#smootytalks

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still alive, currently stuck in jayvik hell. Fuck I want to write fanfic so bad

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imagine if I could still find joy in writing like I used to and I could come back to fandom communities again and not be horribly depressed, anxious, and chronically ill

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if anyone wants to explain the last 2-3 years of Gorilla lore in my inbox pls do because I'm behind and too overwhelmed to catch up

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what if I came back to writing Gorillaz fanfic and it was all E for Everyone rated fluff because I'm in my healing era?

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how do I regain my passion for writing and fandom? Depression knocked me flat out and now I'm trying to recover the things I used to love

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Hi Tumblr meet my puppy Andromeda 🥰🐶

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Gorillaz is like a DnD campaign with a new DM but experienced players. All the characters have rich backstories with easy hooks thrown in for plot/character development and none of its used. Instead the party goes off on an entirely bland adventure but they rollplay between each other a lot so its fine 

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The problem with being autistic and trying to describe physical sensations to my doctor is that every conversation goes like this:

Doctor: And what type of pain is it?

Me: Sour

Doctor: ... Sour?

Me: Yeah like, the pain feels sour. Like imagine a sour food but it's pain

Doctor: wtf?

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I know I've basically abandoned this blog (i and borrowing Spoons from like a year from now, I am so stressed) but I got promoted to office manager today after being with the company for 5 months. I'm now one of 3 managers who only answer to my boss. AHHHHHHHHH

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Dog Omens. Crowley is a Miniature Pinscher  and Aziraphale is a Great Pyrenees

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hey guys! SO as much as I love Juno as a name I think I"m gonna go back to Bee because it still feels more natural. Thank you all~

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That autism feeling when your pointer finger suddenly becomes too sensitive to use the trackpad on your computer :/

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I just got hired on as a graphic designer/customer service person!!!! AHHH

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ok I am working on another Gorillaz fic right now (as well as Flowerbeds and The Landing) but its going slow. I’m sorry to everyone here who followed me for content. 2020 (and the implosion that was my marriage in mid-2019) really set me back in terms of mental health. But for the last 3 months I’ve had a therapist and I’ve been making small steps towards doing things I used to enjoy. So I guess this is just me saying thanks for sticking around and being patient with me? Idk I miss how active things were here before all this and I want to get that back

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Well, I’m 28 now. Thats a thing

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Me: maybe I'm faking autism and I'm a huge liar

Also me: *has a panic attack in the elevator because I went from a cold environment to a hot environment too quickly and the change was too much for me to handle*