#sigh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i might joke about paganism but itll probably be many years before i get past the heebie jeebie feeling i get abt it | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

suraiiya · 1 year

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sometimes i really really miss the feeling of belonging that the inner monologue of 'im muslim' affords but then i get a glimpse of people tearing each other apart and quoting shit about Lot and homosexuality and i reluctantly sink back to where i am.

#islam has irreversibly changed who i am and i actually and happy about that.#i feel the values instilled in me by it are ones i would have arrived at on my own anyway.#ill never eat pork and there are a lot of things that i will never reconcile anyway that are more veiled in the guile and rigidity #of religion #but also i am so fucking. sad. that its not how i imagined it to be #in practice its not always love and acceptance and i just cant deal with it #i miss it i miss that happiness of having A People you identify with in terms of spirituality #'culturally muslim' doesnt feel right. nothing feels right anymore #sigh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i might joke about paganism but itll probably be many years before i get past the heebie jeebie feeling i get abt it #israa.txt

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