#so now i am just resorting to screaming about it in unstructured posts while i get ready to clock in at work

[possamble]

like if you asked marcille outright if she thinks that falin loves her she'd be like "of course!!! we're best friends!!!" but if you asked her if she thinks that falin would sacrifice herself like that for her and ONLY her if laios was already safe,

she'd hem and haw and give a ton of non-answers that are basically making excuses for why falin might not want to do it, or why it wouldn't be worth it, before kind of changing the topic because she'd rather not think about it too hard.

and it's not that she's resentful about it and suppressing those feelings. she doesn't super care--she doesn't expect to have her devotion reciprocated in the least, it's all fine so long as falin is happy and she still gets to be a positive part of falin's life. it's just that outright claiming that falin doesn't care about her as much feels like a really mean accusation to her, and she's uncomfortable with it and doesn't want to think about it or talk about it.

she knows that falin cares about her! she even knows that she's special to falin! she just legit doesn't know that she's a huge part of falin's inner world. she thinks that, if push came to shove, falin would find a way to be perfectly happy without her--she already did when she left the academy the first time.

because, like, really. did falin ever even tell marcille that she missed her?

sorry if i seem way too obsessed about the slightly one-sided nature of farcille i eat that shit up when it's actually equally requited but one side feels like they're not as important

[angstandhappiness]

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sorry if i seem way too obsessed about the slightly one-sided nature of farcille i eat that shit up when it's actually equally requited but one side feels like they're not as important