#since prepatch is... next week? i think?

[renaultmograine]

Doom guy image WHERES THE VOICE LINES

[katieskarlette]

I’ll pass on the frost-rimed rose-tinted glasses

A tiny part of me wants to play WotLK Classic but I don’t think I will.  Yes, it was the high point of the franchise for me in a lot of ways, but I know from my brief foray into vanilla Classic that playing it now doesn’t actually recapture that magic.  If anything, the nostalgia made me feel kind of sad.  They can recreate the game as far as graphics and mechanics, but it will never feel the same because I’m not the same person I was a decade ago.

[Negativity warning for the next paragraph.  Just venting, no discourse please.]  There’s also a bitter taste in my mouth about that part of lore since Shadowlands butchered it, pissed on its corpse, burned it to ash, and then pissed on the ashes.  Blizzard, through a twisted echo of who Sylvanas used to be, told us to forget all about Arthas and his legacy, then turns around and expects us to shell out a bunch of money for mounts and other perks in WotLK Classic?  Excuse me?  No.  You’re on thin ice (no pun intended) already.  You can lure me back to retail with dragons, but you’ll have to pardon me if I skip out on being reminded how badly you dealt with the Lich King-related lore.

Plus, even if I did get really invested in WotLK Classic, I’d abandon it in a few months to dive into Dragonflight.  Because dragons.

YMMV, and I hope everyone who is playing WotLK Classic has an absolute blast.  It really was a special era in the game’s history.

I’m also struggling to find motivation to play retail WoW after over a year away from it.  I leveled a hunter through Shadowlands and did some BFA stuff with other alts, but I haven’t touched my main and I don’t really plan to until the Dragonflight prepatch hits.  I understand Zereth Mortis is fairly fun, but so is playing Sims 3 and AoE 2, which I’ve been doing instead, as well as dabbling with my original writing.  

(I’ve also been super busy and stressed with work, as we move back into our fully remodeled and expanded building, and prepare to reopen to the public in a week or so.  Aaaaaaaah!)

[valiantsword]

life ramble.  aka, i’m sorry for not being here and here’s an attempt to explain why.

even though i really don’t know. i know the world is crazy still and it’s messing with a lot of people’s mental health.  i don’t know if this is depression all i know is i feel particularly exhausted as of late.  brain blank zombie kind of exhausted.

when i took this job almost two years ago i was excited about the possibilities. maybe it was the pandemic.  maybe it was the intent all along.  whatever it was, there hasn’t been any kind of support from my job’s end on any kind of emotional or mental security.  not sure if that makes sense.  for context, i came here to try and help fix the location i’m at.  a lot of weird and crazy shit went down that resulted in like 75% of the facility being fired.  a bunch of us came in to try and fix this.

come the beginning of august we had a deadline to get every customer’s claims sorted out so we could move on.  but one of the bigger ones have lingered.  we still need to get in house things organize for the end of the fiscal year but that has less of a weight hanging over my head.  and with all the layoffs i started to wonder if they were just going to close the facility when stuff was finally sorted.  my salary got cut which made me worry i was next in line to be laid off.  it got so bad my partner and i had a huge argument about me quitting because i haven’t been happy.  and while that argument made me feel better for some weird reason i think i’m at this point where i’m just so god damn tired of being so worked up and hyper-stressed for the past six months.  

these past two weeks have been particularly bad in terms of insomnia.  i haven’t had this kind of trouble sleeping since i was with my ex.  i’ve been surviving on naps and a lot of twitch streams.  even though i’m awake and could be writing my brain has been so blank it’s frustrating.  that disassociative kind of blank that i don’t recognize until it finally dawns on me that i feel like a robot.

it also doesn’t help that the past six months has also been a fight with the people we DO have left here.  it’s a struggle to get them to do their job or even show up for their job.  i get it’s slow but we still have shit that needs to get done, you know?  and i don’t get why it’s been such a fight.  motivation, maybe.  i’m not saying it’s a bad thing.  again, the world is completely fucked and it’s affecting everyone.  i get that.  it’s just one more thing to throw on my own pile of “tired of life. “

but there’s so much to be happy about right now and i’m trying to refocus on that.  shadowlands prepatch should be soon. ( WRATH INVASION PART TWO AHHHHH )  the fates season just came out for tft ( teamfight tactics ).  more seraphine info should be coming out and i am REALLY hyped for her.  they’re fleshing out the kda lore which is making me so so happy.  shadowlands lAUNCHES in a month. holy shit.  cyberpunk 2077.  watchdogs legion.  WORLDS.  ( lots of league of legends references int his paragraph if none of that makes sense ).  fnatic and tsm are going, which is also super hype for me.  they drew into the same group which makes me a little sad but HEY.  i get to see nemesis and bjergson battle it out so that’ll be super amazing.  fun fact: i’m really into lol esports.

anyway.  i think that’s it.  tldr; i’m trying to fix my struggle with the motivation to do anything other than stare at twitch streams.  the fact that i pulled out my laptop for the first time in over a week to type this up makes me happy even if i’m going to get self conscious about posting it. ha.  maybe i’ll delete it after.  put the bad mojo into the universe to purge it, you know?