#sooooo im obviously a little worried cause getting sick for me is dangerous

[bloodanddiscoballs]

I have a cold

[bigbrotherfiore]

episode two: “suck it up and ask me how my night is going, before you ask me for stuff” - haley

hoh: sara

evicted: jacob (13-0)

AMANDA: https://youtu.be/H48g2t4XbZA

ELISE: https://youtu.be/FqmpBzF5kSs

SZYMON: https://youtu.be/ihcTfWpqdWs

BRIANNA: https://youtu.be/_0EHb_kScnc

LANA: https://youtu.be/KhRDJjlz1zw

AMANDA: https://youtu.be/fXUeQXBexHI

FERG: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M2xcKxEEigk&feature=youtu.be

ELISE: https://youtu.be/3UL5-srETTg

JAKEY: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F1PB-oKqhXo

MIKKI: https://youtu.be/6kk8LRH_yPc

BRIANNA: https://youtu.be/q_QeDHZ__Lg

holy noodles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HoH!!!! Me and my alliance NEEDED this omg. Rich and Daly have gotten themselves in a deep pile of doodoo being too vocal about pushing names, so being able to protect them feels good. Celina going was a victory for me as well, and makes some loyalties very clear. I'm also SO glad Haley nabbed the safety so Brianna couldn't.... not that she's necessarily in trouble, but it keeps me and Haley more at a distance cause it shows Haley doesn't feel safe either.

Celina, I’m sorry but you had to go. With all of the news of side on the other side of the house and pre-gaming and knowing each other before hand, newbies like me don’t stand a damn chance!!! I am STOKED Sara won. OBVIOUSLY. We are just gonna March along until next week. I took safety this week because it wasn’t a bad punishment. AND now I can hide working with Sara. AND Brianna was typing and we couldn’t let her take it. (I truly am sorry, you’re just on the other side!) I wish Rich got it, but his phone wasn’t out. That hoh was hard and playing on my phone I didn’t stand a chance. I am straight up blessed that Sara won. I AM STOKED FOR THIS WEEK AND HOW THE VOTE WENT. I don’t even care if I’m Scary Haley. 💁🏻‍♀️ Now I just need to work through some stuff I said to the other side and move forward.

I am fucking FUMING!! MEGA FUCKING FUMING!!!!!! SO many people lied to me about this vote when they literally didn't have to??????? I have almost no connection to both of the nominees??? I didn't care who went it's just that people are already lying when I made it clear that I didn't care, but I'm not gonna blow up like Jacob did. He's burying his own game and I do not want to be associated with that or him. I did the exact opposite: I told everyone my thought process, why I voted Mazden out, and that I want to work with everyone in the future. For some people, I was being genuine like with Sara and the NFPS and Lana and Haley and basically every woman and Jared and Szymon (he already knew I was voting Mazden though). POSSIBLY Ferg too because he gave such a sweet response... But under all of this, I am mad. But no one can know. I AM going to win this game.

THE MARCHING BAND pulled that off!!!!!!! The best part is not one single person believes I had anything to do with the blindside because I didn't have to cast a vote. The blame is being split between Rich, Daly, and Haley which is not ideal but it is better than being on me!

So the Zoo is officially extinct!!! There is no way that Jacob is going to work with Jakey or Daly ever again after tonight but for some reason he still believes I had nothing to do with it. I need to keep Jacob in my back pocket in case he survives this week somehow and wins power next week. I am not gonna lie I do really like him as a person but he is starting to become a liability for me

Since Addilyn, Mikki, Jacob, Amanda, and Brianna are clearly on the bottom, I think it would be wise if I reached out to them and tried my best to make them feel like I had NOTHING to do with this move so that they can trust me if they win next HOH

Someone is spreading rumours that daly, rich, and myself are in an alliance and I am not down for it. Jacob needs to keep my name out of his mouth and get out of here already!!!

All I can say is I’m in shock after tonight events. I was led to believe that the vote was going to be like half and half... And while I’m sad to see Celina go, I mean... I GOT TO STAY! I’m so so happy that the house decided to save me. I definitely had to do some catch up but I mean, I think it paid off! I feel good about this week, moving forward and I just hope to keep these good vibes going! 😊

So first off I'm not that shocked that Celina went home tonight, because the tide shifted that way late last night and a very determined group was gunning for her! I hate that I told her that I was going to keep her safe, but then had to vote to get her out. But the connections she had could come back to bite me in the end! As far as HOH...I'm okay with Sara winning. I think I am good with her, and I think I will be okay this round. But if not....then it's GAME ON!

Brianna and szymon are my everything they are my people and I am taking them to the end if I can like I don't think I'll actually make it but I'm gonna do everything I can to get there and tbh I'll even like die for them to rise if I have to I just love them so much. I trust Brianna with my life and she is always by my side and going through all of it with me and she's so amazing at this game. my bb szymon is so supportive and smart and he's sooooo good at working out the best thing to do and he's found himself in a great position. I love them.

I DONT KNOW WHO TO TRUST besides Austin, sara, and rich. I like Szymon but he isn’t trusting, so I’m not truly sure how he even feels about me. I’m truly struggling to be nice to people who I think are crossing me. Like NO daly, I’m not going to be the fall guy for a plan that I MAY have suggested to you BUT SAID I WAS ON THE EDGE ABOUT that you literally took and fucking sprinted with. I feel really bad Rich was called out. Jacob needs to calm down. He’s trying to save himself by dragging everybody down. He’s also being like WEIRDLY nice and respectful to me in our chats so I’m even more worried. I need to make sure I’m messaging people at random times so they don’t put it together that I’m working with people. Austin calling Szymon right after we talked about him was fucking terrible. Hes not stupid! I don’t know how I’m going to blend back but I sure as hell need to try. 😒 Anybody who has my insignificant name in their mouth this early in the game needs to fall in a fucking hole. Not like a big dangerous hole. Just a little one...for a slight inconvenience to wake them up. I’m am NOT running the show here. I just wanted to save my friend. The SAME and the 5 that voted against her?!? WHATS MY CRIME?!

Jacob comes into my dm’s at 2am and starts accusing me of being a liar and going to Jakey and Daly, and telling them how he’s in 3 alliances. Like buddy. You don’t wanna get caught in the middle of sucking up to everyone in the house, don’t be a snake. He thought I would just back down and agree with whatever accusations he throws my way well he’s got another thing coming. I’m so sick of him acting like he’s the HOH this week when Sara is just gonna put him up anyways. Can’t wait to see him blindsided for the 2nd week in a row!

People are starting to tie me, rich, and Daly together and that is very concerning considering how strong minded players like rich and Daly are. I want to try and play low this week and hopefully distance myself from the boys to get the target off of my back

I can honestly say that The Marching Band is becoming a dominant force in this game! We have won back to back HOH competitions to start the season and we are sitting pretty! My only concern is we need to be a lot more careful of when multiple people in our four speak to people at the same time because people are slowly starting to connect the dots in this game that we may be working together in some form and if that gets out, multiple people will not trust me anymore

I don’t quite know how I feel about Daly in this game! No matter how hard I try to distance myself from him in this game, we keep getting grouped together in every way. I don’t know if he has my best interest in this game compared to Sara. I also find it super funny that nobody has really clued in on the fact that Daly and I live literally 2 hours from eachother and are from the same Province in Canada!

Y’all see this fight right now in the house chat. Your welcome. I fuelled the fire on this one hehe. I’m just gonna sit back and watch the tea spill

I can honestly say that I am 110% sure that I am safe this week. Sara and I are a f2 and there is no chance in hell that she puts me up! Hopefully we can take take out Jacob this week cuz he’s no good for anyone’s game but his own and even then he’s screwing that up for himself!

i'm at the bottom, sara's putting me and jacob up.  fucking hate it here i fucking hate this men's alliance.  "all women's alliance" my ASS.  fucking hate it i need to win this veto, i need need NEED to win this otherwise im screwed.

Sooooo. Veto didn’t go that great. I’m actually really upset because it’s definitely gonna look like I threw it, even though I just didn’t get any points my first 5 fucking rounds. Jacob has been extremely nice to me that last 24 hours and I realllllyyyy can’t figure it out. Like, is it a keep your friends close and your enemies closer thing? Because he knows I voted on the other side. But he called out everyone in that voice chat and then came to me totally respectfully. And has now told me multiple times I’m not his target. Is he trying to make me feel safe?? I need him to go. Austin wants him to go desperately. Talked to austin for a long time again. Two Sames is really up and running, but I need to pull my own weight 😂 I’m worried he has a target on his back but I’d do anything to protect him. Rich and Sara too. I definitely talk to Austin more but I am loyal to our core four and will not go against the Marching Band. I’m a hufflepuff damnit! Rich started the bb baddies with Mazden, himself, and I. I like Mazden, but I’m nervous she’s too trusting of the boys. She really likes jakey and Daly. And I know daly is willing to throw me under the bus if he has to and if that gets back to him im fucked. I kind of lost it a bit today when I mentioned in the baddies that I think Daly is playing by making sly calls and not having anything in writing. I tried to cover it by saying it’s a game move and I’d like to work with him but we will see if those comments come back at me. I need to be careful with everybody right now. Not as much the band and not as much with Austin...but I don’t need to give future ammunition. I feel bad knowing rich and I have a final 2. I do plan on honoring it if Austin doesn’t make it that far. I really like rich and he’s totally someone I would love to be around irl.. but Austin and I talk for an average of over an hour a night. He’s putting the work in to this alliance. And I need to be loyal to that. I don’t know what sara and I have, like if it’s an unofficial f2. But I’d be happy to sit next to her too. She’s smart and she’s playing the game. I respect her a lot. And I respect rich for making the Mazden move. I really don’t think I can take any credit for that. I planted some seeds but rich and Daly seemed to move mountains. I like Mazden, I’d like to keep her around. We will see how she continues to play as she works. I just hope sara or Brianna won veto. I didn’t stand a chance and Jacob needs to GO. I’ve got mr. nice guy in my inbox right now and I don’t think I trust him.

Brianna winning the POV is amazing for my game!! Brianna puts a huge target on her back by winning the first and second POVs of the season. Sara now has to make a replacement nominee and get more blood on her hand and finally Jacob can finally get the hell out of this house. He already started going to Sara trying to get her to put me up but we all know she will never do that so time to get rid of Jacob!

Of course Brianna would use the veto on herself. Anybody would. BUT I am absolutely shocked I did so well in the veto. Yes, Lana threw it.. but there’s no way Jacob and Sara did. I thought I was going to actually bomb it. So I can’t decide if getting second was good for my game or bad. My whole alliance is drinking tonight and I am a boring person so I’m BORED. Bored in the house and I’m in the house bored?? Lowkey annoyed I don’t have a life so I guess I’m going to bed crabby 😂 Jakey put more effort in to our relationship today. He played kind of desperate for friendship (how dare he steal my game) and I think he’s playing me. I didn’t talk to daly or ferg today. I’ll have to work on them. Amanda and Elise are trying really hard with me, which is nice!! Not to throw shade but my relationship with them was so subpar (yes it’s a two way street) that I could barley tell them apart and I forgot they were in sometimes. I’m trying to figure out why they’re trying harder. Do people honestly get the impression I’m some sort of swing vote?? Like am I actually playing the game?? Or is my position dead obvious?? I connected with Mikki today which was really nice. We connected about our LDRs and I’m so glad she gets the balance of game and an LDR. I know people are scared of her because she’s like that with everyone. But I wouldn’t mind keeping her around. Jacob is going down hard and he’s kind of dug his own grave?? But I can’t be mad because he’s been nothing but nice to me. I might have upset sara today? But I’m not sure and I know she’s busy so I’m just going to try again tomorrow and see how she is. She’s been super busy so I’ll be understanding. I’d obviously like to go far with the 4. Addilyn asked for my vote to keep her and I told her she had it but then she left me on read. Which is irritating but she still has it as far as I’m concerned because I’m not interested in going against the boys yet. It seems like the girls are targets right now and I’m not trying to be next. Jared also talked a bit more and asked me to call but I was already on the phone with matt. We decided on a future call, I wouldn’t mind connecting with him. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I need to win this hoh tomorrow.. but I’m not going to lie... I’ve been playing a middle of the road game so far and I realllllllllyyyyy don’t want to talk to everyone on call. I don’t have the time or energy to be fake with people and I obliviously can’t be real without outing myself.. I don’t even know who I’d nominate. I JUST WANNA MAKE JURY 😂 ... but if I don’t I guess it’s okay because I’m about to go back to school in person and teach in the middle of a god damn world pandemic. I guess I could probably focus on that...

Just a thought.. does Daly try to hold regular conversations with people?? Or does he just like to jump on them when there’s a decision to be made with absolutely no small talk before??? I know he’s busy with school..like he said in the chat.. but he comes at me all willy nilly looking for a decision and I don’t vibe with that. Fucking suck it up and ask me how my night is going before you ask me for stuff 😂 it’s like a man who doesn’t believe in foreplay. I. Don’t. Trust. Him. 🤷🏻‍♀️ But I didn’t lie tonight so this kid better not cross me yet. I’d like to vote with him for a bit. Then he can make his exit whenever. Hopefully before me, but with my luck he will outlast me 😒

I knew everyone was voting Celina and lying to me about voting mazden because 3 people who trust me told me everything and even told me who was telling them the majority was doing Celina and who was spreading lies about an all women alliance and a pregame alliance - I watched as rich and haley lied to me so strongly more so than anyone and honestly how they approached it made me feel kinda ickyyyy and I don't like it!!! so not a fan rn. but I made a point of telling them I trusted them and what not so they would feel guilty!! afterwards they both came crawling to me and that was weird but exactly what I was expecting - as I knew I was gonna get "blindsided" I prepared exactly how I was gonna make this situation work for me and that included being super understanding laughing it off and saying omg this is fun!!! this is big brother and telling the whole vc daly told me the truth so they all know that he told them to risk their games by lying while being honest about his vote himself to save his ass!!! if I was them I'd be pissed!!! so I pointed that out innocently. I also showed empathy to Austin and gave him a chance to deny he knew anything even tho I know he did!!! this led to Austin trusting me and wanting an alliance with me. - I know Austin is close with Sara and haley so when he asked me who I vibe with the most I said them, he doesn't think I know they are close because hello ego!! and what do you know, haley messages me a few hours later and is ultra friendly to me. he told her I liked her just like I planned!!! whoop - I'm pretty sure I'm Elise and fergs number one cos they trusted me and told me even tho they were scared because these people scared them into lying ahjjhhashsajahj SO they defs trust me this is good and I love them both so yay - szymon and I are continuing to be extremely undercover with our relationship we aren't on the same radar at all it's brilliant. - people seem to keep wanting to work with me after this vote and all seem to feel good with me??? they think I'm dumb, naive, bad at this game, and just here for a good time and that's exactly how I'm trying to make them think I am ashjhjhjsah that's how I'm playing this and I think it's working. they see me as an easy number to manipulate and that's what I want them to think before I can start making moves - oh I'm also telling people I wanted Celina gone cos I didn't wanna be tied with her so I'm actually happy lmao sahjashhjahjas even tho I should be in a bad position I think I'm in a good one because I took the knowledge of the blindside and used that knowledge to prepare how I can make it work for me and I think I'm making it work for me.  

I find it very interesting that Jacob is now trying to be all buddy buddy with me now that I didn't get put up on the block after he tried to get me up and now needs my vote. Time for you to go bud

i need to do more text diary room entries but im just so tired at this point.  it's only week two and i feel like i have a huge ass target painted on the center of my back for reasons that weren't even my fault.  like bruh.  i'm SICK.  let us get power next week please

I can't record rn so here is my angry rant; Jacob has the AUDACITY to throw me under the bus in the pursuit to save himself. Don't tank my game on your way out my good sir! Maybe I'm being completely lied to because everyone is so quiet and maybe Addilyn is going today but even Addilyn is quiet with me so I doubt she's going. No, I think people are wary of me because Jacob is doing this and that painting me as a duo with Jared and tight with Sara! And you know what that means? It means Mikki probably said something SO SHES AGAINST ME TOO NOW UGH I need to clutch hard to jared and sara and austin and szymon and shit and like... pick a side to protect me? I guess? I'm getting caught on playing the middle and if I keep doing it, no one will trust me. I have to show my loyalty to one side. Ugh. This is irritating like I know really I should just play better but why should I when i can just complain about jacob RUINING IT for me?? Jacob is great as a person and ill really miss joking w/ him in house chat but as a player, from the public interrogation to the shit-stirring I want him GONE BYE SIR DONT LET THE DOOR HIT YOU ON YOUR WAY OUTTTT AND DO NOT COME BACK ON A BUYBACK UHUH

Jacob is absolutely bottling his chance of staying this week. He asked me to go around and see if people would save him. Now why in the hell would I do that when he specifically went to the HOH trying to get me nominated this week and now act like that never happened. Time for you to go bud

I am really not sure how I currently feel about Daly... We knew each other coming into this game as the TobaBoys from Manitoba, Canada but I just worry that he doesn't have my best interest at hand. He is clearly one of the most popular people in the game alongside Szymon and that really scares me...

Click HERE to see the Goodbye Messages for Jacob.