#sometimes i want to be like a rich wine aunt who wears pearls and sleek black dresses

[the-woild-is-y-erster]

help i don’t ever openly speak abt my “dysphoria” it’s not really dysphoria but it’s literally like

WHY CANT I BE JESSE TUCK WHO SAID WHEN I CLIMB TREES I CANT SING TOP OF THE WORLD? WDYM THE PARK IS CLOSED AND IM TRESPASSING…

this sounds so bad but as a joke one time my friend said ‘you would break your leg if it would make you look like crutchie” and i was Like WOW, OKAY, LETS NOT SAY THAT BUT WTF?

the next day i nearly broke my foot falling over i guess foreshadowing but MAN I HAD TO SIT DOWN AND THINK FOR A SECOND AFTER THEY SAID THAT

i really just wanna be a silly boy but i am comfortable as a girl that’s why i use she/he but not they bc im not an inbetween u fucking nerd LOL

like some days i’m like “ooh shit if i was a dude wowee” then other days i’m like “wtf whyd i think that “

but nevertheless this year my skl is putting on a production of Wizard of oz..and i’m gonna go for the bold role of the scarecrow i think.or the wizard. or elephaba. BAHAHAH IM SORRY OK I WOUDLNT

i reccomended newsies to my theatre teacher who hates me and she was like “okayyy i’ll look into it…” and she never fucking did thanks 👍 picked to do ur GSCE and for what 😭😭

brooo we did a mashup of alice in wonderland and wizard of oz called dorothy in wonderland a few years back and i was the tin man and the cheshire cat!!! great roles except i had to paint myself entirely silver for the tin man💀💀

and one of my dream roles is jack(or davey im not picky) just so i can sing santa fe from some fake scaffolding!!! like let me wreck my voice but have the literal time of my life doing it!!!!

i sang an elvis song for a contest a couple of months ago (you dont have to say you love me if you care) and won and it was one of the best moments of my life??? and i was wearing this 1890s vest i sewed with elvis-patterned fabric and it was just dhjdjj but like??? cant i just be a guy?? cant i just have a deep voice and facial hair and get the roles i want??

but then i also get these days where im rly feminine and i love wearing dresses and makeup, but sometimes i also just want to be like a gnome

like no perceivable gender, pronouns menace/hateful(/j lmao)

me and a couple of other kids in my theater class had recommended newsies too but she said there was too much difficult choreo (half of us were dancers and gymnasts but ok) but i just

gashhdhjgaahhkkdlj i want to be. male

yknow?😘