#slkdfjlsdkjflkdsf sorry this might be a mess

[zouis-exes-to-lovers]

hi ok let’s unpack ur tags a little bit more (excellent point u brought up!!) it reminds me of the idea of making urself in the image of ur lover yk and the whole reciprocal thing and how chiron turns masculine like how kevin presented himself EVEN THOUGH the nickname was a term of affection and endearment (side note i cry thinking ab 16 year old kevin giving his best friend a nickname because he’s so in love with him and how chiron called him out on it and didn’t even realize and kevin was put on the spot and couldn’t say it but that was out of love and bestie!!!!) and the way kevin turns gentle and sweet like chiron was like they become each other as adults and i think even though chiron adopts black as a hard cover having it as his license plate is really a reminder of the nickname and how he used to be growing up and that vulnerable soft person..... like ugh i can’t even explain it but the nickname becomes poison when kevin actually admired how chiron was anything but. also i’m on a walk rn so this might not be coherent and i probably have more to say i can’t articulate skdjsk

hi! YEAH EXACTLY!!!! yeah that post about making yourself the image or your lover, thanks for reminding me of that! totally!!! 

and the whole masculinity thing, i think that maybe even though Kevin admired how gentle and sweet chiron was, at the same time he didn’t know how to deal with that... how he protects chiron but still demands (that’s not the right word ik, I just couldnt think of the right one, sorry) some performance of masculinity out of him (like at the field scene, how he looks out for little and right after tells him he should toughen up). there’s just two different worlds and Kevin can kinda navigate them both but his younger self doesnt really know how to do it properly, and he messes things up (the fight scene, etc), and how in the middle of it all chiron gets confused as well (like he believes that that hard cover could be the answer), you can see him making the decision to “change” after the fight... idk if im making sense once again sdkjfskdjfhk (I dont think I made myself clear by the end of it but yeah) also what you said about the beach scene about kevin being there in a vulnerable moment and caring and worrying about chiron but still saying that he doesn’t cry, maybe once again performing masculinity (and that kinda does break chiron a little bit)... idk idk gotta organize my thoughts a little better sdklfjhsdlk

“how chiron turns masculine like how kevin presented himself EVEN THOUGH the nickname was a term of affection and endearment (side note i cry thinking ab 16 year old kevin giving his best friend a nickname because he’s so in love with him and how chiron called him out on it and didn’t even realize and kevin was put on the spot and couldn’t say it but that was out of love and bestie!!!!)” IK IK!!!!!! exactly 😔

yeah, I guess kevin kinda learns how to navigate both worlds, he learns who he is in some important ways (him talking about actually having a life yk)... and chiron... well... I might have some  thoughts (specially about the fight scene and what comes after but they’re all a mess sldkfjsldkf idk how to explain rn)

“even though chiron adopts black as a hard cover having it as his license plate is really a reminder of the nickname and how he used to be growing up and that vulnerable soft person....” yeah, yeah... 

“i can’t even explain it but the nickname becomes poison when kevin actually admired how chiron was” SUNNY!!!!! please!!! (but yes exactly!!!)

sdkjsdkjfh dont worry, im just out here having incoherent thoughts myself... (but I do agree w everything you said <3)