#she was my main pov for the entirety of the server and pretty much the main reason (other than it being quackity’s project ofc lol) that i

[luminouslotuses]

i tried writing out and planning a post but i couldn’t. i can’t fully articulate my feelings right now but i’ll try!! i’m so happy jaiden decided to quit once she realized that qsmp was too much. the last thing i would’ve wanted her to do was to continue while being burnt out, overwhelmed or unhappy. i’m so so excited for what she has in store for the future and i know she’ll be fucking amazing at whatever she wants to do.

but. Yeah. i’m devastated. i’m not good at putting things into words on the spot like this but jaiden and her qsmp character meant so much to me. i loved her interactions with others on the server, her lore/rp moments, and hell even the chill streams when she was simply just building and talking to chat. i’m gonna miss her dynamics with so many of the members, roier, baghera, cellbit, foolish, mouse, just to name a few. even though it’s over for her, their friendships are all legitimately so beautiful and i hope they stay in touch with one another. (i’m sure they will. this is qsmp they care about one another on a level so deep i can’t put it into words)

and i’m gonna be transparent for a moment– when jaiden took a break from qsmp, i also kind of.. began drifting away, a little bit? not completely of course. i can’t find it in myself to do that lmaoo i’m in too deep at this point and i adore this server. but now that she’s gone i feel. a little lost and unsure of what to do. i’m not going anywhere, that’s for sure. i think i just need to eventually adjust and fully come to terms with the fact that. jaiden’s not coming back. typing that out feels surreal wow but yeah, i’m gonna miss her on the qsmp. so fucking much. o7 qjaiden