#sjfjgk THIS IS A BIT RAMBLY I GOTTA START WORK

[rexscanonwife]

OK some fucking thoughts on the heels of that last gifset cause I always have thoughts!! It's fascinating that they're both from moments that I consider to be really pivotal in me and Rex's relationship at different times 👉👈

Not to act like I'm a main character but it's my self ship I AM the main character. The Deserter is a REALLY important episode to the development of our relationship because when Rex sees Cut's family, a clone, just like him, choosing a different life. Choosing to be a husband, a father, a gentle farmer. And obviously there's some pushback to the idea because at this point in time he's still hard into the idea of his duty, what he was made for. But what if he got to choose what he was made for? What would he do?

And he thinks of me. He thinks of the feelings he's been pushing down ever since we met, because he didn't know he was allowed to want more. He still thinks it's doomed because I'm a jedi, but now at least he knows that he can MAYBE allow him to dream of another life. One where he can be with me and have all the soft things he hasn't been allowed since the day he was born.

Fast forward to his episode in the bad batch!! After this point, he's already gotten a taste of that softness, the gentleness that he never thought he'd have and boy he was addicted. Always very careful ofc, but it was getting to a point where it was getting harder and harder to be apart. He asked me to marry him, so we'd never have to be apart again!

Then order 66 hits and suddenly it's all gone. The Republic, his brothers, the Order...even I'm gone. I don't know, I just see this conversation he's having with Hunter being him avoiding his true grief by throwing himself into this mission. To protect what little is left if the world he wanted to raise our family in, maybe that's gone now but he's going to try to save it anyway.