#soayon sa phone ko lahat binubuhos tapos sobrang wala ako energy to do home stuff werq stuff
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yung notes app ko here sa phone ko puro kalungkutan tots and feels laman kasi tbfh sobrang lungkot ko lately. i know it's important that i go through tough times and not run from them, but damn it, im just so tired of going through it. im so tired. im exhausted. i feel depleted. i just feel so weak and defeated all over.
#i wanna write all my sadness away on an actual notebook slash journal but im the kind of person that categorize slash organize things lmao#like the journal that i hv are for happy days or normal chill days#i dont hv a journal dedicated to sadness kqsi lately keri ko naman imanage mga kinakalungkutan ko#but ever since this recent great loss happened hindi ko na kaya imanage yung lungkot galit tampo sa circumstances sa buhay sa mundo sa laha#umiiyak ako kung saan man ako abutan ng lungkot like di ko mapigilan yung luha#a few days ago nasa bgc me kasi may three resto features kami tapos umiiyak ako habang nagshshoot shutangena#pero ayun sobrang lungkot ko talaga na gusto ko magpakalayo layo muna but also ayoko umalis ng bahay kasi kakauwi niya lang samin ulit#unfortunately umuwi siya in an urn na and i just cant gahd bakit parang ang highlight ng buhay ko ay death and grieving#pagod na pagod na pagod na ko#eniwey ayon nga i tried looking for a journal sa nbs nybg nakaraan pero nafrustrate ako kasi wala lang basta sobrang wala ako sa sarili ko#soayon sa phone ko lahat binubuhos tapos sobrang wala ako energy to do home stuff werq stuff#i just wanna drop all my responsibilities and wallow in sadness and anger and resentment#im avoiding questioning things but damn it bAkeht ba to kailangan mangyari#bAkeht ganito bAkeht kailangan may bawi parati#ang hirap maging thankful lately but im rlly trying my best and hardest#donut#p.s. binasa ko ulit tong post ko lalo na the tags and i saw grammatical errors pero wtvr malungkot ako ngayon kiber na nyeta
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