#shadowbringers had such a profound effect on me it's insane

[nidstiniens]

hey sorry I just need to talk about this for a hot second because I’m working on the rough outline for a fic and I can’t get this moment out of my head. this is the moment where, after the eons of plotting, watching his comrades fail over and over, watching every single plan he’s come up with get thwarted time and time again — at the end of all things, emet-selch, so overwrought with grief that he reconstructs amaurot, so desperate for an end to the insanity of it all takes the tiniest, smallest, briefest of moments to put a hand to the mortal wound you’ve given him before he fades away. it’s the “oh” moment, the moment of reprieve, of relief; the moment he realizes it’s over and he can finally rest after what doesn’t just feel like but has been thousands and thousands of years. at the end of everything, he’s not upset you won, he’s relieved his fight is finally over, and all he wants is for you to remember him. to remember amaurot. to remember his people and all that he fought for. just remember that it wasn’t all for nothing, that he wasn’t a villain for the cruelty of it, that it all meant something to him — and when you nod your head, he just smiles and then fades away. I will never be okay.