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Sorry I disappear and reappear im just a cryptid idk what to tell you

[lanajvmeson]

emerges frm a field of corn slinking in w a faux mink shrug dangling around my elbows n a strand of wheat between my teeth..... farmer eleganza.... hlo! my name’s nai. i am bt a humble ghoul arrived to haunt ur home. 23 n she/her pronouns n i live in manchester. fun fact my friend’s neighbour used to b harry styles PE teacher. i played delilah yrs ago as carlson young (n even cara delevingne at one point what the fk) which feels so weird n ancient to me nw bt i missed her a lot so decided to spruce her bk to life.... ANYWAY delilah’s pinterest is here n i’ll jst leap right into things without further ado

(NICOLA PELTZ, CIS-FEMALE) - Have you seen DELILAH ASTOR? LILAH is in HER JUNIOR year. The POLITICAL SCIENCE MAJOR is 21 years old & is a CAPRICORN. People say SHE is BEGUILING, BLUNT, CUNNING and APATHETIC. Rumors say they’re a member of CALLOWAY. I heard from the gossip blog that SHE WAS IN A REHABILITATION CENTRE IN SWITZERLAND INSTEAD OF DOING CHARITY WORK LIKE HER SOCIAL MEDIA CLAIMED.  (NAI. 23. GMT. SHE/HER.) 

HISTORY

their family is kind of modelled off the sedgwick family like old money n pretty dysfunctional bt all abt keeping up a seamless facade of perfection... with a pinch of the kennedy’s in there. her dad’s high up in politics n his dad before tht ws in politics n it’s just a long prestigious line of clones in expensive suits as far as delilah’s concerned. her dad i picture as like.... nate archibald’s grandfather in gossip girl.... personality wise.

for as long as she cn remember she’s found this cookie cutter white picket fence life boring. stifling. to delilah it’s like being hemmed in a stuffy room n forbidden frm opening a window. it’s all vry Rich People Problems i wnt lie bt <3 she feels everlastingly bored. All The Time. plus her family hs always been a focal point fr tabloids etc which doesn’t help this feeling of not rly Living but just being the focus of a spectator sport. they’re lowkey a bit of a household name so they get a bunch of scrutiny n......... well. new bullet point alert! cue a powerpoint transition

(self harm & depression tw) frm being young delilah always knew there ws sort of. a white noise inside her where everyone else saw a technicolour movie screen. it rly hit her at like 12 i’d say as she was jst coasting towards adolescence. it ws pretty obvious frm her behaviour i’d say bt her parents only became Aware it ws a problem when she stuck a fork into a socket n short circuited the power in the house. she got shocked unconscious n when she woke up she told the in house dr they’d called (to keep it under wraps frm outsiders) tht she just.... couldn’t feel anything. she’d been reading frankenstein (she’s always liked gothic literature) n thought it’d zap her to life like the monster

her parents got her on medication n figured that wld fix everything. they didn’t like to talk abt things and that was that. it wasn’t to be mentioned again

delilah’s parents r just very.... sterile. family is abt appearances. they’ll be all smiles n flowing conversation when ppl are around bt it feels like being an actress n reading frm a script. being a toy in a dollhouse

she had two siblings: an older sister named clara & a younger brother named elijah. clara ws always like.... the Dream daughter. did everything right. amazing grades. america’s sweetheart. LOVED by the press. did sm charity work. elijah was fine/kind of a slacker compared bt coasted by on athletic prowess (captain of the rowing team). delilah hs very much always been the anomaly in this idyllic line-up. middle child effect! altho having said tht she’s always ran w the popular crowd of her age group bc Rich + Pretty = Status. it’s all quite superficial n delilah’s attitude on the matter can b summed up w this photoset. having said tht there was Some merit in constantly being paraded around as “such a pretty thing” bc a few modelling agencies attempted to scout her bt delilah found that boring. she wants to b called brilliant not beautiful. her mother called this her “not playing to the advantages that god gave her”. with a tight-lipped smile and a “god forbid i use my brain”, delilah only disappointed her further <3

(drugs & ed tw) delilah gt pretty heavy into partying fr the sake of trying to Feel something. intense on the drugs front (coke n prescription pills). rarely eating. she got a silver broach of a swan tht she pins to most of her clothes n u can unscrew the swan’s neck n pull it out to reveal a little powder spoon. still wears this today. clara n delilah were always super close n clara wld cover fr her a bunch. making up lies n jst having her back to their parents if they ever asked where she was / she ws in trouble n needed to keep it under wraps. when delilah hd an article in a tabloid pretty mch like this one clara talked their parents dwn frm sending her to a rehabilitation centre in switzerland. they gt it pretty much scorched frm existence bt delilah kept a clipping bc honestly she thought it was funny hw pale her mother went abt it

(car accident & drunk driving & death tw) at a fancy benefit the astors were all attending among 4857925974 uppity families delilah wound up heading off w some of the rich kids n one thing lead to another n a couple of them gt arrested fr a coke scandal. delilah used her phone call to contact clara n fr once clara hd let loose a little n hd something to drink bt still drove to the station to bail delilah out n try n fix her mess bt.... skipped a red light n crashed. she died upon impact.

(hospitalisation & drugs & addiction tw) this made delilah spiral massively obviously.... she clung on by the skin of her teeth fr a while bt she rly was just getting quite out of control doing an extremely excessive amt of coke to get by at this point so her parents actually did.... end up shipping her off to switzerland for rehabilitation. they didn’t tell anyone this tho n as far as ppl were/are aware she was doing charity work with habitat for humanity in trinidad. her parents literally........... hired ppl to take photos of things there n a social media team posted them to her instagram account jst. the most elaborate lie.... it’s a lot.

delilah jst pretty much went along w whatever they said at the facility bt didn’t absorb any of it too much.... she did get sober there bt it was vry much bc she had no other choice rather than a want to......... she even pretended to “find god” while she ws there n memorised bible lines to recite w a coolly detached smile. in her head she ws probably thinking abt hw her mandated therapist cld gladly eat shit and she’d be happy to watch. it was just like.... everyone there was RLY hideously overpaid bt did they actually Care abt their work or patients? debatable. wasn’t the most healing experience thru delilah’s eyes bt... maybe it’d work better if she’d actually opened her mind to it bt anyway...... <3 cornelius fudge voice: she’s back. the dark lord.....

PERSONALITY:

nw tht her history is out of the way i’ll leap like a flea off a shaggy dog’s back into personality! aesthetically she almost ALWAYS wears white/cream. reminds me of the woman in white frm sharp objects. rarely she’ll dabble in silver or gold or like..... vry pale green bt.... always muted tones. usually white or cream. big white sunhats. white sunglasses. white pussybow blouses w a little white skirt n a pearl barrette in her hair. she even smokes white sobranie cigs tht r imports like it’s a lot she’s truly committed to the aesthetic.... paired w like. classic patent mary janes.... she tends to flutter around the place like a silk moth. likes lace too. hs a very put together image n even demeanour like she’s very lithe n graceful n drifts like a ghost which kind of contrasts w... who she is at her core bt in the astor family it’s all abt appearances <3 the only deviation from this is she sometimes wears dark blue mascara once in a blue moon n if ppl comment on this she’s like. idk what ur talking abt? glides away like a ghost in a haunted mansion n is never seen again.

very perceptive. incredibly observant. yrs of early life media training n being born frm politicians means she’s an excellent liar. she knows ppl n knows what makes them tick bt she’ll only use this when necessary. she isn’t a terrible person bt she knows how to b Very mean n will equip this as a weapon shd a situation call fr it. also more prone to lashing out since her sister......... she hs sometimes played chess games socially fr kicks

dark n biting sense of humour. rather frank abt things. VERY ruthless when scorned bt she isn’t particularly?? emotive abt it??? her bf cheated on her once n when he told her she slapped him rly hard in front of sm ppl he knew n then jst walked away. blocked him on literally everything. removed him frm the face of the earth as far as she ws concerned. had him blacklisted frm every event n told ppl they’d be cut too if they continued to associate w him. goodbye sir <3 u are the weakest link <3 needless to say he regretted it <3

very loyal to u until she isn’t. finds it very easy to cut ties if need be. once her trust is broken it is gooooone baby goone.... the trust is Gone. selective in who she cares abt

vry cavalier abt sex. she doesn’t sleep around hugely i dnt think??? bt when she does it isn’t often tht emotionally invested she’ll jst out of the blue very nonchalantly blow out a wisp of smoke n b like. so u want to fuck me then? cool. proceeds to get up as if she’s walking to leave n then looks bk n is like what do ur legs not work? follow me. n leads them somewhere

nothing rly.... moves her particularly. she isn’t very animated. it’s like she jst finds the entire world thoroughly unimpressive. it’s difficult to stimulate excitement from her. it’s like that hugh laurie quote where he realised he had depression bc “boredom is not an appropriate response to exploding cars”.

has a pet swan bk at home she’s named lilith inspired by satan’s offspring. lilith bites ppl if they get close n is honestly an abomination of a bird. delilah finds her funny n throws her bits of croissants sometimes bt even she isn’t immune to her pecks. in some ways they’re similar...... hv a graceful surface appearance / aesthetic bt a darker attitude beneath the surface

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

exes: the ex bf tht cheated on her n she got blacklisted from 94872347 social events cld be a fun thing to explore..... delilah wld be EXTREMELY cold towards him n honestly want him dead. wouldn’t show any shred of caring abt him at all she’s very gd at stoning her emotions n keeping them inside. hasn’t cried since her sister died as an example of how..... withdrawn she is from confessing her innermost thoughts n desires. maybe an ex bf before tht that she rly didn’t take seriously at all..... typically she just isn’t interested/invested in romance she’s vry apathetic abt it all

party friends: those tht run in similar rich kid circles tht she would have smuggled off with at fancy events so they could let loose.......... ppl tht r completely her opposite who she finds interesting bc they represent everything she always wanted outside the oppression of her strict regiment family....... mutual bad influences tht are heavy into drugs n always enable each other...... u name it!

hook-ups: she doesn’t have a HUGE amt of these bt.... maybe a select handful.... some she wld have hooked up w once n never again n just been like >_> if they implied they shd as if it was preposterous n she was thoroughly over it.... some maybe she’d find interesting enough to extend beyond tht...... none she’d invest in if she cld help it altho? maybe someone as an exception to tht rule cld be fun

friends of her sister: (death tw) clara was universally well liked for being rly sweet n well intentioned n she attended yates only two yrs delilah’s senior so she might have some connections here still somehow??? cld be angsty to work with

i won’t lie i’m rly hungry as i write up these wcs so my brain’s going blank n i’m gna have to sprint to get some toast bt <3 roommates, enemies, competitive friendships, resentments, angst, chaos, drama, strife, u name it n i am dwn!!!! hits post n takes off galloping dwnstairs

[moonraccoon-exe]

Hey Coonie, how are you? Hope those surgery wounds are all healed and not bothering you as much. Don't know how long it takes. I am feeling better, had a nice weekend with my family. My sleep is mostly back to normal. I have not much to tell, just wanted to hear from you again, how you've been. Saw that post about your crush and I hope you'll find someone as nice as him who loves you too. -Peridot

PERIDOT BUDDY!!!!!!!!!!!!

*CLINGS TO YOUR HEAD*

PERIDOT BUDDY, HELLO, I AM SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY TO SEE YOU DROP BY AND SO HAPPY TO HEAR FROM YOU AGAIN AND HASDNDF HELLO BUDDY HOW ARE YOU AW I’VE MISSED YOU!! 

Heya, Peridot, buddy!! I-  

*cries*

HI PERIDOT I MISSED YOU! ;A;

I was just considering for the past 2 or so days about saying hi and see if you were around but I procrastinated and didn’t get around to doing it. You were faster than me, hm! :)

Did you see my last response to you? I posted it again so that it didn’t appear in the dash but it should have appeared in my blog. Hopefully you did! I can reblog it so you can find it moreeasily, or maybe it’ll pop up if you search for Peridot in my blog? :)

A-ah, thanks for the good wishes about my wounds! They’re just very itchy at times, but they’ve healed on the outside! Still have to wait for what remains of the…what you call them…crusts! to fall down, so that’s why they itch, but they’re not really a bother. I’m healing greatly!! Thank you loads, Peridot :)

It’s not a giant answer but I’ll add a Read More, alright buddy? Hope it doesn’t bother you ^^

:’)

Ah, Peridot. You have no idea how happy it makes me to know you’re doing better and that you had a nice weekend with your family. I know it’s been difficult for you, and I don’t doubt you’ve still got some struggles now and then, but I’m very proud of you for staying strong despite it all and for making it through. What you went through is not something you just get over so easily, so it makes me very happy to see that you’re not staying stuck there either and that you’re keeping on. 

I’m very happy you’re feeling better. I knew you’d feel like that again, just didn’t know how long it’d take you. I’m happy we’re there now. I’ll be standing here continuing to think about you and sending the most magical raccoon vibes so that you have good days like this weekend you had. You’re better than you were yesterday, and a bit worse than you’ll be tomorrow. It only means you’ll keep feeling better and better with each day, buddy. I know, and I hope so :)

Also happy to know your sleep is back to normal!! Sleep is important and it always makes me happy to know when you have some improvement regarding that. I know your sleep can give you troubles at times, especially with the recent events and whatnot. So it makes me happy to know this, really. Still gonna keep sending those magical moon vibes so that your nights are calm and restful. :3

You don’t need to have something to tell me, Peridot, buddy! You could say hi and tell me what you had for breakfast, and I’d still be super happy and bouncy to hear from you. :3

A-ah, I’m doing good, thank you! Sorta itchy on the wounds, but I’m doing great! Got my puppy with me, I can walk around without getting exhausted immediately, there’s food in the fridge, and I feel I’m improving at school! Everything’s going good. Thank you loads for asking, buddy :’3

A-AH, THAT GUY AH, UHM, HNGNH…. (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)

I-I THINK...MAYBE LAST NIGHT I WAS A BIT TOO EXCITED... (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)

I-I don’t know if- hfnnggndh aah. (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)

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Now I just don’t know what to say, Peridot!! I AM SO EMBARRASSED ASDKJLKSJ AHAHAH! (*ﾉ▽ﾉ)

A crush. HOW EMBARRASSING  (*ﾉωﾉ)

I really am not troubled regarding the romantic things. I’ve always thought that if I ever have a partner, cool! And if not, cool! It’s not really something I chase after, or something I’m too interested in. But the thought of someone as nice as him is very nice....I mean, he really is a good person. He’s kind and sort of shy and sort of awkward and a bit of a dork. MY ABSOLUTE TYPE LMAO

But he’s really nice and I think that that’s what matters. He’s- sort of- he-    ./////.   He’s the kind to go to the gym, apparently, and we’re- aHFNDKGDF- we’re so used to that sort of guys being sort of douches, but he’s actually really nice. He’s friendly and good. So far I know, of course! We don’t- talk very often so I wouldn’t say 100% for sure! But so far, what little of interaction we’ve had, he’s always been good and kind to me. Which I think is what matters most.

I AM RANTING SOMUCH I’M SORRY PERIDOT I GOT CARRIED AWYA SDJHDSBFD AGHUDWA Y DNF (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)

i jsT I JUST MEAN TO SAY

I just mean to say, thank you, Peridot... (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)

I dn’t know if I’m currently interested in a partner or not, or if I’ll find someone as nice as him (not because there aren’t nice people, I just rarely go out of the social circles I already have), but I thank you loads for the thought and the wishes, and the intention in them. 

Thank you for being so sweet as always, buddy. You’re always so nice to me too, and always wish the best for me, and I still don’t know how to thank you for all that kindness and all that good that you wish to me. 

May you receive 3 times as you wish for me, Peridot. 

Anyway, thank you so much for dropping by! I was missing you already and wondering how you were doing. I’m very happy to know you’re feeling better, and that your situation is generally improving. (˙︶˙)

As always, know that I’m here if you want to say anything or if you need anything, buddy. You don’t need to say anything if you don’t want to, as much as you can drop by saying anything you want if you want to. Just do as you feel like doing, alright, buddy?

Thank you thank you thank you for dropping by. Your presence always feels like a hug, whether it’s giving or receiving it, and that’s always warm! 

It was INCREDIBLE to hear from you again, buddy, and beautiful that besides hearing from you, what I hear are good news. ♡

Thank you as well for asking about my wounds, and thank you for the good wishes regarding my feelings! :3

Thank you for dropping by with your wonderful presence. You feel sort of a soft blue right now; not entirely bouncy or on full energy, but not in darkness anymore. I’m absolutely content and happy to feel you that way. 

Here’s to continue sending you more happy coon thoughts and vibes, and keeping you in mind, buddy! 

I hope you’re having a FANTASTIC evening, and that you’ll have incredible days up ahead! Lots of hugs from this raccoonie! (ɔˆз(ˆ⌣ˆc)

[datingadviceonreddit]

This could get long so bear with me, I want to start from the very beginning. I met this girl at work, lets call her Lucy, we would flirt very subtly. This went on for maybe 6 months and it was very subtle because we worked in the same building and would see each other often. It was mainly me bugging her, her bugging me type thing and a few good jokes. Its March of this year and I go to bug her one morning and she just has tears in her eyes and tells me out loud not to bug her she might be breaking up with Luke (not his real name). I back off for the day and don't bug her. I havent approached her in any way during the course of the very subtle flirting because I knew she had a bf. I wasn't going to get in between them if everything seemed good in their relationship even though I thought she was attractive. But at this critical point I wanted to seize an opportunity. A few days later I approach her and we talk a bit and we ended up exchanging numbers. I make it pretty clear to her in the beginning and I quote myself: "friends without friendzoning". I think this makes it pretty clear what my intentions were. I wanted to be her friend but I didn't want to be considered just a friend. By this point I knew she found me attractive and wanted her to know I felt the same. She might be breaking up with her bf so I wanted to let her know she had options. We got to talking a bit, every so often at first because I wanted to give her space with what she was going through. Before I go any further I want to fill you in on some inside information that I learned about later: in January she is in Vegas with Luke and she finds a random number texted him. She ends up calling the number and finding out he is cheating on her. The details she's told me is that he talked to her (the other girl) for a year and met up with her a few times but he could never go through with "it". This guy is known as an asshole in their circle of friends. Not a totally bad guy but not the greatest either. Shes clearly upset about this. It's the beginning of March at the point of me starting to talk to her. In that first month I ask her if she wants to go to breakfast with me when I'm hungover after my birthday in the middle of the month. She declines very politely because shes still not sure what her and Luke are. I get it, I back off and we continue to talk every so often (maybe once a week, a few texts here and there) and continue to work in the same building. After that month we start to talk more and more, fast forward to sometime at the end of May. Luke sends flowers to work for Lucy and she tells him not to do that and was a lil angry. She ends up telling him that she doesn't love him anymore. She comes over to my place. We made plans to grab a few beers and play some video games. Video games get cut after about 15-20 minutes and we jst sit on my couch talking. This happens for about 1-1.5 hours and she gets up to leave. I escort her to the door and say my goodbye and it was nice hanging out. She then proceeds to kiss me. I kiss back. Door opens. She leaves. We talk about it after and she said shes never kissed on "first hangouts". It was our first time hanging out together...alone. We continue into our regular routine but dont get physical again until a bit later. The texts start to heat up a bit and become more sexual. We talk more often and when he's not at home around her. We hang out every once in awhile here and there for a few hours each time, not much like once or twice a week. I end up going on vacation for a week at the beginning of July and during that time we talk often throughout the day. I suggest to her that she call in sick on the Friday of my last weekend and come hang out at my trailer which is where I was spending my vacay. During these talks I mentioned to her that she could spend the night since its such a far drive. She does and the whole time she is here we hold hands and kiss like we're some sort of couple in front of my friends. The next morning we're just laying in bed (we didnt have sex just slept together) and she ends up getting a text from him saying that he blew the brake lines in his vehicle and their dog is sick. She leaves and can't spend another night. By this point, just before she came up, she removes her "in a relationship" status on facebook. She goes back home to him and on Sunday is in their backyard playing a game with Luke, Lukes brother and a couple of his friends. 2 weeks later we talk about "us" and how she is going to work on leaving him. The texting starts to get more frequent and we're innuendoing like crazy. We end up going on a trip with another work friend (female) and end up having a good time at an amusement park. We're obviously staying at a hotel but in separate beds because our friend is with us. We make funny faces at each other from our separate beds before going to sleep. The next morning while our friend was in the shower she straddles me and begins to kiss me a bit. Trip ends and we go home. Move towards the end of August and he disappears for a trip somewhere with his boys. I guess it was decided a few weeks before that it was just going to be the boys and she doesnt get to go. Now if I was her bf I'd want to spend some time with her alone before I go. He ends up having the boys over and she gets completely ignored. I know this because I was talking to her that night. When his trip was set me and Lucy make plans to hang out. She comes over, while he's gone, and she cooks me dinner. We end up playing some video games and then watching some Netflix. We get cozy. Now in between this encounter and the last one we have been kissing & touching here and there (not at work) and text each other often. So as we're watching the show I turn to her and kiss her. She kisses back. I get more physical and pick her up and bring her to my bed. I start to kiss more passionately and clothes are coming off. We have sex. She hangs out for a little bit more and then gets up to leave. She sends me a text a little while later saying she doesn't want to become a person she wouldn't want to date. I know shes feeling really guilty at this point. I tell her I get it it was a mistake and it just happened "in the moment". This was a Friday. Skip to Sunday. Luke's coming home the next day. I go over to their place and spend a few hours with Lucy. No sex. No kissing. Just cozying up and watching a movie. I leave. The very next day they pack up for a camping trip. Some of his family is going with them because she is in a bit of an awkward phase with him and didn't want it to be just the 2 of them. They spend a few days and come back. After this things start to heat up like crazy. I think a month goes by and we're hanging out a bit more and just stick to kissing & light touching. Hanging out is nice. Things start to get really heavy and we're having sex on a semi-regular basis. It heats up at work too. We're sneaking around and kissing and have had 1 sexual encounter. This happens for the next 2-3 months. She ends up nearly having a mental breakdown and tells me she wants to stop lying and that she is falling in love with me. We stop having sex. We stop hanging out as often as we did. Theres the occasional kiss. She has stopped having sex with Luke for what she tells me is around 4 months. Right around the time we started. By this point I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown too. I start feeling the same way. I think I'm falling in love with her. I can't stand when she's with him anymore. During this time shes told him that she is leaving but they have a debt together, a house to pay for and throw a dog into the mix. Its all getting to me. Now it all just seems awkward. We don't like we used to. I've told her the kissing and getting physical stops until she has completely moved out of her house. She still goes out and does stuff with him but doesn't post anything to facebook, still has the status removed and has got rid of a bunch of pictures with him. She's definitely in the process now of making the move but we're in December now. This all started in March when she said she might be breaking up with him. This whole time its been kept a secret from work and him. They are on a break now Ive heard. I feel very confused by all of this. Why so long? I feel like Ive been in a very secret relationship that has stalled. She says that shes "turning her world upside down to give US a chance". The question remains in my head: am I in a relationship?Tl;dr: me and Lucy have talked for 9 months, had sex and fallen in love with each other. She still lives with Luke but does not love him and is only now making moves to officially leave him. They do not sleep in the same bed but she continues to go out and do things with him. She has stated that she is "flipping her world upside down to give this a chance" (this being us as a couple). She has a house, debt to pay off and a dog with Luke. I want to know should I continue sticking around or just forget about the whole thing? via /r/dating_advice

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8.28.17

Yooo

Ok so today wasn’t so bad. I still don’t have internet btw, which is jjust so cool ofc… I woke up at 730 and chilled in bed for a lil b4 I got up and got dressed and got all ready for school. Catherine had to drive me bc my car was in the shop so we left at like 810 and got there around 830ish and we parked at horsebarn hill, which they added more commuter parking to! Yay! My class was in hicks so it was right there and then I had INTERNET! So I posted my replies yaaaaaaaaaay!

The first class I had was wetlands ecology and the guy doesn’t talk very loud but honestly he was kinda funny and seemed like a nice dude so I think its gonna be good and not too hard. We did an activity and for part of it you had to find someone who had been to minesota, and when we finished he called on me bc I had been there. It was weird, he asked weird questions that I couldn’t answer like which suburb was my family from??? And I had no clue… I just said we go to st paul. I guess he did his degree there so he thought I knew shit but im from cali baby sorry

Next class was in the basement of ITE so I had to RUN omg. Its already hard enough to go downhill from there to hicks, and going up sucked. But the second class was intimate relationships and OH BOY im excited for this class! The teacher sounds gay first of all which is cool even if hes not gay, and its about all SORTS off interesting things that I kinda just think I should know about. He specifically noted that hes going to try to be inclusive and we are going to talk about non hetero things which is GREAt. I drafted an email to send when im on campus tomorrow with questions about honors conversion and his research and stuff so I rly hope he replies

So then I went to the gym and did arms, and MAN my pump was awesome. I could pull 100 on the lat pulldown doing chinup grip and I could only pull like 80 last semester! I felt pumped. It wasn’t so busy bc I went at like 1130 when everyone was eating lunch so it was great yaaaaay! So then I showered and I met my dad so that he could get lunch and I could eat mine, and then I had to run nd get my last HPV vaccine shot and it hurt but I did great hehe and now im ALL DONE. No more fuckin needles for a while thank god. My arm is gonna be sore for like 4 dayss though, so that’s why I did arms today lol

Then we went and got my car and the tires apparently are worn down in weird spots so its kind of a bumpy ride but I mean… I will survive I guess. We also ran to target (altho I was fucking dying I was so tired) and we got a bike. We brought it back and at first I was having major issues and it was being shti and I thought it might not be good, but I took it around again and actually I think itll be fine. So hopefully thatll help me get around campus because last year I was fast walking a lot abd honestly like what the fuck. ALSO the buses are fucked up because theres a road closure and basically you cant get anywhere so I wanted a bike to jst be able to go fast. Its in my trunk and im gonna use it tomorrow… wish me luck

I came home and my dad eventually left and he gave me a card that had 140$ in it omg thank god I can actually pay for groceries while I wait for paychecks for a month. I took a shift Wednesday n ight with Meagan so things should get moving in that respect, I hope. Aw shit I GOTTA remember to bring my work clothes on Wednesday then, wow. I should have time to change and stuff. Ill also need two meals… ill figure it out I guess uhh

Btw I was so annoyed bc I cried a little when my dad left because I feel so bad that HE feels sad about leaving and it just makes me feel shitty… im in this weird limbo where like… he is still mean to me sometimes and he does bad things but its not as bad as it used to be but the past still HAPPENED sso I mean? Im not forgiving him and I cant ever feel comfortable around him and I just. I guess I feel like I should never feel sad abt it and im really not I just. Idk. Im not really sure rn.

Made some food and chatted with Catherine a bit, almost burnt my nachos but I saved them. The broiler is quite hot here. Then I excused myself at like 930 because omg I needed to fucking write like, im gonna get nothing done if I just get stuck talking to Catherine for hours every night. But tomorrow im coming home at like 330 and she wont be here for 2 hrs after that so hopefully I can chill and maybe make rice then and get a head start on things… that would be good. I have to do some reading for both of my classes so far but im not good at reading during the week, I might see if I can wait and read it/catch up/read ahead on the weekend when I have more time. Catherine will also be gne then and it’s a 3 day weekend so I think thatll work out well honestly

Well I gotta go to bed now I have a class at 930 and I gotta go early to work out this bike so bye

[nice1and]

Fucking Christ kids jst dont. Just fucking dont. Dont have your friends as roommates. They will literally ruin your life. They will play friendship over responsibilities and take advantage of you with that. Our current roommate, has a bad history with the several people she lived with in the past. The first person she lived with was in this persons mom’s house. Shared the same room, and bed, and bathroom. To my understanding constantly was disrespectful to this persons mother, was an absolute slob, and complained when asked to pay her part in utilities. When that person kicked her out she claimed that they treated her awfully. But you know if someone were like that living with me I’d treat them like an asshole too. The next one was her brother and sister in law. She decided at one point it’d be a good idea to quit her job without a back up and try to keep it secret by leaving for hours during the day. You know to act as if she still had a job. She thought casually bringing it up later wouldn’t make them as upset than telling her roommates right away. Well nope she kept secret for two weeks, they found out, and she jusy continued to not find a job and moocj and not pay rent for like 6 months. She just expected her roommates to pick up her slack. Now with us, we constantly have to remind her that rent and other bills are due soon. I give her a specific time and day I need it by. Which os generally next day before I work. So I can send the check before I work. Like I’m not talking just reminding her once or twice. I mean like 5 fucking times. And most of the time she doesn’t even give me enough. She’s almost always fuckin short. So I have to tell her I need more and she plays aloof, and has even blamed my gf for loosing some of her cash. Now I’ve always been nice about it, I’ve never gotten overly upset cuz it gets resolved quickly. This time however I kept telling her I need it by this time, didnt fucking have it. OK so this time, 1:00pm tomorrow, which ended up in her thinking we said 11??? Which 1. None of 1pm tomorrow sounds anywhere near 11 And 2. Even if that was 11 pm that she thpught wouldn’t make sense cuz the bank and post office are closed fucking idiot. And you know wjat she still didnt have it not even by 11 am if sje thought I meant that. Bitch actually told me, “who the fuck cares if its late, our landlord can talk to me about it.” Yeah that’ll be cool until she hands you an eviction notice dumbass. So I got upset with her, and she fucking acted all aloof, like she doesnt remember being short on bills every month. And honestly is the most condescending cunt. She literally wants us to apologize for being upset with her over her continual fuck ups. Saying that its our job to remind her about rent amd that we never communicate how much she should owe each month. Like I have pages of txts of me just reminding her how mich rent and other bills are. But no we neeeever communicate. She’s a troll, a child. And if you are upset with her she’ll call you a psychopath and say you need to see a doctor. So yeah another roommate that can go straight to fucking hell. Or back to living with her parents and just mooch off them like she doesnt with everyone. She never even fucking paid for toilet paper or paper towels. And that shit is expensive. I’m pretty sure she even uses our laundry detergent. And eats our food, cuz she never buys her own or cooks her own. Like I said, shes a fucking child. Dont. Let. Your. Friends. Be. Your. Roommate.