#so hopefully it wont feel like im spamming my account

[nonbinarypirat]

Ok, so I have few ideas about Kalego's evil cycle based on the knowledge we have about his mana dogs. It's clear his evil cycle is very violent. While I am sure that it was worse than normal due to a multitude of stressers that exemplified the problem, his whole house was fucked up. His curtains, his bed, his floor, couches. My man is going to need either a repaining spell or just replace everything. So yeah, its clear its exteremly bad

Since you loose control of yourself during it, I imagine it gets harder to control Cerberus thus letting them roam freely. But, espeically in this instance, they feel caged. They are trapped in a fairly small space with no place to roam and full of their master's rage with no outlet. We already know that without strong control and careful handling, the dogs will turn at the slightest provocation. Even at Kalego himself when they were first bonded to him. They bit and clawed at him mercilessly

So, it's possible that because his willpower is low during evil cylce plus having no target to take their fustrations out on, they try to take it out on Kalego. I'm sure Kalego could still fight without his mana dogs, but we have seen its his primary weapon. So it would be a fight for dominance, not mentioning that Kalego would be full of rage and frustration as well. It would be a back and forth anger fest but nothing really being fixed, unless the actual fighting becomes a sort of catharsis activity? but I think it would just anger him more because on top of the stress that led him to having an evil cycle in the first place, now Cerberus is acting up and he has to deal with that. Thus why it becomes SO destructive.

It could also be that the dogs become extra protective of their master causing it to bark and attack at anything percieved as a threat. An evil cycle, while the demon is at its strongest, is also when they are at their most vulnerable. Think about it, sure you can use strong attacks and even have new abilities (ie, Sabro's weapon ability) but it takes a lot out of them, phsyically, magically, and mentally. Your powers skyrocket but your control decreases by a fairly large margin (Azz almost attacking the Dorodoro brothers). The dogs could see it as their mission to protect Kalego at all costs.

They have beem bonded together for so long that maybe they won't turn on him specifically but anything around them. Going down this thought, maybe it's less of a protective thing and moreso that they have too much pent up energy and decide to trash the place. I mean, as someone who currently has a puppy in the house and a grown dog, trust me they will mess with shit just out of pure frustration. (Though my grown up doggie only does it sometines, he's well trained, my lovely boy.) Back on track, maybe it's as simple as they are out, have nothing to do, and just chew everything up. But since this is Iruma-kun, i don't know if that'll be the case. I want it to be "oh, silly puppies" but i think there's a strong possibility of it being the "we are going to fuck you up now master" route. But them fighting Kalego does make for a fun if messed up story lore.

Hopefully we will get insight into it later in the series and also witness it!

[nightmare8-420]

Intro

Call me J

Pronouns are he/him but they and it are fine too

I like screaming into the void known as this hellsite

somehow am still lonely while having friends

i draw and post it here sometimes

I call this an ed/sh blog but its relly just my shitty life™️ i wont ever post body checks of me or someone else. Everything that could potentially trigger someone should have a tw on it, if not lmk. I dont promote anything in my shitty life. probably not a safe space for ppl in recovery, love yall, just dont wanna trigger you

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[jensungf]

nooo pls dont post less!!!!!! i need your cute lil posts about everything 😔🥺 yes cancer sun moon leo!! thats me uwu n i watch football a LOT LOT i love it so much, but its the kind that americans call soccer btw hahaha culture difference ✨ n no its not my bday!! its taeyongs bday!!! but we didnt go for lunch bc of that (or maybe we did 🤔) but my friend n i are quite close so we went for lunch bc of that!!! n also!! no need to be productive? whos that anyway, idk her :p red anon p1 💃

sooo for things i got!! some new converse shoes (black ones), an nct album 🙈 (pulled the bday boy uwuwuwu), handcream, somestickers n some cards bc im almost out of birthday cards to send/give! n yes i stan some other groups!! my faves are day6, red velvet n got7, but theres many more that i like! especially girlgroups hihi, basically day6 got7 and nct21 are the only boys i stan and i like to write but i dont publish it much bc im an insecure potato n theres an about me carrd if you dig p2/3 💃

omg this is becoming such a spam HAHAHAHAHAH ive been on tumblr for years upon years, although this account is on the newer side!! also i remembered i LOVE ITZY SO MUCH theyre definitely also in my faves! i think i also said in my deleted ask that i had been working on a header for a story ill most likely wont write skskskks how do you find motivation/inspiration uwu do you have any plans for today!! -red skirt anon 💃

ima put my response underneath hehe to avoid spamming ppls dash <3

ur so cute bub ily my posts are deadass shit posts but ok <333 excuse me if im being a bit dry hksdhjs im half awake like always hehe and i will be on the lookout for that 😳😳 and hakjd i figured hehe but omfg do u play football? and thats so cute nonetheless!!! i hope u n ur friend had fun hehe taeyong’s spirit appreciates ur hangout dedicated to him <3 and unfortunately i have chores to do and errands to run :cc and OMGGG YAY THOSE R ALL GOOD SPENDS OMG but thats so much money bub?? ru rich 😳😳😳 chenle vibes my dear

hahaha jk ofc but i havent had black converse since my emo phase when i was 11 omg i bet they look so cute on u! i prefer black chuck taylors/hightops hehe wbu bub? also which album did u buy!!! ur blessed by the bday boy himself how adorable 🥺 ooo do u get any specific brand or scent of hand cream? i rly like the tonymoly rose scented ones haha but i ran out :c and i LOVE STICKERS my little sister has a lot and i always steal from her!! she usually uses them in her bujo haha do u use them for fun or on ur art/bujo? and thats so cute omfg stocking up on bday cards is something kinda traditional no one does anymore but thats so cute <333 i admire ur tast ein doing things

omg i dont stan any of those groups besides got7 and unfortunately i havent stanned any gg since sistar disbanded but who r ur biases bub?? ive listened to some day6 but if u have any recs lmkkkk and rv r queens <3 and ive heard about itzy!! i dont know too much about them but theyre all stunning and iconic queens (ive seen ryujin and lia hahaha) 

omg bub ur not an insecure potato,, i would lov to read ur writings and i bet theyre amazing! everyone has room for improvement but dont be shy hehe im sure ur writings would pique everyones interest! and time to go digging thru all my moots again round 2 hhhh 

and its ok hehehe thats pretty cool! ive been on tumblr since like,, 2015 or sum but like i fell out for two yrs and remade in march this yr haha so i feel u and OMG HEADERS i had the most trouble making headers cus i usually find a random pic of them i think is nice and slap on some txt using canva and call it a day!! id love to see ur header!! what do u use to make it?? (++ pls write a story for it i would love to read it 🥺🥺) and honestly idk sometimes inspo randomly hits and my motivation fluctuates!! like rn my wip is flopping cus i dont have any motivation to sit down and write but some of my other stories are spur of the moment writings hahah like better together or jsmr bc i was watching jenos jsmr fails or i fell off my bike and i decided to get inspired while sitting on the couch ahkdhfks so i think its diff for everyone!

and no hehe i dont besides doing stuff online for my fam and /hopefully/ making progress on my wip :c wbu bub???

[insearchofnewdreams]

the deal of 2017

So I've been getting alot of asks as to why exactly I dont enjoy taking photos and like.."why such a hard body neg???"(in most cases) (now I've deleted these asks and I've been kinda pushing the topic to the side because I really dont like reminiscing about this shit. It's disgusting to me and going back makes me feel gross even though its technically been about three years [June of this year])

I need to learn to let things go and hopefully this will help me,although I'm sorta past the ordeal it's still on my mind now and again.

Before I go any further I'd like to give a few warnings. So if you're uncomfortable dont r e ad but uhm. There are mentions of suicide and the original topic pertains to some n/s/f/w

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. Early 2017 [after my birthday, in April] [I was 17 ]

My friends and I met a man by the name of Blake,on Twitter in 2017 upon first meeting him he was a really cool person. Our biggest interest as a group was cosplay and Batman,specifically Riddler. Over the course of a few weeks we'd gotten pretty close and [I was crushing it was a weird time for me emotionally]

Almost a month or so of being friends I came in contact with my friend[we've now been friends for almost three years,we met due to this situation] (we'll call her Nigma) Sweet girl who I see as a little sister.

I wont go into heavy detail but Blake was being accused of doing/saying nasty ass shit torwards girls. And Nigma and myself were "main targets"

We didnt believe the accusations

At first.

Nigma myself and Cam brushed everything off until four months later.

September of 2017

By this time we'd become pretty inactive on Twitter and had created a discord group.

Myself,Cam,Nigma,Blake and his girlfriend [whom of which I dont want to talk about because she's not super involved in the point of this story]

My idiotic brain had crushed on Blake pretty hardcore and around his birthday (june,july idfk) I'd confessed how I felt and that I wasn't sure what to do and perhaps it was time to cut ties incase I did something dumb.

Unfortunately that dumb thing did indeed happen. Blake had also confessed his feelings for me and took it upon himself to devise a plan as to say I was his 'personal secret'

This relationship..if you want to call it that lasted until September and in that short time span I was convinced and told it was okay to send photos of myself

[Yes,im talking about shit like nudes which I stupidly took..and sent.]

It was almost a daily thing..sending photos,videos. He'd call me at any hour of the day, almost got me in trouble a few times

Attempted phone sex and a few other things.

Two weeks into September I received a wild spam of Facebook messages from Blake,he was angry. Blaming ME for something

Not even 20 minutes later his girlfriend went off and said someone must've hacked into her boyfriend's phone,sending me photos.etc etc. You get the point

Now I'm sure at this point you're probably asking" but Aurora??? Why didn't you tell someone sooner ?? Your parents?? His girlfriend???"

I did. And that was part of the problem.

I told his girlfriend what he was doing and she didn't believe me. I sent her screenshots of our conversations and she told me I was a liar. I was too scared to tell my parents,in fact to this day they still dont know that this went down. They never will

[Now still to this day from the last time aly and I spoke to him for the FINAL time he still says he didnt send me those nudes and that it was his friend who hacked into his phone. But he WAS the one who said he loved me. Personally I still dont believe the whole friend thing but we'll leave it at that]

At the end of 2017 Nigma and I agreed to never speak of Blake again,we'd remove him from our mind (in her situation he was also sending messages but I won't share that info)

For just about all of 2018 I would receive messages from random accounts,as well as Blake's. Apologizing, asking if Nigma and I were okay,and that he needed to speak with us.

The first few times we ignored it,until late 2018 and..this is essentially how the conversation went. [These kinda aren't in order I apologize]

Basically the gist of this conversation was that he wanted to be friends again and

after dealing with almost two years of drama,anxiety,disgust,self hatred,manipulation and so on. Nigma and I both said no. We felt it was safer without him in our lives (and honestly without him it has been so much better,we havent run into any drama whatsoever)

In response he tried to retaliate and claim that I blamed him for everything, a d that I wasn't taking my share for what /I/ had done

[After the September ordeal I informed my close friends of the situation,told them what was going on. I felt really fucking bad bc I stooped so low for basically nothing.)

I hate this type of behavior I really do.

After this conversation Nigma and myself have not heard a peep not even from a random account so by that standpoint we're pleased.

But for me personally I still have moments of anxiety,I still have times where I look at myself and I get extremely uncomfortable because it reminds me of a time where I exposed myself for someone who was being a fucking creep n' that I didnt see it sooner.

Not to mention he said he was keeping tabs on Nigma and I. It creeps me out and I sincerely hope he never comes back

Sorry this is long but I hope that partially explains why I'm uh...so????????¿¿¿

Yea.