#so. yeah. ostracization from femininity without any of the perks of masculinity is all i got | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

vamptastic · 1 year

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ngl the only part of the barbie movie i enjoyed was weird barbie. if they made a whole movie about kate mckinnon playing the visual representation of my childhood feelings on femininity i probably would have enjoyed it. i always loved my fucked up buzzcut leg missing barbies the most.

#idk i gave them to my sister when i was like...less than 5 so i don't actually rmbr playing by myself ever #i played with her though for some sibling bonding time #and she always FUCKED up that fake hair and i ended up cutting it off #...and hiding it in a box that my mom found which made her worried that i was the female ed gein or somesuch #although she did a good job of NOT projecting that fear onto me and didn't tell me until i came out as trans as a like #hey was that related #...anyway yeah idk its just the only part i could relate to as a trans person #never have really been perceived as a man or a woman by people nor did i really have a male or female childhood so #it just doesn't really speak to me idk #its mostly also just bc its a very simplified view of gender in that movie #like yeah i didn't ever experience strict expectations based on being AFAB because #once i got old enough for that to matter to people i was recognizably a lost cause (PCOS + budding transgenderism)#similarly i have yet to been handed the world on a platter for being a man. maybe one day.#so. yeah. ostracization from femininity without any of the perks of masculinity is all i got #which that character did do a decent job of representing... probably mostly on accident #im attributing that more to kate mckinnons acting than the actual script ngl

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