *scream* BUT WE CAN HOLD EACH OTHER DURING WBN!! apparently it's only like an hour long?? hm

SHHUUUSH ITS SO FUNNY HOW WILD THE HULKS R 😭😭😭 LIKE UR KIDDING ??!?! OMG I WAS GONNA COMMENT ON MATT FKN MURDOCK'S VIBE AT THE END SKFBKEJF DAD GOING TO A BBQ SO TRUE (´Д⊂ヽ W THE GLASSES TOO BAHAHHAHAH idk bro i kinda vibe w the couple cuz they're like,,, equals? its funny how they've made matt the "low-key enemies 2 lovers, eventual match made in heaven" role that's just so funny to me like nevermind his powers, we'll make him look cool and then he's just there to look pretty 🤩🤩🤩

LMAO ulgo shipji anha who ???? they WILL cry in this one ;))))) that's just what i do. i love making men cry 😁😁😁😁😁 (lmao out of context this sounds so weird) WAIT A DAMN UR A WRITER TOO O_O PLS OMG AND AN ANGST ENJOYER WE LOVE TO SEE IT!!! i'm wondering if i,, , , know u and/or ur content hmph but ik ur on anon for a reason so i will respect that !! if i ever pry tho, pls do put me in my place bc i am incredibly nosy :'D but yes, i agree that angst makes me cry, but i like feeling something 😔😔😔😔

i'd cry if e2l w druig tbh like his MIND GAMES???? i would literally not survive and he would know that i find him painstakingly attractive 🤕🤕🤕 it would just be unfair.

ooh woah cravity !! i've come across a few people who stan them, so u can def suggest some music from them !!

OOP HAVE U LISTENED TO SEULGIS 28 REASONS CUZ SHES SOOOO HAWWWWT 🤌🏻🤌🏻🤌🏻 my faves rn r anywhere but home and dead man runnin !

OOOOOOOOH YES PLS SB/FD/E2L W HMMMM SVT JOSH/SKZ CHAN/NCT MARK?

[uniformbravo]

aaaa @fixion tagged me in a thing for “10 songs you’re listening to a lot at the moment” (im just trusting u that that’s what it’s called) so im gonna do that!! bc i love talking abt myself + i have literally been waiting for an excuse to share my music Lmfao Thank

(ps @ frank read the tags hkdgjlksd)

(this might technically be is absolutely more than 10 songs but like shh?? just shh)

both osomatsu-san ops theyre so fucking good?? here they are OP1 and OP2 pls listen to them im mlove th -

literally the entire rest of the osomatsu-san soundtrack ok i kfkigk gn i kNOw thats like 80 songs bUT I JUST,,,,,,,,,, here’s a couple samples lkdfjkdg Track 38 and Track 7 are some faves but i promise the whole thing is good i die, heres a playlist ok if u need smth to put on in the bg i highly recommend it....,.,..,,, -

so many songs/covers by Eve?? i’ve been listening to a lot of eve lately ok i’ll give my top three: デーモンダンストーキョー あの娘シークレット シャルル  it’s so hard to stick w/ just three tho seriously go listen to the rest ahhhhh (i love the art style in the music vids too?? like a lot??? so pay attention to that tbh) -

ピースサイン / Peace Sign - Kenshi Yonezu (bnha’s 2nd op) i got obsessed with this song & now i have like a million covers saved jesus christ save me (coincidentally, eve also did a cover of this one) -

砂の惑星 / Sand Planet - HACHI/ DUNE feat. Hatsune Miku i have a million covers of this one too lolllllll ((including eve’s)) check out this piano cover tho (it’s safe to assume that any time i find a song i like i’ve immediately gone searching for piano covers it’s in my blood) -

speaking of piano, anything by marasy8 is so good oh my god they’re literally incredible here’s one of my favorites by them i love putting their longer vids and streams on in the bg while i work on stuff (it’s always fun to randomly recognize some of the songs lol) -

this song was stuck in my head for like a week straight god her voice is soooo good (epilepsy warning for the vid tho) ((she also did an amazing cover of Imagination from haikyuu which still gives me goosebumps, that’s how i initially found her)) -

Sincerely, Me from Dear Evan Hansen LITERALLY how could i forget this until now i just had it on repeat for like 3 days straight???? it’s the catchiest fucking song i’ve ever heard in my life (nsfw warning) -

LambSoars: these guys are so cute omg they do a lot of covers so i have like all of their haikyuu stuff saved, my favorites are Mashi・Mashi and Heaven and Earth (honorable mention Peace Sign bc i already talked about that song earlier but i loooove this cover) -

You Say Run from the bnha s1 soundtrack uuuuugghhh what a phenomenal track like the whole ost is fun but this song is The Jam™

am i allowed to put a bonus section for piano stuff even though i already put piano stuff in the main “””10”””

this is the bonus “Im Trash And I Desperately Want To Share My Music With People” section

Q feat. Otomachi Una - i found this one a while ago which is why i didn’t put it in the 10 but im still rly into it ok -

literally every op/ed for little witch academia ok they’re all good they’re all perfect here’s a vid with all four of them go go go (i cannot believe it’s still up tbh) -

ok so this is an hour long mix of caravan palace songs so it’s more of a “put it on in the bg” kind of thing but i swear to fucking god. i fucking swear. i was just gonna put lone digger bc that’s my fucking jam always and forever but this mix starts with that song anyway so just have the whole goddamn thigng igmg fucking ((this post is beyond out of control but i physically cannot mention lone digger and not also bring up Lone Digger 100 (epilepsy warning), my very favorite mp100 amv that i have lovingly watched like 50000 times and i die literally every time ok gggby e)) -

the skill in this piano cover of osomatsu op2 is overwhelming i’ve never felt so intimidated in my life, just like. the thing where they play 2 overlapping melodies at once what the fuC k (also their cover of the other op Ugh) -

this would be another thing to put on in the bg bc it’s 30 min long but it’s a compilation of (mostly) piano covers of assorted tracks from the osomatsu ost, it is v nice and the pianist is super skilled (i especially love the last one because it’s Six Same Faces (ed1) which is one of those songs that i could never even begin to comprehend translating to piano but they fuckin did it and it sounds amazing) -

we’re back to peace sign again, this is my fave piano cover lol (love love love this pianist as always pls check out his other stuff) -

this piano cover of the one punch man op i cannot fucking believe (also the actual opm op jffucukgign just taKe it) -

ok ok ok fuCK FUKC i wasn’t gonna do it i ALMOST made it all the way through without doing this buT IM CAVING OK 99 BY MOB CHOIR THE MOB PSYCHO 100 OP GJSKDGFKGD i havent even been listening to it that much lately so there’s literally no excuse for me putting it here but it still goes hard as hell it’s still such a fucking timeless masterpiece im still complete garbage dumpster trash for this song and this show im crying jjusst take it, take it from my filthy fucking hands im gdj kjkgjdghkdjgskjdjflsd kjlak ljskdjg gk

ANYWAY I THINK IM GONNA STOP THERE LOL SORRY I HAVE LEGITIMATELY NO SELF-CONTROL IT’S EMBARRASSING.................. i listen to a lot of shit oK

also i get most/all of my music through youtube so i hope its ok that instead of song titles/artists it was this giant mess of rambling descriptions & video links ahhh

but yeah holy shit uhh tagging people. yes. dont worry abt it if u dont want to but @dolichomorph, @noonediesalone, @cry-beeby, @creepyjirachi, @cloversion, @docnoctem, @tender1999, @melleh17, @lancmclain, @thecavalrysqueer

also i havent been online lately so i have no idea who’s already done this so if u have then Whoops

if i didnt tag u specifically but u still wanna do this then just go for it i promise it’s fun, say i tagged u bc i did, this is me tagging u, an indirect ki s sfjkc

good nite

[goldenrenjun]

60 truths tag

@sugaegyc tagged me to do this a while ago but here we are !

1. Nickname(s): Kate 2. Bias: Yoongi <3 3. Blood type:  idk 4. Relationship status: single 5. Birthday: nov 8 6. Zodiac sign: scorpio but not much of it is applicable ,,,  7. Pronouns: She/her 8. Hair length: medium/short its gross n im cutting it tomorrow 9. Height: 5′2″ 157.48cm 10. A crush: Not sure if i’ve had a single crush but i lov yoongi n i don know whats going on 11. What do you like about yourself: I’m pretty intentional person 12. Right or left handed: Right 13. List of three favourite colours: white / gray / peach 14. Right now eating: nothing  15. Right now drinking: tea !!! 16. I’m about to: watch bon voyage n go to sleep 17. Listening to: rain (a bop especially bc that track from yoongis mixtape is in the bg) 18. Kids: nope 19. Get married: nope 20. Recent phone call: my dad 21. Have you ever dated someone twice: I'd probably have to date someone once first 22. Been cheated on: nope 23. Kissed someone and regretted it: its not rly a fair question if i haven’t / dont want to kiss nyone 24. Lost someone special: no 25. Been depressed: nope 26. Been drunk and thrown up: i mean ,, i dont drink so no 27. Had glasses or contacts: no 28. Had sex on a first date: these questions are rly overestimating me like ,,, id have to want to go on a date first 29. Broken someone’s heart: no 30. Turned someone down: no lmao 31. Cried when someone died: nope 32. Fallen for a friend: no but i get friend crushes all the time ?? like a regular crush but its exclusively platonic 33. In the last year have you made a new friend: yeah ? 34. Fallen out of love: no 35. Laughed until you cry: all the time !!! 36. Met someone who changed you: yes ? but not in a positive sense 37. Found out who your true friends were: no 38. Found out someone was talking about you: nope ! 39. Lips or eyes: eyes 40. Hugs or kisses: i only rly hug julie but yes to hugs 41. Shorter or taller: shorter ? is this abt romantic shit ,, theres a statistic somewhere ,, every inch over 5′ decreases the life expectancy by 1.3 years 42. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous i guess but idrk what this means? 43. Sensitive or loud: sensitive catch me crying 24/7  44. Hookup or relationship: uh ,, neither pls 45. First best friend: probably amber ?  46. Surgery: none 47. Sports I joined: a bunch when i was little but none of them were serious ... 48. Do you believe in yourself: i guess ? 49. Miracles: nope 50. Love at first sight: as much as i wanna say yoongi i remember telling my friend how i felt “emotionally detached” from yoongi ,,,,, nyways my past self ,,, cancelled  51. Heaven: nope 52. Do you have any pets: my asshole cat nibbles  53. Do you want to change your name: no idrc 54. What did you do for your last birthday: i went to the gardens with my family ! 55. What time did you wake up today: 3am & then when my alarm went off at 6 and then at 8 for real 56. What were you doing last night at midnight: sleeping 57. Something you can’t wait for: the BBMAs 58. Last time you saw your mom: an hour ago 59. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: not to be emo but when will life grant me some cool ass friends who'll do dumb shit w me and also hug me 60. What’s getting on your nerves: when ppl make noises when they eat i hate it so much

ty for tagging me ! n .. thanks for readign if nyone read this ? im catching up on tags so im not gonna tag anyone but feel free to do it n tag me if u wanna !