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gay-victorian-astronomer · 4 months

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big feeling insecure about my writing hours

wish I could write faster. wish I had more time to do it. wish I weren't so ambitious, so verbose. wish I weren't so perfectionistic and could embrace the "write the parts you want and stick it together with duct tape" approach. wish I could know that my fixation on this fandom would carry me through the process of writing this (and ideally my other fic ideas too). wish I could know that people will still care about this story when I'm done with it (wish I could know that people are interested in it now). wish I weren't still on chapter fucking three of this fucking eight chapter fic. wish I had the technical skills to pull it off.

wishing for a lot of things and feeling like I'm going to get none of them.

#chattering #vent #sorry y'all I haven't been feeling great about myself lately and evidently that's been bleeding into my feelings about my writing #feels like I kinda needed to get that out of my system #I also might try and talk to one of the creative writing professors about some of this at the writer's lounge tomorrow #he might have some advice #idk man it's been a rough couple weeks #I'm having trouble finding enough time to devote to my schoolwork let alone writing- I get one guaranteed 2 hour block a week and that's IT #and a lot of my creative juices are getting redirected towards my poetry class #to anyone else who's trying to write fanfic while being a college student you are stronger than any US marine this shit is HARD

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