#somashyspeaks

[somatrashy]

my most recent ex reached out to me -.- i hate this shit. I blocked him so how come im getting iMessages on my comp fromhim. ???? fuck this dude tho he hurt me a lot and i told him that. He said sorry. Okaybutlikestillmad you half ass apologizing mf

[somatrashy]

Top 2: March 2020 August 2020

Bottom 2: beginning of December 2020

I didnt realize how gross I was until I lost the weight and looked back at myself. Most of my progress that has been visible has been in these last 2 months, sorry I dont have proper body checks

[somatrashy]

Aboutta get rejected so exciteddd

Edit: got rejected basically after i shared my true feelings for basically the first time ever. Hehe we love that left on read shit but like at the sane time its fine bc i broke up with him forever ago and so yeah its on me 10000% and i have no right to be feeling sadness rn.

Pictured above: me and my process of blocking out the feelings so i dont hurt no more (im rlly good at it)

[somatrashy]

Fasting today and going to bed hella early bc of it. Took a rest day yesterday pn the work outs but today i convinced myself to work out again

[somatrashy]

Hacks for resisting a binge if you hate mukbangs with a burning passion like i do. Watch the snapchat "food porn" tile. Its soo satisfying and they dont eat on there, just prepare yummy foods (mostly sweeets ngl)

[somatrashy]

is anyone else like fuck we are in march. its go time bc the warm months are here and i still gotta lose weight.

[somatrashy]

I just can't physically fast much longer. I feel very weak tbh and i havent even gotten out of bed yet but its been over 24 hrs so thats good :,)

[somatrashy]

Feeling so nauseous today might puke at work ngl

Typing thos while making my way to bathroom to puke

[somatrashy]

i threw away some food i got at lunch. i decided it was not worth it it didnt even taste that good but i know the damage is already done :,( i did just finish a 2ish day fast and i also have been working out but im worried bc ive come so far. I might purge at work .-. But whats the point since its already mostly absorbed

[somatrashy]

want. taco. bell. but must resist bc i am seeing homeboy now so i dont think i can stay this weight another second. im going to finish my 48 hr fast and sleep early. Im so exhausted, i can tell my body is not happy with me for not eating but im not hungry. I just crave chalupas lmfaooo

[somatrashy]

Im working out twice a day so i think im losing slower than last time bc of that but im still not eating much at alllllll and am drinking hellaaa water. One day in two weeks i predict (so third week of march) i will see some major results. If not imma be sad asf

[somatrashy]

Heads up i use the tag somashyspeaks whenever i make a text post so if youre tired of it you can block that tag im pretty sure !!

[somatrashy]

been talking to that dude again :,) he wants to go on dates n stuff hehehe . .

You know what that means :: starvinf myself with no end. When im talking to a guy it is a whole new motivation. Been fasting for two days, going to go for three. I just want to be skin kneeskinny, like 95 before the month is over ((not possible))

[somatrashy]

monday: fast until 8pm and ate a 500cal meal

tuesday: fast

wednesday: fast

[somatrashy]

My legginfs are a size 2 imma cry i havent been size 2 in soo goddamn longggg

[somatrashy]

slight update: cancer stick is working ;-; im not eating as much and by the end of the week i better be at my goal weight or else i rlly might kms hahaha ok not ok